Thinking of this, Gu Beisheng didn't look at the letter in his hand first.
Instead, he looked at Fu Xizhou first. Fu Xizhou put his arm around her, let her lean on his shoulder, and looked at what Bai Hui gave him with him.
His well-articulated fingers moved gracefully and slowly when opening the envelope.
Gu Beisheng looked up at him and asked, "Did your other self see anything about your mother when you were hypnotized?"
Fu Xizhou nodded and spread out the letter completely: "Well, the consciousness of the other self has always been with you. I know everything that happened to you."
Hearing this, Gu Beisheng's heart moved slightly, and she held his hand a little tighter.
As the envelope unfolded, the elegant yet powerful words inside were laid out like a copybook by a famous teacher. The paragraphs were arranged in order, which looked very pleasing to the eye.
Gu Beisheng suddenly remembered Fu Xizhou's handwriting. His handwriting when he was a child had his own personality.
The words are like the person, and maybe it has something to do with Bai Hui's teachings.
I have to admit that although Bai Hui did not give him normal love, in terms of teaching, he helped him find his own style very early.
Gu Beisheng blinked and focused on the content.
It begins with the words "I'm sorry", which seems to clarify the theme of the letter.
The content is that she will write down in detail every incident that she did not fulfill her responsibility to Fu Xizhou when she was a child. Because of her literary skills, no matter how many incidents she has, she can describe them in concise words.
What is somewhat surprising is that it turns out that Bai Huijiang clearly remembered everything he experienced in Xizhou.
She actually knew the times when Xizhou was in pain because he didn't feel love, and it was also uncomfortable.
There were times when she hesitated whether to make amends.
But it seems that every time I want to get close to my child, my inner demon will appear, and instead I will behave more out of control, become more indifferent and even cause greater harm to him.
The words don't mean what you mean, and the words don't convey the meaning.
Gradually, even she began to feel numb, believing that she didn't seem to have much feelings for Xizhou.
The second half of the envelope is her self-examination after she wakes up, a deeper apology and reflection.
[Xizhou, although my purpose in giving birth to you was not pure, it was not pure love like your brother.
But you are my child after all, the child who came out of my belly.
It was my fault as a mother that I didn't give you a wonderful childhood. I lived in the hatred and pain of the past, and instead forgot about the beauty around me.
If I could face it earlier, even if your father and brother were not around, maybe we, mother and son, would have had a tender moment, and both you and me would be better off.
I'm not trying to shirk responsibility. If you don't do a good job, you don't do a good job. If you make a mistake, you will make a mistake.
How my life will turn out in the future is all my fault, and I can’t blame anyone.
Having been resentful for most of my life, I am tired of complaining.
Therefore, before leaving, I have no desire or desire after hearing the news that you are safe. I only hope that God can bless you two children, and I will be fine if any hardships come to me.
There are also some things that you may have never seen before. They are all gifts that I didn't have time to give. They should have been given to you when you were a child, but they are all given to you now. 】
When Fu Xizhou was reading the letter, he did not avoid Qin Huaichuan. After reading it together, Qin Huaichuan moved the box outside the door in and placed it next to the bed.
Fu Xizhou raised his eyes and saw a frame of toys, some of which were Gundam models. They were toys that he once envied other classmates. He could not remember whether he asked his mother for them.
"There are also photos." Qin Huaichuan flipped through the things inside. Most of the thick stack of photos below were slightly tilted, indicating that they had been read many times.
Gu Beisheng's brows furrowed slightly, thinking that the photo Xiaozhou had found was probably in it.
Sure enough, when she stretched out her hand to twitch, she saw a photo similar to what she had just come out of the delivery room. Bai Hui's face was stained with sweat, but her eyes were full of contentment and a smile, as if at this moment, there was only this newborn child in her world.
"Xizhou..." She turned her head sharply.
All I could see was that his lacquered eyes seemed to be locked. Even the light and shadow reflected in them showed no sign of trembling. It was like the thick night was fixed in his eyes. No one could try to see his thoughts clearly.
All I know is that all the paranoia about maternal love and the eyes that gave birth to claws and claws are gone.
Gu Beisheng couldn't help but hold his breath and looked at him distressedly, fearing that he would break into pieces and not daring to speak any more.
a long time.
Fu Xizhou reached out his hand towards the frame, but he did not want to take the things inside. Instead, he put the letter Bai Hui gave him into the frame, and turned to Qin Huaichuan: "Please help me deal with it. Drop it."
Qin Huaichuan's pupils trembled slightly, and he raised his brows in confusion: "Don't you take a look?"
Fu Xizhou let go of the paper, raised his hands and hugged Gu Beisheng tightly in his arms, as if he was satisfied, his eyes full of contentment and nostalgia fell on her eyes: "Childhood, the truth of the past, did Bai Hui ever love me? None of these issues are important.”
If you always care about the pain that has happened, you will step into the endless abyss. Bai Hui is the most realistic example.
If the mind is blind and ignorant, in the event that the attachment is lost, the beauty in front of you will be lost at the same time.
What he read and learned in this letter is now in use.
"I know what's important."
As he spoke, he kissed Gu Beisheng's cheek gently. The deep affection in his eyes was as thick as silk water and could not be melted away: "Let's stay here for a few days. When you have a good rest, we will go home."
Gu Beisheng lowered his head and looked at the letter Bai Hui gave her. Although it had not been opened yet, she had already guessed the content inside.
She doesn't have much interaction with Bai Hui, and she can actually understand Bai Hui, so Bai Hui doesn't need to apologize to her. The rest is probably Bai Hui entrusting Xizhou to her.
But she doesn't need anyone else's entrustment. Xizhou itself is her only one. She will do the same if no one comes to entrust her.
Therefore, she casually put the letter in her hand into the box, and then hugged Fu Xizhou empty-handed.
Qin Huaichuan looked at the frame that had not been touched except when he turned over it, and then looked at the two people hugging each other, no one else in the world.
I have been holding back my words since I walked in, but still haven't said them out.
Do you want to see Ms. Bai off?
It seemed that there was no need for it, Bai Hui himself let go, and Fu Xizhou was completely relieved.
The best result is that no one interferes with anyone and lives their own life.
"Okay." Qin Huaichuan let go of the breath in his chest, and said with some helplessness and some relief: "No matter what, at least you have read a letter, so I didn't come in vain, I will go and deliver the last letter Come on."
As he spoke, he picked up the basket and turned over the last letter in his hand, which read Yu Chu's personal letter.
Biquge
