Song Jinxiu was speechless when asked. He had never paid much attention to the sister who lived next to him, and indeed he had never cared about her past, but he was still puzzled.
If Song Tan had been exiled because of ignoring the resentment, and the Song family had no future, why would she want to kill them all?
Song Jinxiu looked at her: "I know that my family has not treated you well in the past, and my third uncle has shown little kindness to you, but after all, he is your father..."
"But I never wanted this father."
Perhaps it was the first time she said these words to someone, and Song Ru's eyes were a little complicated.
She raised her head and looked at her brother who used to be so aloof. Looking at his puzzled expression, she suddenly understood why her sister hated him so much.
He is too self-righteous.
I have never put myself in other people's shoes.
Song Ru's face showed a bit of sarcasm: "Brother, you are the eldest son of the Song family and the eldest grandson loved by my grandmother. You came to this world under the expectation of everyone, but I am not. I have heard this since I was a child. The most common thing is my father’s resentment and abuse towards me.”
"He thinks that I am not worthy of being on the stage, that I have no talent or appearance, that I am like my lowly mother, that I have ruined his career and become a stain on him, and that I survived when my mother died. "
"But what did I do wrong? What did my mother-in-law do wrong?"
The little girl is thin and frail, and speaks very softly, but every word she speaks directly cuts into the heart.
"My mother-in-law's family was in trouble, and she had to go to Yanliu Lane to sell singing in order to survive. But she is a poor woman, and she is different from the women there."
"She saved up money and just wanted to redeem herself and leave the capital in the future, start a small business, marry a man who doesn't mind her past, and be the wife of others with no fault of her own, but she met Song Tan instead."
"Obviously it was Song Qin who took my mother-in-law by force. He was found out on the spot because he was drunk and acted foolishly. He forced my mother-in-law to live in the house to silence him in order to protect the official."
"My grandma was used as a raft by the political enemy of the Song family. He took my grandma's father who was about to die of illness and forced my pregnant grandma to play tricks with him. He turned the beastly things he did into a favor. An affair seduced by a prostitute."
"My mother-in-law has a bad reputation and will only have a roll of straw mat after her death. But he is still the third master of the Duke's mansion and leads a noble life. Why should he live a good life?"
Song Ru has always been timid and timid. She dare not speak, dare not contradict, or even dare to look at people. She is like a mouse hiding in the dark, trying her best to hide herself in order to survive.
But maybe it was her elder sister who gave her the courage, or maybe she didn't want to endure it any longer.
Song Ru was extremely calm when talking about those things at this moment: "When I was a child, I never understood why Song Tan never wanted to look at me even though he was a child of the Song family. Until I was filled with admiration and wanted to talk to Song I called him daddy like a kite, but he slapped me in the face and pointed at me, who was just five years old, and said that a bitch like me didn’t deserve to call him daddy. Only then did I realize that everyone in the Song family and I were different. Same."
"After that, I couldn't hear clearly for a long time. Because of this, I clashed with the old lady who rarely had a loving heart. She also had someone beat me up. She only said that there was no one in the Song family like me. The bitch on the counter said I was as mean as my mother, and then I lay there for another three months.”
She looked at Song Jinxiu's increasingly pale face and chuckled. His cute little face, pointed chin, and big eyes looked nothing like Song Tan's.
"When I was a child, I was ignorant and was beaten over and over again. Later I learned to behave and was beaten less often. I was just hungry. When I was cold, I secretly went to the kitchen to keep warm by the residual heat of the stove. I only took care of myself when I was sick. Go over there and try to survive like a bug that cannot be killed."
"Later, I met the person who was with my mother-in-law in Yanliu Lane, and I realized why Song Tan hated me so much. Because while I was alive, he had to face the beast he once was over and over again. Because I am alive, he will think of his mother-in-law who was killed by him, and his rage at being laughed at after his one-night romance."
"He is the third master of the Song family and a nobleman of the Duke's palace. How can he be wrong? So the only ones who are wrong are my mother-in-law, the prostitute, and the bastard she gave birth to who shouldn't be alive..."
"Aru!"
Song Jinxiu suddenly shouted in a low voice, and his face turned pale at the words "bastard".
He wanted to say that it wasn't like that, that she wasn't as embarrassing as she said, but when he faced Song Ru's big black and white eyes, his throat was dry and he couldn't say a word.
He never knew about these things. He only knew that his third uncle didn't like this concubine sister and that her background was not that glamorous. He only knew that Song Ru was timid and didn't like to appear in front of others.
He rarely saw Song Ru in other places in the house, and she never appeared during holidays. Even if he asked about her, his third uncle would just say "ignore her" and send her away.
"You... can come to me..." Song Jinxiu's voice was hoarse.
"I've found it."
Song Ru laughed, "That year, on my brother's birthday, I went to you with the gift I finally carved out. You gave me a jade ring, and then gave the little tiger I carved to Song Yuanzhi. As a result, she fell and was scratched on the head by a wooden sculpture, so the third lady made me kneel in the yard for two days and two nights."
"Later, you came to see Song Jinnan. When you passed by the courtyard and saw me kneeling as a punishment, Song Jinnan said that I had hurt Song Yuanzhi, so you frowned and scolded me, telling me to stay in harmony with the sisters and not cause trouble, and then left with Song Jinnan."
Song Ru's smile was particularly dazzling: "You are the legitimate son of a noble man, and I am a concubine who is as muddy as mud. If I go to find you, it will stain your eyes and your body."
Song Jinxiu's throat rolled and her face turned paler. She wanted to say something, but felt that whatever she said was wrong.
He vaguely remembered that he had indeed seen her punished by kneeling. The little girl looked up with her head in tears and looked extremely pitiful. But Song Jinnan said that she hurt Song Yuanzhi, so the third aunt punished her by kneeling for a while.
He didn't know that the so-called "little kneeling" lasted for two days and two nights.
"I don't know. If I knew..."
"What if you knew?"
Tang Ning looked at Song Jinxiu who was hesitant to speak. The shaky look only makes me feel unlucky.
He would only say that he didn't know every time, but what would he do even if he knew? Would he beat up Song Yuanzhi and the others for Song Ru, or would he start a fight with the third room because of the concubine in the next room?
All he could do was to give a few words of advice, and then gently ask Song Ru to endure the grievance and settle the matter, just like he did to him and Song Shulan.
His heart was originally biased.
Tang Ning looked at Song Jinxiu with ridicule: "Master Song has always been aloof from the world, but it's a little funny that Master Song came to have a blood relationship with Aruti."
"You can send your parents and relatives into exile and stay in the court without stepping on them. Aru just used some money to buy out the blood relationship. In terms of cruelty, he can't compare to you, Lord Song."
