Su Yi bit her lower lip suddenly.
He didn't remember.
But he remembered the dreams these days clearly.
Tanger was twelve years old that year and had just lost her mother four years ago.
Su Muyao's birthday happened to be two days apart from Tang'er's.
The three brothers carefully organized a birthday party for Su Muyao and prepared gifts.
Unexpectedly, after the banquet, Su Muyao ran back to the courtyard with red eyes.
They hurriedly chased after her and asked her distressedly what was wrong.
Su Muyao's eyes turned red and she asked if she hadn't seen Tang'er all day today. Could it be that Tang'er was angry with her and didn't want to celebrate her birthday.
When the three brothers heard this, they were immediately filled with anger.
He gave Su Muyao a carefully prepared white jade-inlaid blond hairpin, and coaxed Su Muyao to sleep with him.
After that, he rushed to Tang'er's room angrily.
No one was found, but it was Su Muyao's maid who said she saw Su Ruotang in Meiyuan.
He went straight to Meiyuan with anger in his eyes.
Looking at Tang'er who was standing under the plum tree holding a cup to catch the dewdrops, he angrily slapped the cup out of her hand and angrily said, "Don't you know that today is Yao'er's birthday?"
"How dare you not go to her birthday party? Do you know that she thought you didn't like her and cried until her eyes were swollen!"
He clearly remembered that at that time, Tang'er's little face, as big as a palm, was as pale as paper, with complicated eyes.
Her lips moved, but she didn't speak in the end. She just stared blankly at the cup that was smashed on the ground.
She slowly squatted down, stretched out her thin hand with old wounds and new wounds, and picked up the broken cup.
Recalling this, Su Ruotang's cold and indifferent voice came, "Su Yi, because you like tea made with plum tree dew, she spent the whole night in the plum garden picking dew from the plum trees for you."
"Just so you can drink sweet tea when you open your eyes the next day."
Su Ruotang looked at Su Yi quietly, and her calm voice seemed to be talking about someone other than herself, "Her joints all over her body were frostbitten, she had a high fever and collected dewdrops in the middle of the night, but you slapped her down."
"You couldn't see her pale face and scolded her angrily."
"When you turned to leave, she only asked, for her birthday in two days, can you give her a crabapple hairpin?"
"But what about you? What did you say?"
Su Yi's face suddenly turned pale and he staggered.
He showed a smile that was uglier than crying: "Tang'er, I..."
Su Shao looked at Su Yi's pale face and was confused, "Su Ruotang, what are you talking about? Why is she not hers? Who is she?"
Su Yi's lips moved, and his throat seemed to be blocked by a foreign object, making him choke and hurt.
He struggled to say: "She is Tang'er."
That Tang'er who died miserably in her dream.
Su Shao couldn't understand: "Then why did Su Ruotang talk about her instead of me? What did she want to express?"
Su Yi closed his eyes, with bitterness on his face.
He didn't know how to explain the dream to Su Shao.
That... Tang'er also had a dream.
Su Ruotang stared at Su Shao: "Su Shao, do you want to know what she wants to express?"
Su Shao subconsciously looked at Su Ruotang.
A low laugh escaped Su Ruotang's lips.
Her laughter gradually grew louder, and she looked at Su Shao, her smile not reaching her eyes, "I tell you, because I am not her."
"She's dead!"
"I was killed by you!"
Su Shao couldn't understand these three sentences.
Suddenly there seemed to be a missing piece in his heart, feeling empty and extremely uncomfortable.
His eyes were full of doubts.
Su Ruotang looked into his eyes steadily and said word by word: "She died when she was eighteen. I am not her now."
Su Shao became more and more confused.
Before he could speak, Su Yi staggered suddenly, and blood spilled from the corners of his lips.
Xia Lan quickly supported him and exclaimed, "Elder brother!"
Su Shao was brought back to his senses by Xia Lan's alarm and subconsciously supported Su Yi.
He could clearly feel that Su Yi's body became stiffer inch by inch.
"She poured out her heart and soul to you. What did she get in return?"
"In exchange for your disgust, your beatings and scoldings!"
