more than two months later
On Saturday, the weather started to warm up and the sun was shining outside.
Fu Jingchuan squatted on the ground, carefully arranged Tongtong's clothes, and then looked at her: "Okay."
Tongtong was holding the little bear far away with one hand, and she immediately hugged it back to her chest, holding it tightly with both hands.
This has become her habit in recent months.
Fu Jingchuan had long been accustomed to her habit and didn't try to correct her anymore, even though the little bear was already not clean enough because of being kept close to her body and sleeping in her arms for a long time.
He silently wiped away the small crumbs on the little bear for her, but his fingertips still lingered on the soft fabric of the little bear, and he didn't take it back for a long time, with a nostalgic look on his face.
"Dad?" Tongtong called him in confusion.
Fu Jingchuan came back to his senses and smiled reassuringly at her. His eyes had passed through her shoulders and landed on the long table behind her.
There is a photo album placed on the long table, which is a photo of Shiyang when she joined the company.
He saw this photo from the photo wall of Huichen Shaoyu Architectural Office two months ago. Later, he asked the personnel department for the negative and developed it.
There were no photos of Shiyang on his phone.
Neither did Shiyang's cell phone.
She doesn't like taking pictures, so there is no selfie in her mobile phone album, although her album records many moments of Tongtong.
In the photo, Shi Yang is sitting at his workstation, smiling quietly and gently. It was obviously a photo taken randomly when the personnel came to take a photo. He is unassuming, but his youthful and good-looking face cannot be concealed. .
His eyes seemed to be able to speak, and his eyes were as soft and gentle as ever.
In the photo, she looked over as if she was smiling at him. Fu Jingchuan couldn't help but smile, but he couldn't help but feel a little lumpy in his throat when he smiled.
The doorbell rang at the door at this moment.
Sister Gao, who was busy in the kitchen, hurried over to open the door.
"Mr. Ke, Shanshan." Sister Gao's greeting also sounded from behind.
Tongtong looked up following the sound and saw Ke Chen and Lin Shanshan coming in together. She said hello to them obediently: "Uncle Ke, godmother."
"Tongtong." Ke Chen also said hello to her with a wink, trying to make her happy.
Since Shiyang's accident, the little girl has become much quieter.
But as before, his winks had no effect.
Tongtong still just opened her round eyes, looking at him with a slight smile, her eyebrows and eyes were sensible and quiet beyond her age.
Such eyes made Fu Jingchuan feel a little sad. He didn't say anything, but just rubbed her hair comfortingly.
Lin Shanshan already smiled and bent down to her: "Today your godmother and Uncle Ke will take you to buy new clothes for the New Year. Are you happy, baby?"
Tongtong nodded: "Happy."
Lin Shanshan saw that the little bear she was holding was a little dirty, so she couldn't help but look at her, and tried to reach out and touch her bear: "The little bear is dirty, can your godmother help you clean it?" "
Unexpectedly, Tongtong, who was still smiling a moment ago, immediately stopped smiling. As if she was afraid that her things would be taken away, she subconsciously hugged the little bear tightly, and the person also kept shaking his head: "No."
Fu Jingchuan quickly knelt down and hugged her, comforting her softly: "If you don't wash her, we won't wash her. Don't be afraid, Tongtong."
Tongtong then calmed down.
Lin Shanshan looked at her with some distress and did not dare to test it again.
Ke Chen, who was on the side, had already taken over with a smile in order to lighten the atmosphere: "Let's go out to buy new year's goods and new clothes first. The mall outside is very busy."
As he spoke, Ke Chen bent over and looked at Tongtong: "We are about to celebrate the New Year. Is Tongtong happy?"
Tongtong nodded blankly: "Happy."
At this age, she actually doesn’t know what celebrating the New Year means.
She had no memory of the Chinese New Year when she was one year old, and now it was the first real Chinese New Year since she was sensible.
At this time, other children have already been taken by their mothers to buy new clothes and New Year's goods to experience the New Year atmosphere in advance. However, I don't know whether it is because Shiyang is no longer here, or Fu Jingchuan subconsciously avoids this happy reunion festival, and there has been no movement. .
Lin Shanshan was afraid that Tongtong would go out to play with the children every day, and she would feel disappointed when she saw other children happily preparing for the New Year but she had nothing to do, so she took advantage of the weekend to make an appointment with Ke Chen and wanted to take Tongtong out to buy new clothes. Let her, like other children, experience the New Year atmosphere in advance.
She wanted to do everything Shiyang could no longer do for her.
She remembered that when Tongtong was one year old, they were still abroad, and only Christmas was celebrated there. At that time, Tongtong was too young and didn't understand anything. But even so, Shiyang, who was extremely busy with work and study, started to teach Tongtong early. Hitomi prepares a Christmas tree and New Year's dress, so that Hitomi can feel the New Year atmosphere in advance in love.
Now that Shiyang is gone, she is afraid that Fu Jingchuan will be negligent, so she takes advantage of the good weather today to take Tongtong out.
Ke Chen had already looked at Fu Jingchuan: "Mr. Fu, why don't you go out for a walk too?"
Although Fu Jingchuan seemed to be slowly returning to normal during this period, as his assistant for many years, Ke Chen could tell that Fu Jingchuan was not back to normal, but just numb.
Working numbly and living numbly, Tongtong is the only light in his life that is like a pool of stagnant water, and it is also the only spiritual strength he must hold on to.
But even so, the calm, calm, flesh-and-blood Fu Jingchuan was gone.
In the past, he only thought that Fu Jingchuan was just a kind of detachment from the world, alienated and difficult to get close to, but after the comparison now, he realized how vivid the Fu Jingchuan was in the past.
This life is still so long, and he still hopes that Fu Jingchuan can slowly return to an ordinary life.
"No, you guys..." Fu Jingchuan was about to refuse Ke Chen's invitation, but midway through his words, his eyes came into contact with Tong Tong's eyes looking at him eagerly, and he stopped again.
Tongtong looked at him with wide eyes and whispered to him: "I want dad to go with me."
After several months of growth, Tongtong's language ability has improved by leaps and bounds, and is no longer stumbling like before.
Fu Jingchuan stroked her head and nodded gently: "Okay."
The outside is already filled with all kinds of New Year flavors.
Red lanterns and New Year decorations have been hung on the trees on both sides of the road. The lights are twinkling. The shopping malls are crowded with people. Various New Year songs of "Congratulations on your fortune" are heard one after another. Everywhere is festive and lively.
Fu Jingchuan's previous life consisted only of work. Preparing New Year's goods and paying New Year greetings were all handled by others. These things never appeared in his life.
Therefore, although he and Shiyang have been married for many years, he has never prepared for the New Year with Shiyang at this time, nor have they posted Spring Festival couplets, watched the Spring Festival Gala, gone shopping, walked by relatives, or paid New Year greetings together. He doesn't have this consciousness, let alone the so-called sense of ritual.
He couldn't even remember how he and Shiyang spent the Spring Festival every year. It seemed like they just had a simple meal as usual.
He couldn't even remember what he was doing on New Year's Eve. Most of it was probably just working.
