Fu Jingchuan tried clicking on the draft box, but the page showed no response.
Obviously only mobile phones bound to Shiyang can enter and edit.
Fu Jingchuan had to withdraw his hand and looked at the words "Fu Jingchuan, let's make peace", "Fu Jingchuan, I'm sorry" and "Fu Jingchuan, happy birthday" that popped up and deleted repeatedly on the screen of his mobile phone, but he still didn't move.
From the hesitation of text popping up and deleted one after another from the editing cursor, he could almost imagine Shiyang's hesitation and hesitation when editing text on his mobile phone.
She may not have thought about what to say, or she may have thought about it but felt that such words were inappropriate given her relationship with him.
The sense of boundaries between them that was different from other couples made her think over every word he said for a long time.
They are obviously so close that they even have children. They are very close to each other, but they are also very distant.
Although she is not close to people, she is not aloof or distant either.
Whether she was with Lin Shanshan, Cao Meihui, or even with Tang Shaoyu and Ke Chen, she could still maintain a normal social relationship with ordinary people. Only in front of him was she reserved and polite. I think it was because he didn't say anything to her. She had given out that she and others had different signals.
The environment where she grew up was cold and devoid of any warmth. When she was young, she must have longed for her father's love and mother's love. She might even have carefully tried to please everyone in the family for that pitiful amount of father's and mother's love, but she failed to do so. , with the temperament of her adoptive mother Ding Xiuli and Shi Fei, this kind of flattering might even lead to more beatings and scoldings, and gradually she no longer dared to express her desire.
She also liked him the same way.
There was always that little little girl in her heart who longed to be loved but didn't dare to take the initiative anymore.
She likes him, but he has never taken the initiative to approach her or tell her that he also likes her, so she does not dare to approach him.
She wrote this sentence "Fu Jingchuan, let's make peace." It was probably after a long period of psychological construction that she mustered up the courage to write it. But after she finished writing it, she was afraid that it would appear inappropriate, so she deleted it and replaced it with another sentence that was more euphemistic. The expression, "Fu Jingchuan, I'm sorry" was finally replaced by the innocuous words "Happy Birthday".
He could guess what she was apologizing for. It was simply that she felt that her disregard of his pleas for peace and her insistence on leaving had hurt him, so she wanted to apologize to him.
It was obvious that she was the one who was hurt the most in this marriage, but she was the one who apologized.
"sorry."
Looking at the words "Fu Jingchuan, I'm sorry." that slowly appeared on the phone screen like a typewriter as the cursor moved, Fu Jingchuan also said "I'm sorry" in a mute voice, as if Shi Yang was on the other end of the phone, talking to him.
When the subtitles on the phone screen changed to "Fu Jingchuan, happy birthday", Fu Jingchuan couldn't help but curl his lips.
Shiyang seemed to be standing in front of him, looking at him with her clear, quiet and soft eyes, and said softly to him in her usual gentle voice, "Fu Jingchuan, happy birthday." He gently said He said "Yeah", his throat started to choke, almost blocking all the sounds, but the corners of his mouth still curved upward.
The curved corners of his mouth also curved into a shallow smile when he saw "Fu Jingchuan, let's make up".
"Okay." He spoke in a very soft voice, as if he was afraid of scaring away Shi Yang on the other end of the phone, "Come back, okay?"
But no one responded to him.
Some are just the next sentence after the cursor changes, "Fu Jingchuan, I'm sorry."
The corners of Fu Jingchuan's mouth still had a slightly upward curve, and his wet red black eyes were tolerant and doting, as if Shi Yang was right in front of him, and this "I'm sorry" was just a feigned refusal to make her petty.
The screen of the illuminated mobile phone in his hand slowly turned off, returning to black silence.
The curved corners of Fu Jingchuan's mouth also slowly receded, and the light in his black eyes slowly faded away.
He stared motionlessly at the turned-off mobile phone in his hand, without turning it on again, with a blank look on his face.
When the faint fishy sweetness surged into his throat again, Fu Jingchuan's dull expression finally changed.
He silently took the mineral water on the side, unscrewed it and took a big gulp, then threw it aside. When he looked back, he paused at the necklace on the dashboard, then slowly reached out and picked it up, gently touching it with his fingertips. Gently stroking the mini white jade Guanyin inlaid on the inside of the pendant, Fu Jingchuan lowered his head and kissed the pendant very carefully and preciously.
"Shiyang."
He softly called her name in his mind.
But there was no reply, and there may never be one again.
The car was eerily quiet, and the co-pilot's seat, which belonged exclusively to Shiyang, was now empty.
Fu Jingchuan forced himself to look away, carefully put on the necklace, and then started the engine.
It was already evening when I got home.
As soon as Fu Jingchuan got out of the elevator, he saw a rickety figure squatting at the end of the corridor.
Fu Jingchuan recognized him as Shi Yang's adoptive father, Shi Lin.
His steps slowly stopped.
Shi Lin, who was squatting in the corner rubbing his hands, also saw him and quickly stood up and walked towards him.
"Mr. Fu, Yangyang has really..."
He spoke anxiously, but he choked up mid-sentence and his eyes turned red.
He was also much more haggard and thinner than before.
Shi Lin contacted him after Shi Yang's accident, but he was in Lincheng at the time, and all his time and energy were spent on finding Shi Yang, and he didn't care about anyone else.
Ke Chen is responsible for handling these matters.
Today was the first time he saw Shi Lin since Shi Yang's accident.
Seeing his red eyes and hearing his choked voice, Fu Jingchuan remained silent and didn't speak.
"Why are you here?"
After a while, he finally spoke in a mute voice, took out the key, and turned to open the door.
Shi Lin quickly followed up: "I asked many people to find out that Shi Yang lives here and wanted to come and have a look."
Fu Jingchuan said nothing and opened the door. As soon as he pushed the door open, he saw Lin Shanshan playing with Tongtong. She was listless, as if she was looking at Tongtong or looking at others through her.
Tongtong was also silently building blocks, and her whole person was listless.
The cold wind passed through the balcony, and the entire living room was chilly and lifeless, without the warmth of the past.
Perhaps when she heard the door open, Lin Shanshan instinctively glanced at the door, but when she saw Shi Lin coming in behind Fu Jingchuan, her eyes suddenly turned red. She stood up angrily, picked up the broom on the balcony, and stepped forward. Shi Lin rushed in excitement: "Get out! Get out! When Yangyang was alive, your family didn't even let her go back home. How could you still have the nerve to come to her?"
Just because the Shi family ignored her and refused to let her go home, others would immediately contact their parents when something happened, and they even skipped the steps of contacting them.