"Her hand bones were broken, her fingers were scratched, and the wounds were so deep that the bones were visible. She had a high fever and was in coma for three days and three nights. She screamed your names in pain, but what about you?"
"You think she pretended to be sick to gain sympathy, but you scolded her even more mercilessly."
"Su Muyao was playing in the snow and caught the wind and cold. You hired the best doctor for her, and you punished her by kneeling in the snow for a day and a night!"
"The reason is that she failed to take good care of her sister and made her sick, and she almost died because of it!"
"I hope that if she died on that snowy night, she would be spared a few years of torture."
"She couldn't even figure out why her brothers who loved her so much would become like this after her mother died."
"She thinks it's her fault and tries hard to please you. She just hopes you can give her a little bit of care."
"She was once a treasure held in the palm of someone's hand. She knew that children who cried would get sweets. She cried, but what did she get?"
"It's your scolding, it's because I was locked up in the woodshed, it's because I didn't have a sip of water or a grain of rice for three days in a row!"
"She cries and you scold her for being ignorant, so she doesn't dare to cry and wants to be a sensible child."
"She thought that this way you would care about her like you did before."
"But it took her ten years, but she didn't even wait for the slightest bit of concern from you."
"She was so tired that she couldn't breathe even when she slept. She didn't know what she had done wrong and why you all changed after your mother left."
"Su Yi, Su Shao, she is also a person of flesh and blood! She can really feel pain!"
When he said these words, Su Ruotang's tone did not fluctuate at all.
If she didn't know that the 'her' she was referring to was herself, no one would believe that what she stated was what she had experienced.
Mu Chen's heart trembled and he looked at her blankly.
The bright and beautiful girl in front of her was clearly smiling.
But the sadness in that look was heartbreaking.
“When an avalanche occurs, no snowflake is innocent.”
"Su Yi, you can't get her forgiveness, and you never will."
"Actually, I can understand if you don't regard her as your sister."
"After all, you and her are not related by blood."
Su Yi shook his head, his voice hoarse and broken, "No...no...you will always be my sister..."
"Forever sister..."
The tears in his eyes were like broken beads, rolling down his cheeks and falling into the soil, smearing darkly.
"Su Yi, I have a brother."
"And she doesn't need a brother anymore."
Su Ruotang's light voice fell and she didn't look at Su Yi and Su Shao again.
She looked sideways at Mu Chen, arched her eyebrows, and said with a smile in her clear eyes, "Brother, let's go in."
Mu Chen nodded and said distressedly, "Sister, my brother will protect you from now on!"
The young man's eyes were bright and clear.
His eyes were full of seriousness and determination.
Su Ruotang was startled, and a smile slowly spread in his eyes.
At this moment, she truly accepted the cheap brother who came to her door, "Okay."
Su Yi felt an explosion of pain in his chest.
He watched blankly as Su Ruotang and Mu Chen entered the Third Prince's Mansion.
After a long time, he stopped crying.
He pushed away Xia Lan and Su Shao's support and walked forward in confusion, step by step.
Suddenly he stepped on something and fell to the ground.
The sandalwood box in his hand fell, and the roughly carved wooden hairpin inside rolled to the ground, stained with mud.
He got up and went to pick up the hairpin.
But as if he was too anxious, he fell to the ground again, and more and more bright red spilled from the corners of his mouth, smashing into dark flowers on the ground.
As if he couldn't feel it, he crawled towards the place where the wooden hairpin fell.
The white and slender fingers were stained with mud and blood.
The moment he touched the wooden hairpin, he clenched it tightly.
Like a child who got his favorite toy, he held the wooden hairpin tightly and pressed it to his chest.
The corner of his mouth also raised a warm smile.
Ke smiled and tears fell down again.
Xia Lan and Su Shao squatted beside him worriedly, reaching out to help him.
But seeing the weird smile on Su Yi's face, I was shocked.
Su Shao called out anxiously: "Brother..."
Su Yi raised his eyes blankly and gave a smile that was uglier than crying.
He moved his lips and spit out broken syllables that were extremely light and airy, "I don't have a sister anymore..."
As the low, almost inaudible final sound fell, he slowly closed his eyes.
Only the hand on his heart was still holding the wooden hairpin tightly.
