As soon as Xu Wanning stepped into the ancestral hall of Yan Mansion, she felt a little cold.
She looked at the tablets in front of her and knew that most of them died on the battlefield, including Yan Yuanzheng's parents.
The only thing left in the Yan family is Yan Yuanzheng. The sword is blind on the battlefield, and no one can guarantee that they will come back alive.
That's why the old lady is so anxious.
As far as the Qi Dynasty was concerned, the Yan family was indeed full of loyal people, which was one of the reasons why Yan Yuanzheng won the trust of the emperor.
"Mommy, please go back. You are not in good health to begin with. If you continue to suffer with me, I will feel uneasy."
"How is this possible? You are still here, how can this old slave leave?"
Xu Wanning persuaded her again, and Grandma Li said she would not leave, but after only two attempts, she went back.
"Mommy walked too fast."
Zhi Xia felt a little dissatisfied.
Xu Wanning smiled and said nothing, "It would be better if we were the master and servant alone. If she were here, then I would have to kneel down, but now I can still sit."
Xu Wanning sat on the futon.
"Madam, when did grandma take refuge in the old lady? I didn't realize it before?"
Xu Wanning took her hand: "Maybe she took refuge just after I got married."
"Aren't you feeling uncomfortable, madam?"
Zhixia asked cautiously: "I know that you treat grandma as a relative. If you are sad, I will..."
Xu Wanning shook her head and said softly: "Zhi Xia, don't worry, I'm fine."
Her tears had dried up long ago in her previous life.
"But I always feel that Madam doesn't care at all."
Even though Madam was smiling on the surface, as if she was calm and gentle, Zhixia felt that Madam was feeling bitter inside.
"Then Madam is not happy because of what happened today? In fact, even the servants know that it is the General's problem. He is unwilling to consummate the marriage with Madam. How can you blame Madam? The old Madam is unreasonable. Madam, please don't take it to heart. superior."
Xu Wanning shook his head, "I'm really not angry at Zhi Xia."
She suffered too much in her previous life, and even if the old lady humiliated her today, she didn't seem to have any fluctuations in her heart.
Because compared to what he had experienced before, the old lady’s methods were nothing to mention.
"I know it's not my fault."
"The old lady is reluctant to blame her only grandson, and she doesn't dare to blame Xu Wanyu, so she can only blame me, because I have no one to support me."
“So instead of wasting time getting angry, try to find a way to change the situation.”
Zhixia nodded and agreed very much:
"It would be great if the general could care for his wife. Then she will have someone to rely on in the future, and her life will be much easier. At least she won't be as frustrated as she is today."
Xu Wan Ning remained silent, only staring at the tablet above, her eyes clearly extinguished.
Lian Zhixia also subconsciously felt that the only person she could rely on now was Yan Yuanzheng, and she could only win Yan Yuanzheng's favor.
Because Yan Yuanzheng is her husband.
Thinking about it carefully, it seems that a woman can only be trapped in the inner house her whole life.
In the first half of life, one relies on the father's family, and in the second half of one's life, one can only rely on her husband.
"Zhi Xia, he likes Xu Wanyu, and I don't want to waste my time on him. Besides, I know that even if he really likes me, he can't protect me."
She had already tried it in her previous life, and this path simply didn't work.
Her enemy was Xu Wanyu, who would become Xu Jieyu in the future, the emperor's only concubine, and her stepmother Princess Yi'an.
So if she really wants to change the outcome of this life, there is only one person who can help her, and that is the Emperor.
Zhi Xia was a little puzzled: "Besides the general, who else can take care of my wife?"
Zhixia followed Xu Wanning out of the Hou's mansion, and naturally knew the Hou's attitude towards his wife.
"I'm not sure now, but I have to try some things."
Xu Wanning's voice was very soft.
"Zhi Xia, it would be great if I were a man."
When Xu Wanning was young, she thought countless times why she was not a man.
If she had been a man, the mother would not have died.
