"Sister!" As expected, the voice was Shen Miao.
"Yeah." She simply responded, thinking that she would have to go back to pack her luggage and go to the airport. It would be midnight when she got home and she would have to get up early for training the next day. Tong Xinyao couldn't get excited.
"Congratulations to sister for getting the highest score in the game. How about taking you to eat delicious food?" Shen Miao had the opposite mood to hers.
"I'm not going. I have a flight at 10 o'clock tonight. I'll just have something to eat and go back to pack my luggage." Tong Xinyao continued to pack the things on her dressing table without changing her expression.
Shen Miao finally felt Tong Xinyao's unhappiness, "Why did you go back so early this time? Did something happen?"
"No, I have to train tomorrow, so go back early. It's okay to stay here for half a day."
"Then sister, come with me to the cafeteria to eat. Tomorrow is the weekend, so there won't be many people in the cafeteria today."
Tong Xinyao turned her head and looked at Shen Miao for a while. She still had to eat, and there was no need to embarrass her brother. "Okay, wait for me a little longer."
Shen Miao pulled up the chair next to Tong Xinyao and sat down, "Don't be in a hurry, we have a flight at ten o'clock, so we have plenty of time."
Tong Xinyao couldn't help but look at Shen Miao's innocent face again. Once upon a time, she was so simple. She only saw training and competition every day. The reasons for sadness and happiness were also very simple, so she digested her emotions quickly. The most important thing It was because I had no achievements before and could be happy alone as long as I made a little progress, but now...
"I'm fine, let's go."
Shen Miao took Tong Xinyao to the second floor, where she and Chen Zhiyuan had dinner the day before yesterday. There were fewer people here and they could talk more freely.
"Sister is from Guangdong, right? Then let's eat my sister's hometown food, over there."
Tong Xinyao didn't care. What kind of authentic dishes could be made in a small canteen, as long as there was enough time, "Okay."
Shen Miao handed over the ordering authority to Tong Xinyao. Tong Xinyao randomly ordered a few small portions and hurriedly finished her meal and went back to pack her luggage.
"What's wrong, sister? Why don't you look happy?"
"Do you really want to know?" Seeing how persistent he was, Tong Xinyao might be able to tell him. She had long regarded him as a friend, not a staff member.
"Of course!"
"I want to quit the competition..." She has been thinking about it for many days, and her efforts to show a perfect performance are entirely out of the spirit of the contract, not about how much she likes her.
"Retired?" Shen Miao stared, "Didn't we compete well? Why did we withdraw? My sister just got the highest score in the game today!"
"It's just a fluke. Everyone's skills are pretty good. I've been really tired recently and feel like I'm going to collapse." The more I talked, the more tired I felt.
"What's wrong, sister, you can tell me."
Tong Xinyao's emotions couldn't be restrained. She didn't know who to confide in the emotions that had accumulated during this period. Coach Wang Li was half a mother only on training days and would tell her everything. But now because she has taken on other tasks. The work squeezed the training time and the training level was poor. She didn't dare to tell her about her anxiety.
Although her brother couldn't give her any advice, at least she could feel better if she expressed her inner depression.
"Recently... I always feel that I am very busy, flying here and there. It seems that I am not missing any time from training or participating in variety shows, but the training status and progress are not good, and I don't have much time to practice dancing. All of them are before recording. I just tried my best to remedy it. It was very stressful and utilitarian, and it was not the effect I wanted. I was so busy that I didn’t know what I was doing.” As he spoke, tears fell down uncontrollably.
Shen Miao was frightened, and immediately pulled out a few pieces of paper and handed them to Tong Xinyao, "Sister, just cry if you want to. It should make you feel better if you cry." He didn't know how to comfort her for a while, "Sister, after all, is an active athlete, skating This is my sister’s main business. If I feel like I can’t take care of both, just give up. I support my sister’s choice.”
"Well, I will think about it again." At least I have to wait for myself to calm down first and not do things impulsively. "I used to just want to do one thing well, but now I have some achievements in it, and I want to I accomplish other things, but find that I don’t have that much energy, so it’s really contradictory.”
"Sister, you really need to take some time to think it over, and don't put too much pressure on yourself. I think you can find some hobbies to distract your attention after training. Sometimes emo is just a dead end that we have inexplicably entered. In fact, As long as you put your attention elsewhere for a moment, you’ll feel like it’s no big deal and it will come out somehow.”
He doesn't understand a lot even though he's young, and what he said makes sense.
"I know," Tong Xinyao felt that what he said made sense and she felt less depressed. "But you, are you really studying musical theater? Could you be secretly minoring in psychology?"
"Practice brings true knowledge. My experience has been enriched. It's too late today. I'll tell my sister later, hehe." He looked mysterious.
"It's so exciting that I won't ask, huh."
It's not that I want to whet her appetite, but this experience is difficult to talk about, and Shen Miao feels that it's not the time to talk about it yet.
After eating, Shen Miao sent Tong Xinyao back to the dormitory downstairs as usual. Unlike before, Shen Miao seemed even more reluctant to leave, "If sister withdraws from the competition, will she never be able to see her again? How about I send her back?" Sister, let’s go to the airport.”
"How come, idiot, don't act like you'll never meet again. The airport is so far away from here, how late you came back." In fact, Tong Xinyao also knew that there might be very few opportunities to meet in the future, but she still had to make the best of it. Xiang Xiang thought, "You are still so young, you may not know where you will go in the future. Besides, if you become a musical actor and you have to tour the country, you have to leave the first row of tickets to me." "
"That's for sure! When I'm free during the holidays, can I go to the Imperial Capital to play with you? I only went to the Imperial Capital once when I was a child."
"Of course you can. You can also come and watch me compete. After the competition, we can still play locally. Let me tell you, some places are really fun. The scenery is completely different from ours."
"Okay, it's a deal!" Shen Miao looked forward to seeing Tong Xinyao next time.
"Okay, I really have to go up, otherwise it will be too late, huh?" Tong Xinyao tilted her head to take a look at Shen Miao's condition.
"Okay." Longing returns to longing. Parting always makes people sad. Shen Miao is still not happy.
In order to lighten the atmosphere, Tong Xinyao added, "Hey, maybe I won't be able to withdraw from the competition and come back next week, hahaha."
Shen Miao finally smiled, "In the end, sister must have persisted until the last episode just to see me."
Being able to joke means it's okay, "It's possible, maybe."
"We really have to leave, please go back quickly." Tong Xinyao waved her hand.
"Okay, sister, go up first and then I'll leave."
Tong Xinyao had no choice but to turn around and leave. Shen Miao stood downstairs for a while before leaving. Just now in front of Tong Xinyao, he had tried his best to control his sad emotions. After this separation, the depression in his heart grew and spread infinitely.
