But one day, a very small thing happened in life, or it was simply sunny and peaceful, and that person suddenly no longer wanted to continue memorizing words.
So he gave up.
“It tastes really good.”
Mu Chun said and opened the drawer again and took out a piece of chocolate. He peeled off the black and gold striped wrapping paper and threw it into his mouth with a huff.
The little bell seemed to smell the fragrance all over the house. He smacked his lips in his sleep.
Maybe it was because the squeaking sound was so cute, Gu Tiantian suddenly peeled off the candy wrapper and stuffed the chocolate into his mouth.
It was so delicious that Gu Tiantian, who already liked dark chocolate, felt that something good was finally happening this afternoon.
Perhaps because the fragrant chocolate smell became stronger, the frequency of Little Bell's mouth also increased. While moving his small mouth, his fat right hand rhythmically grabbed Gu Tiantian's left shoulder a few times. .
"Do you like the taste of chocolate so much, little bell?"
Gu Tiantian was so enchanted by the cuteness of the little bell that he couldn't help but kiss the child's cheek, and then he laughed happily.
The gloom on Muchun's face was also swept away by the laughter.
"I still have two pieces here. Do you want one for each of us?" Muchun asked.
Gu Tiantian originally wanted to say not to eat it. Eating one piece already made him feel guilty, but it was really a delicious chocolate.
The little bell seemed to understand and scratched Gu Tiantian's shoulder again. Gu Tiantian nodded and got another piece of chocolate.
"What brand of chocolate is this? I've never seen it before."
Gu Tiantian asked while peeling off the packaging.
"This is a chocolate recommended by Xiao Xigua. It is said to be suitable for most office workers to eat to relieve stress. It is imported from Switzerland and is quite expensive."
"I haven't eaten chocolate for a long time, but I couldn't control it today."
"Why do we need to control? Life is about to change. Staying the same does not mean that everything is peaceful. The earth revolves around the sun, and there are spring, summer, autumn and winter around the sea. There are high-incidence epidemics in every season. Chickenpox is in the spring and intestinal tract is in the summer. Infectious diseases in autumn may include hand, foot and mouth and influenza. Cells in the human body metabolize once every three months on average. Old cells die and new cells are born. Due to the different metabolism times and intervals of different cells, it is assumed that all cells in the body will be metabolized. It takes seven years to replace them all. That is to say, physiologically, we are a different person every seven years. You are you, but you are no longer you.
Every year people get old, sick and die, lovers break up every day, strangers meet, old people leave, and new babies are born. The world can never remain the same and there is no permanent stability.
Human beings like stability. In order to get rid of the fear caused by instability, they invented control. However, control is often accompanied by loss of control. As a result, humans become irritable, furious, blame each other, blame themselves or others, but forget that the best way to avoid losing control is to To avoid control, humans need chocolate. "
Gu Tiantian almost really listened to Mu Chun's sudden words, but the last sentence left her completely stunned.
"Doctor, what did you just say?"
"I said that no piece of chocolate is perfect in the world, and no one would ask for a perfect piece of chocolate, then stuff it into their mouth and eat it all. We wouldn't ask for it."
After giving birth to the child, Gu Tiantian did change a lot. As Mu Chun said, she began to hope that she could be a perfect mother and that she would not have to do anything while the child was growing up, at least during the few years that she was taking care of her. occur. I always feel that I will be favored by God. It is really possible that my child will never be injured under careful care, and will not suffer from some diseases that children usually experience, such as many children within one year old will experience.
Just trying so hard to be perfect, to keep all bad things out of the house, and to let the little bell grow up truly carefree and without setbacks.
So I tortured myself to death. This word is really appropriate!
"Then what happened to me today? I offended everyone in my family. It's different from the original problem. Originally, I was afraid that my child would be in danger. I was afraid that a little bell would accidentally cause something to happen."
Gu Tiantian didn't say those two words. She knew that Muchun understood what she meant.
She glanced at Muchun, and seemed to see Muchun nodding, so she continued: "In the afternoon, it was too scary. It was different from before. I felt that my thoughts posed a danger to the baby. I felt that it was me. To kill the baby."
"But this horrific thought is just a thought. Could it happen? Did it happen?"
Gu Tiantian shook his head desperately, "That's not the case. I think it's too real. Reality is like the past tense and past perfect tense in English. I am the mother who has committed a crime."
Gu Tiantian hugged Little Lingdang tightly, and the sadness in her heart blocked her tears. The most important thing was that she finally gained a little confidence in herself, and even started planning to find a job after the year. Now everything seems to be getting worse.
"It will change. The manifestations of depression will change. I need to give you a simple test. It will take you a few minutes, okay?"
Gu Tiantian nodded. Holding the little bell, Gu Tiantian just hoped that this terrible thought would not appear again.
"In fact, everyone may experience what happened to you today in their lifetime. There will be people standing on the rooftop imagining what will happen if I push the person in front of me down. There will be people swimming. Sometimes I fantasize about what will happen if I hold that person’s feet to prevent him from emerging from the water. The so-called is not entirely the corruption of our moral character. Once it appears or appears, we are sinful, sinful souls, unforgivable, and not worth saving. .Not at all."
"What's that like?" Gu Tiantian wanted to know the answer eagerly, wanting to believe that he was not an evil and bad mother.
