Shi Yangzhen has never considered this issue.
She has no close relationship with her family, even Shi Lin, who loves her relatively, probably because she has known that he is not her biological father since she was a child. In addition, Shi Lin works outside all year round and has little contact with her. She cannot face her parents like other children. Act like a spoiled child, and then curiously ask yourself the origin of your name.
"I don't know." Shiyang answered him honestly.
She estimated that Fu Jingchuan heard the conversation between her and Shangguan Linlin, and had doubts about the coincidence that her and Shen Yu's initials were "SY". In fact, she had also had such confusion in her heart. She didn't know whether it was a coincidence or something else. For some reason, the confusion caused by the touch of the bracelet hit her heart again. Shiyang didn't know whether it was the psychological suggestion caused by Fu Jingchuan's insistence that she was caused by Shen Yu, or whether it was the lost memory in the subconscious that was causing trouble. People couldn't help but feel doubts about themselves. Did Shen Yu have doubts?
This doubt has nothing to do with Shen Yu's significance to Fu Jingchuan. It is just confusion about who he is and where he comes from.
Shen Yu's identity is the only possibility that is closest to her true identity in so many years.
Shiyang wanted to investigate, but was also afraid of it.
This feeling is very contradictory. On the one hand, she has long been accustomed to the life of Shiyang in the past twenty years. Her life circle, family, and behavioral habits have all been finalized. She does not know what her new family is. What is it like? Does she need to adapt again? Can she still adapt? Will it cause new troubles? In fact, she has found her own comfort zone in her existing life and knows how to make herself live better. She doesn't know After finding her original family, does it mean she has to find a new comfort zone? She even agrees with Shangguan Linlin's point of view. She is already living well now and has found a new focus in life. There is no need to break it. Existing life balance and change.
But on the one hand, when she was alone in the dead of night, she occasionally couldn't help but fantasize about what her family was like, and she also longed to be like ordinary people, with loving parents, brothers and sisters, and a warm family environment.
For Fu Jingchuan, she has the same contradiction.
She has no memory of Shen Yu. Even if she is really Shen Yu, she can't equate herself with Shen Yu. She doesn't know how to face Fu Jingchuan.
For Fu Jingchuan, Shiyang has never been important. What is important is Shen Yu, who has shared childhood memories with him.
He can change his attitude toward her because she is Shen Yu, but he will never look at her differently because she is Shiyang.
But to her, Shiyang was always just Shiyang.
She could understand that Fu Jingchuan chose to marry her out of responsibility and responsibility, and she could also understand his lack of love, so she chose to let herself go and let Fu Jingchuan go.
She didn't want Fu Jingchuan to pay attention to her again because she was Shen Yu.
She couldn't find Shen Yu's relevant memories. In her heart, she and Shen Yu were two completely separated people.
She had no intention of continuing to get involved with Fu Jingchuan. The child's problem was enough to make her confused.
But Shiyang knew that everything needs an end.
"When will the results of the paternity test come out?" Shiyang asked Fu Jingchuan softly, "If there is a result, whether it is true or not, please tell me so that I can have a better understanding."
Fu Jingchuan stared at her for a while, then nodded gently: "Okay."
"No matter what the outcome is, don't be obsessed with proving whether I am her or not." Shiyang added softly, "I don't have any memories related to Shen Yu, nor do I have any sense of identity with Shen Yu. Even if I It’s her, don’t look for her shadow in me, we are no longer the same person.”
Fu Jingchuan's eyes fell on her, but he didn't speak for a long time.
Shiyang smiled slightly and said no more. When she was about to sit upright and go back, she heard Fu Jingchuan's hoarse response: "Okay."
Shiyang smiled: "Thank you.
Fu Jingchuan looked at her without saying anything. For a while, he leaned forward and hugged her.
Shiyang didn't struggle or hug back, she just let him hold her quietly.
Fu Jingchuan could sense Shiyang's resistance.
Instead of being excited about possibly finding her family, she was just confused.
Her loss of control that day was not an accident, but a small outburst caused by long-term emotional suppression.
Fu Jingchuan suddenly wasn't sure whether it was right to make such a confirmation at this time.
Therefore, when the paternity test center called to inform him to get the test results, Fu Jingchuan did not go there immediately. He was sitting in the hotel office, staring at the computer screen with dark eyes.
The things I was eager to confirm suddenly seemed to have lost their meaning.
Fu Jingchuan had never realized so clearly as at this moment that even if Shiyang was Shen Yu, Shen Yu would not be able to come back.
There is nothing about Shen Yu in her memory, and there is no memory related to Fu Jingchuan. Shen Yu has completely disappeared from this world as early as the moment she disappeared.
Although reality is cruel, it is also true.
Fu Jingchuan didn't know how he came to the paternity test center. When the staff handed the paternity test results to him, Fu Jingchuan only glanced at it and closed the report, his expression calm and dull.
Shen Yu is no longer in this world.
[Note that in the penultimate paragraph of this chapter, Mr. Fu has already seen the paternity test results. He has already seen it]