She can also study for the imperial examination and make achievements.
The world is vast and you can fight for anything you want.
She will also work hard to be the support of her two sisters.
It's a pity that she is only a woman.
As a woman, she couldn't even protect herself, let alone her relatives.
Zhixia had never thought about this problem before, but she saw Xu Wanning's sadness and quickly comforted her:
"Madam, my mother once said that everything arranged by God must have its own reasons. This slave also feels the same way."
Xu Wanning lowered his eyes and thought.
After a long while, she spoke: "Zhixia, your mother may be right."
God asked her to be a woman, so she should use her own advantages.
She should abandon those three obediences and four virtues and those disciplines in the past more thoroughly. She should no longer be affected by them, let alone be burdened with what she has to do in the future.
Because she had no escape route and no choice.
"Just think about it clearly, Madam. I just hope that Madam will be happy."
Xu Wanning smiled slightly but did not speak.
Only if Xu Wanyu and the others were dead, she might be really happy.
If they live one more day, no matter how happy they are, it will be cast a thick shadow.
"Madam, it's really cold in this ancestral hall. Fortunately, I can go back to the Marquis' Mansion tomorrow, so I only have to stay here for one night."
Xu Wanning said nothing. She would rather kneel here than go back to the Hou Mansion.
But eldest sister and the others will all go there tomorrow.
She also wanted to meet them. The last time they met was in her previous life.
"The Marquis didn't want you to go back in the past. Maybe the Fourth Miss said something this time."
Xu Wan Ning nodded, she understood why Xu Wan Yu called her back.
They thought they drank the bowl of poison and wanted her to see clearly the situation of her two sisters, making her even more anxious.
The next day, someone from the Xu Mansion came to pick her up. The old lady didn't say a word, and she got on the carriage smoothly.
She had been married to the Yan Mansion for two years in her previous life. Except for special occasions such as elders' birthdays and New Year's Day, it was impossible for her to return to the Xu Mansion, let alone go out.
This time it was also because of Xu Wanyu that the old lady was so happy.
When she returned to the Xu Mansion, she first paid her respects to the old lady.
When she passed by, her stepmother and Xu Wanyu happened to be there.
Xu Wanyu sat next to the old lady, and the old lady held her hand happily.
Mrs. Xu and her stepmother looked at Xu Wanyu with a gentle smile on her face.
Anyone who sees the scene inside the house will only feel warm.
But such a good atmosphere disappeared instantly with her arrival.
"Greetings to my grandmother and mother."
The room was quiet for a few seconds, and everyone's smiles seemed to fade away.
During those years in the Xu family, she had been treated like this.
Xu Wan Ning also knows very well that she will always be an outsider and a redundant person in the Xu family.
Only stepmother and father, Xu Wanyu, brother and sister, they are a real family.
The old lady's eyes fell on her, and she only glanced at her lightly, "Well, sit down, it's a rare time for you to come back."
The old lady's tone was cold, as if she was talking to a distant relative she didn't like.
"Your eldest sister and the others should be here too. Today you sisters will have dinner at home before leaving."
"Thank you grandma."
Xu Wanning sat at the bottom.
Her grandmother and grandfather didn't like her mother, so they naturally didn't like her either.
The stepmother has a noble status and gave birth to a pair of twins for the Xu family.
The only real daughter-in-law in their hearts is their stepmother.
Ever since Xu Wanning was a child, her grandparents had never given her any good looks.
But in her previous life, when she was dying of lingering illness, her grandmother suddenly came to visit her.
Grandma's eyes were red, her attitude was much better than before, and her words were more caring.
A few days later, Xu Wanning heard that her grandmother was crazy.
A few days later, the news of her grandfather's sudden death also reached her.
In just a few days, my healthy grandparents and grandparents passed away one after another.
At that time, Xu Wanning didn't have any sadness in her heart, only joy.
She knew that their deaths were strange, but she didn't know the specific reasons.
