Lu Qing gradually improved, and Jiu Geer also woke up.
Perhaps because he had experienced the pain of almost losing, Lu Qing could not wait to set his eyes on Brother Jiu and observe his every move all the time.
Yan Fuguang also advised her to take good care of her body, but Lu Qing didn't listen even after telling her several times, and he couldn't bear to see Brother Jiu's increasingly thinner face.
The drowning this time damaged Brother Jiu's foundation. He had recurring fevers every day. Sometimes the temperature was so high that it was so hot that it would cause him to fall into coma and cry but couldn't wake him up.
Lu Qing often watched him cry and couldn't sleep all night.
For this reason, Yan Fuguang went to ask for two Taoist talismans and came back. He folded the Taoist talismans into Bagua shapes, put them into a brocade bag, and then hung the brocade bag on Brother Jiu's bed.
A few days later, Jiu Ge'er got better. Although he still had fever frequently, it was no longer as scary as before.
Lu Qing didn't care about herself and stayed with Brother Jiu whenever she had time. The child was sick and relied on her mother the most, and she couldn't bear to leave Jiu Ge'er for even half a step.
Holding the weak and thin Brother Ninth in her arms, Lu Qing missed him when he was chubby.
"Where's my brother?"
Brother Jiu's mouth was very dry and his face looked ugly. Lu Qing gave him some warm water.
"The eldest brother has gone to study, and the second brother is in the east wing. Do you miss your brothers?"
Brother Jiu nodded sadly. He and Brother Yu were inseparable on weekdays. He hadn't seen Brother Yu for a while. He was not used to it.
So Lu Qing asked Ji Qin to bring Brother Yu over.
"Mother." Brother Yu stood by the bed, his eyes swept from Lu Qing to Brother Jiu in her arms, and he called out in a low voice, "Brother."
Brother Jiu has very little waking time these days. When Brother Yu comes to see him, he just lies on the bedside and whispers some whispers to Brother Jiu before leaving. He also misses his mother and brother, but his brother said that mother and brother His younger brothers were both sick and he wanted them to have a good rest, so he was obedient.
Brother Yu was still lying on the edge of the bed. He looked at Brother Jiu and asked softly, "Does it still hurt?"
Brother Jiu looked at him and smiled slightly: "It doesn't hurt."
He was so strong that he often vomited after drinking medicine. The next time it was brought to him, he still raised his head without saying a word and sulked. Lu Qing paused and blinked his eyes quickly to fight back the tears that were about to well up.
Brother Jiu whispered to Brother Yu again: "Come up."
Brother Yu kicked off his shoes, grabbed Lu Qing's extended hand, and climbed onto the bed with great difficulty.
"Where's my mother? Does it hurt?" He sat on the bed and raised his head and asked.
Lu Qing touched his forehead and said warmly: "It doesn't hurt anymore. Mom is an adult. She will get better soon."
Brother Yu took a careful look around Lu Qing's neck. The traces were much lighter, and he nodded secretly.
Lu Qing watched him helplessly, feeling sad that Brother Yu had become well-behaved and sensible during this period, but she really couldn't spare the extra energy to care about Brother Yu. Guilt and heartache kept intertwining, and she stretched out a hand: " Mother, give me a hug.”
Brother Yu shook his head, crawled over on his hands and knees and knelt down in front of Lu Qing, face to face.
He stretched out his hand and put his right hand tentatively on Brother Jiu's shoulder, imitating Lu Qing's previous movements of coaxing them to sleep and patting them gently: "Are you feeling better?"
Brother Jiu grabbed Brother Yu's left hand and held it tightly: "Yes."
Brother Yu kept patting him like this until Brother Jiu fell asleep in Lu Qing's arms.
Seeing Lu Qing put Brother Jiu in the quilt and wrap him up, he exhaled: "If you fall asleep, it won't hurt anymore."
Lu Qing turned around, hugged him into her arms, and kissed his forehead.
Brother Yu returned the kiss and moved to get down. His mother was also sick. He was very heavy and it would be very tiring to hold him.
"Our brother Yu is the best child in the world."
Brother Yu pursed his lips and said, "Brother and younger brother, too."
Lu Qing couldn't bear her emotions and shed tears again.
These days, she often fell into an emotional swamp of self-blame, thinking that if she hadn't taken Brother Jiu to the garden and took him to see fish, these things would not have happened. In other words, if she was not resented by Qiao Siyu, she would not involve Brother Jiu.
Seeing that Brother Jiu had suffered so much, and that the originally healthy child had become sickly and frail after going through hell, she felt very guilty and regretful.
Yan Fuguang realized that something was getting more and more wrong with Lu Qing. He stayed with her almost every night, but she woke up every day with black and blue under her eyes.
He calmed his breathing and pretended to sleep for a while. Then he suddenly reached out and touched Lu Qing's face.
Sure enough, I touched my hands full of tears.
Yan Fuguang immediately got up and lit the candle, returned to the bed and picked up Lu Qing: "What's wrong? Have you been awake at night recently and been crying?"
Lu Qing cried quietly, and Yan Fuguang wiped away her tears and asked again.
Only then did she judge herself: "It's all my fault. I harmed Brother Ninth... I harmed Brother Ninth..."
Yan Fuguang didn't know that she was forcing herself to the point where she couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, and became increasingly haggard.
"What's your fault?" He was helpless, "It's Qiao's fault. Why should you take the responsibility on yourself?"
Her face that had just been wiped dry became wet again. Lu Qing shook her head and said absently: "I brought Brother Jiu to the pond. I didn't protect him well..."
Yan Fuguang sighed: "Ms. Qiao is simply crazy. You have been so seriously injured. It is not your responsibility for not protecting Brother Ninth."
He never blamed Lu Qing at all. Those who deserved to be punished had already been dealt with. What he didn't expect was that Lu Qing was also punishing herself.
"No, no, no..." Lu Qing's hair was disheveled, and her thin face was full of tears. She bit her fingers helplessly and painfully recalled the situation that day, "I let Brother Jiu get too close to the water... When I heard Qiao Siyu's voice, I should have taken Brother Jiu away... When Qiao Siyu strangled my neck, I just pressed the hairpin harder into her eyes... When Brother Jiu was pushed away, I He should be allowed to run away..."
At this time, she couldn't listen to anything anymore. She thought about her "mistake" over and over in her mind and tortured herself over and over again.
Yan Fuguang held her tightly in his arms: "It's not your fault, it's not your fault, Brother Ninth will be fine too."
"Woo..." Lu Qing rested her head on Yan Fuguang's shoulder, as if she couldn't stop crying.
Yan Fuguang patiently stroked her back: "Listen to me, Brother Jiu is gradually getting better. We will take good care of him in the future. He will grow up and get married in the future." If you give birth to a child, you will live a good life. You want to protect Brother Ninth, so you blame yourself and feel guilty, but Brother Ninth also wants to protect you, and he will definitely not regret biting Mrs. Qiao. He is a good child, and you are also a good mother. "
Lu Qing opened her eyes blankly, and Yan Fuguang's voice gradually calmed her down. Finally, she leaned into Yan Fuguang's arms and slowly closed her eyes.
