Shi Yang took a bath in the house next door, which washed away the fatigue, but failed to wash away the melancholy in his heart.
Looking at everything familiar in the room, when she left the house in the morning, she never thought she would come back.
She even copied important files from her desktop computer to her laptop and mobile hard drive and formatted them.
After taking a shower, Yang sat down at the computer desk. She didn't turn on the computer, but just emptied her mind and looked at this small space that belonged to her alone.
Since having a child, she actually has very little time and space for herself.
This studio, which is independent from her daily life, has become the best space for her to rest and adjust when she is tired or bored.
Only here she is just herself, not a mother.
In the past, there might have been only her and Tongtong, and the only world in her and Tongtong's world was each other, so this feeling was not strong.
Now, probably because of the addition of the child's father, the world of two people has become a threesome. With one more person to shoulder and share this responsibility, this feeling has become stronger and a bit empty.
Shiyang couldn't tell what he felt.
There were too many things happening today that were too sudden and too messy, disrupting all her plans. She didn't have time to think and adjust, but she suddenly felt a little confused.
Confusion about the future.
She hadn't felt this confused in two years.
As soon as Fu Jingchuan opened the door, he saw Shi Yang sitting in a daze at the table, holding his chin in one hand and looking out at the balcony. His fair and calm face remained calm and gentle, but his whole person was empty.
She didn't notice him coming in, she just looked out the window at the vast night.
Fu Jingchuan also looked at her silently and did not disturb her.
Shiyang didn't know how long she had been idle. When she came back to her senses and turned around, she saw Fu Jingchuan standing at the door. He didn't know how long he had been standing there. His eyes fell quietly on her, looking at her with deep and calm black eyes.
"Why are you here?" Shiyang asked softly, standing up, "Is Tongtong home alone?"
"Sister Gao is watching." Fu Jingchuan said, walking towards her, "Why are you sitting here alone?"
"The night view outside is quite beautiful. I'm usually too busy to notice the outside, and I get distracted just looking at it." Shi Yang said softly, a little embarrassed.
Fu Jingchuan also looked outside the balcony, but did not expose her.
"It's quite beautiful."
He said, standing in front of her and looking at her.
He saw a hint of wistfulness and confusion in her eyes.
He knew that it would not be easy for her to be forced to stay like this.
Both he and Shiyang are very planning people, and he understands the pain of having to terminate a plan.
But he also knew that he couldn't just let her and the child go.
They all deliberately avoided talking about this problem tonight, because they both knew in their hearts that there was no solution to this problem.
He wants her and the child.
But she just wants children.
She doesn't want him.
Even though it was something he had already understood, Fu Jingchuan still felt his heart was clogged every time he thought about it, and anger flowed through his limbs following this knowledge, but he was suppressed by reason.
"Are you still planning to go back to work in the company?" Fu Jingchuan asked lightly as he looked at her.
Shiyang nodded slightly: "Go back."
If you can't leave, you can only continue the unfinished work and take it one step at a time.
Fu Jingchuan nodded: "Yes."
"What about Tongtong?" Fu Jingchuan asked, "Do you have any plans for her?"
Shi Yang shook his head: "No."
He added: "I took her to early childhood education classes in Zurich before. When I came back here, because she hadn't completely settled in, I didn't enroll her in classes. I wanted her to enjoy life first."
She said and looked at Fu Jingchuan: "Do you have any thoughts about her?"
Fu Jingchuan shook his head: "No, I just want to hear your thoughts first."
"I don't have too many ideas, as long as she is happy," Shiyang said, "I think she doesn't need to be too tight at her age. She can do things at any age, and she doesn't need to deliberately learn anything."
Fu Jingchuan nodded: "Yes."
"You have more experience in this area than me and know her better than I do. Just make your decision." Fu Jingchuan added.
Shiyang nodded, because his words aroused a little guilt.
"I'm sorry for hiding Tongtong's affairs from you before." She spoke softly, formally apologizing to him.
Fu Jingchuan looked at her without saying anything, and remembered that she had the same attitude at the groundbreaking ceremony, politely saying to him a toast.
"What are you planning again?" He looked at her and spoke softly.
Shiyang was slightly stunned and looked at him in confusion.
Fu Jingchuan also saw his overreaction in her eyes.
He laughed at himself and said nothing.
Shiyang also remembered that she wanted to respect him during the groundbreaking ceremony.
At that time, she really wanted to borrow that glass of wine to officially end things with him and the past, but he also saw her intention, so he didn't drink it and didn't let her drink it.
But this time she really just felt sorry.
"I didn't mean anything else." Shiyang explained softly, "No matter what the purpose was, I hid the child's matter. It was always my fault. I owe you an apology."
Fu Jingchuan looked at her without speaking.
Shiyang didn't know what to say for a moment. She raised her wrist and looked at her watch, then looked at him: "Why don't you go back first. I want to sleep here tonight. Tongtong usually doesn't wake up at night. In the morning She won’t wake up when I get up, so you can sleep with her tonight.”
Fu Jingchuan still looked at her silently.
Shiyang nodded slightly at him, turned around and wanted to go back to the room, when the arm hanging by his side was suddenly pulled.
Shiyang didn't look back, but just tried to struggle away. As soon as he moved his wrist, he was pulled half-turned around, and he was pushed against the wall, trapped between Fu Jingchuan's chest and the wall.
Fu Jingchuan lowered his eyes and looked at her. His dark eyes were deep, and there was a faint anger beating, but it was suppressed again.
"Shiyang, the relationship between the two of us can't be settled with a simple apology or okay. We won't need to be so polite in the future. Tongtong doesn't need it, and I don't need it either."
He looked at her, his voice had a depressing low tone.
"I hope the two of us can give Tongtong a normal environment to grow up." He said.
[Update one chapter tonight]
