Shiyang didn't ask Fu Jingchuan where he wanted to take her, and Fu Jingchuan didn't say where he was going, nor did he ask her where she was going. He just drove aimlessly.
The night wind was blowing "whirring".
The traffic on the road is also slowly decreasing.
Shiyang didn't know how long Fu Jingchuan had been driving. When the tall buildings along the way slowly turned into low buildings, and then slowly turned into large stretches of wilderness, Fu Jingchuan's car finally stopped.
He sat in the car and did not move or speak. He just looked at the night ahead calmly with his handsome face slightly tensed.
Shi Yang also sat motionless in the passenger seat.
Outside the car window is a suburban riverside park, connected to a pond and wetland. There are few pedestrians, and you can clearly hear the chirping of insects and frogs.
Shi Yang was silent for a long time, then slowly turned his head to look at Fu Jingchuan.
Fu Jingchuan's side face was still slightly tense, and his face was so calm that it was almost expressionless.
Shiyang didn't know whether it was her refusal of this opportunity that angered Fu Jingchuan, or the unscrupulous remarks she made just now when she lost control of her emotions that made him angry. "I'm sorry." She apologized softly. She didn't know why she was apologizing. She was frustrated and sad. My mood has not eased yet, and my whole person is still confused and uncomfortable.
She had always thought that her emotional management ability was pretty good, but after what happened today, and when Fu Jingchuan asked her sternly whether the child was still there, the emotions that had been accumulated for two years suddenly felt like a string that was stressed to the extreme, "Crack." It broke instantly.
She didn't know why she reacted so suddenly. Maybe it was because she was angry with herself.
I was angry with myself for not being firm enough, and angry with myself for being useless. My emotions would still be easily affected by Fu Jingchuan, so I could only cowardly choose to stay away from him.
Everything in her life was her own choice, and every step she took was not smooth and smooth, but she tried her best to do her best.
The past two years have been the hardest but also the most satisfying and happiest years of her life.
She had made many plans for her life, but Fu Jingchuan was completely missing from these plans, and she had adapted to a life without Fu Jingchuan.
The past two years were like the years before she got married before she met Fu Jingchuan. It was hard but satisfying, and she was full of expectations for the future. However, all these expectations were interrupted the day she met Fu Jingchuan.
When she was still young, she could still have a dream about love. Later, when she realized that it could only be a dream, she made a lot of determination to pull away. Now she has finally started a new life again. Meeting Fu Jingchuan again, time seemed to push her back to the year when she met Fu Jingchuan again, followed by the depression and self-doubt of those two years.
This feeling was like a scar on her body. Every time it was about to heal completely, someone would take a knife and stir the wound, which made her have to remember how the scar hurt.
In response to her apology, Fu Jingchuan did not say anything, but just let his arms rest on the steering wheel. His handsome face did not soften, but tightened even more.
Shiyang didn't speak anymore. He slowly leaned his head towards the car window and slowly closed his eyes.
Fu Jingchuan turned to look at her.
Shiyang's face was very peaceful, his breathing was shallow and even, and he had obviously fallen asleep.
My eyes were still a little red and swollen from crying.
The car window was still open, the wind was still blowing, maybe it was cold, Shiyang hugged her arms unconsciously in her sleep, and she also shrank further down the car window.
Fu Jingchuan pressed down the central lock of the window with his palm, and slowly closed the wide-open window.
Shi Yang's hair, which was messy in the wind, slowly fell down and fell on his face.
Shiyang turned sideways uncomfortably. He didn't wake up, but just hugged himself tighter. He was obviously very tired. Under his red and swollen eyes, you could vaguely see the bruises from staying up late. The design project was obviously done after staying up late.
Thinking of this, Fu Jingchuan's face darkened again.
He didn't speak, sat up slightly, took off his suit jacket, leaned over and put the jacket on Shiyang.
Shiyang was awakened, slowly opened his eyes, and his eyes met Fu Jingchuan's.
Fu Jingchuan did not dodge, but looked at her coldly, his black eyes were deep and cold.
Shiyang didn't dodge, and looked at him quietly.
While looking at each other in silence, Fu Jingchuan spoke first: "Shiyang, do you hate me so much?"
Shiyang shook his head slightly: "I don't hate you."
Fu Jingchuan: "Then why do you have to avoid me? In order to avoid me, you don't even want your children, and you don't want your future now?"
Shiyang pursed her lips slightly: "Fu Jingchuan, have you ever liked anyone before?"
Fu Jingchuan looked at her coldly and said nothing.
"For you, it doesn't matter who you marry?" Shiyang asked softly.
Fu Jingchuan still looked at her coldly, but squeezed out one word from his tight lips: "Yes."
Shiyang smiled, but quickly put it away: "I'm not."
"I had people I liked," she said, "so I married people because I liked them."
"What about divorce?" Fu Jingchuan asked, "Is it because I don't like it?"
"No." Shiyang's voice was still soft, "I only accept two marriage models. The first is that I like him, and he also likes me, and I can get emotional feedback. The second is that I don't like him, He doesn’t like me either, so I don’t have to expect anything from anyone.”
"I used to think I was the first type, but later I found out that I was neither." Shiyang's eyes met his, "Fu Jingchuan, I liked you, so I can accept any relationship between us at the beginning. , even if I am not equal and look down upon by your family, I can still try to be humble, but precisely because I like you, I will also have expectations and desires for you, but you spend all your attention and energy on work superior."
"The two of us are like roommates, but it's enough for roommates to share the rent, water and electricity. We don't have to bear the various demands of each other's family, we don't have to think about accommodating anyone, and we don't have to worry about who will be caught in the middle and make things difficult for ourselves. . In this case, why should I continue? I can obviously live well alone."
"What about now?" Fu Jingchuan stared at her with his dark eyes and asked, "Do you still like it?"
Shiyang shook his head: "I don't like you anymore, Fu Jingchuan."
"Since you don't like me anymore, what are you still afraid of?" His dark eyes were filled with an aggressive look, "You don't like me, and I don't like you. Isn't this the second marriage model you approve of? Why are you running away? What?"
Shiyang: "..."
"Would you fall into the same pit twice?" Shiyang asked, "You know it's a pit, but you finally climb out, and then walk back by yourself?"
Fu Jingchuan: "I can!"
Shiyang: "..."
"You left without saying goodbye in your senior year of high school, you left without saying goodbye on the day of divorce, you left without saying goodbye on the day at the apartment, you left without saying goodbye on the day at the hospital, and you left without saying goodbye on the day you left your phone number." Fu Jingchuan's dark eyes Staring at her closely, "Is this twice? Five times!"
Shiyang: "..."
"I..." She opened her eyes slightly, and her voice became weaker unconsciously, "I have left you a message."
Fu Jingchuan: "Can't I see that the person is missing? Do I still need you to leave a message?"
"Or should I thank you for saving me the time to call the police?" He still looked at her without moving, "Don't you have to rush to report the missing person?"
Shiyang: "..."
