I have to say that whenever she faced Luo Xingzhou, Lu Wanning would feel that she had no secrets.
He had the keenness to see through everything, but he was not sharp, so it was difficult for her to have the idea of concealing it.
In fact, Lu Wanning once thought that if she had not fallen in love with Gu Huaimo, Luo Xingzhou would probably be her ideal partner.
But there are no ifs in the world.
What's more, she and Luo Xingzhou had known each other much earlier, didn't they still not have feelings for each other?
"Get off the car first, let's change places to catch up on old times." Luo Xingzhou finally reminded Lu Wanning to get off the car.
Then I came to that familiar room after a long absence.
The furnishings in the house are the same as always, simple yet warm. Although the sparrow is small, it has all the internal organs.
The sofa and coffee table are in the center, with several pots of green plants surrounding them. They look full of life and should always be taken care of.
The desk added at Lu Wanning's request was placed in the corner by the window.
There is a small bookshelf above, with only a few books in it, and more of them are sealed notebooks.
The nightmares, confusion, and struggles that she had been unable to express were all stored in this corner.
Probably because they hadn't seen each other for a long time, they chatted for a long time this time.
But what Lu Wanning focused on was what happened after she had the precognitive dream. She talked about how she suddenly and urgently hoped that the people around her would be safe and healthy. She said she felt a little guilty. Sometimes she suddenly felt that she was extra selfish and only lived in her own world. .
In the end, she even talked about some of her expectations for Lu's future, saying that she hoped that future projects would proceed as planned.
During this period, Luo Xingzhou mostly just listened and responded, and only rarely asked:
"Do you feel guilty because of Zhuang Yan?"
Lu Wanning nodded in silence, but then shook her head: "More than that."
In addition to Zhuang Yan, there was also her insistence on marrying Gu Huaimo.
At that time, the Gu family was interested in getting married, but more importantly, they wanted to join forces with the Lu family to further monopolize the entire industry.
But her parents always put her first. If she didn't like Gu Huaimo at that time, then everything in the precognitive dream would not have happened, and naturally she would not be as worried as she is now.
Luo Xingzhou thought for a moment and gave her a new perspective: "But in life, there is no perfect choice. Sometimes you will suddenly find that no matter what you choose, it seems to be wrong."
"But actually, no matter which choice you make, you can do it."
"But I think you should also understand this...it's just that emotions are always uncontrollable." Luo Xingzhou looked at her, his voice was gentle but convincing, "Of course, the existence of any emotion or personality is also reasonable. "
"Just as courage lies between cowardice and recklessness, wit lies between comedy and vulgarity, humility lies between shyness and shamelessness... The world is never black and white, and neither are you."
Lu Wanning listened to his voice, nodded, and then retorted:
"But even if I believe what you said, it will probably still be inevitable next time... In psychology, this should be called an emotional flashback."
Although she originally studied clinical medicine from her master, after a long illness and becoming a doctor, she was able to understand to some extent what her situation was.
"I know." Luo Xingzhou laughed dumbly, but his tone soon became relaxed again: "Although I think it's good that you like to know yourself clearly, but sometimes I actually hope that you put aside those academic terms and just focus on own experiences and needs.”
When he said these words, although they contained suggestions, it came out of his mouth as if he was just expressing his own opinions, and it didn't matter even if the other party didn't abide by or agree with them.
"...Maybe I need to work harder." Such an atmosphere made Lu Wanning's heart relax, and her face suddenly wrinkled, as if she was thinking about what to do.
But Luo Xingzhou didn't encourage her. Instead, he told her: "There's no rush, and there's no need to do anything deliberately."
It is true that Lu Wanning did not delve into this issue, because the concept she had been passing on to her from Luo Xingzhou over the years was to just accept yourself and recognize yourself.
After this, the transformation will happen gradually.
They just laughed lightly and then started the next topic.
Lu Wanning couldn't help but sigh again. If socializing with others consumes energy, then communicating with Luo Xingzhou can replenish energy.
He always grasps a certain degree just right, but never deliberately.
——But this perfect fit was broken for a moment today.
Luo Xingzhou probably hesitated for a long time before finally deciding to ask her:
"As for Gu Huaimo, would you like to talk to me about what happened between you two?"
She said so much today, but she didn't mention this name at all.
But she suddenly decided to return to the Lu family, and it was obviously related to him.
Luo Xingzhou knew almost everything about Lu Wanning, but the only thing he didn't understand was about Gu Huaimo.
After hearing this name, the slight smile on Lu Wanning's lips finally disappeared again.
"He..." She lowered her eyes and spoke in a longer voice, but no further description could be formulated.
"I don't have much to say about him, or I don't know how to say it."
Lu Wanning bit her lower lip. At this moment, she seemed to see deep inside her heart that she was still the child huddled in the corner.
She was clearly more cowardly than reckless, and therefore not brave enough.
In the past, he was too shy to tell the girl what was on his mind, but now, looking back on the past, he feels deeply embarrassed that he once loved Gu Huaimo.
Because those touches were so ordinary and subtle, they seemed to reflect her original fragility and innocence.
"...It's okay, let's not talk about him for now." Seeing her expression, Luo Xingzhou knew that he didn't need to ask any more questions.
He saw that Lu Wanning had nothing to talk about anymore, so he turned to look at the dark night outside the window and asked her: "Do you want me to take you back, or...?"
He didn't say the rest, but Lu Wanning should know that this house was not the place where he usually lived. The only bedroom here was the only one she had ever lived in.
It is said that in social interaction, if others give two choices, the latter will be more likely to be chosen.
But when Lu Wanning opened her mouth, she said very simply: "Send me back to the Lu family. I just told them that I would go home later. If it is later, they will be worried."
Luo Xingzhou nodded and said nothing more.
He sent Lu Wanning back to the Lu family, and even met Lu Huaize face to face, and Lu Wanning also introduced him to his family calmly.
But when she walked into the Lu family, Luo Xingzhou did not go back to her own residence, but returned to the small house where the two had just talked.
The light inside the house was warm yellow, so it wasn't too bright.
He walked towards the window and saw a row of notebooks stacked on the bookshelf.
One of them was probably turned over by Lu Wanning just now and placed on the table.
On the cover of the notebook, there are excerpts written by Lu Wanning.
'I know that this world is as short-lived as dew. '
'However, however. '
Luo Xingzhou thought to himself that he was not just another Zhuang Yan.
And she won't even feel guilty towards him, even though this is exactly what he expected...
However, however.
