Dear Davarish

Dear Davarish:

Please forgive my neglect and interruption during this period, because since the beginning of this year, I feel that my faith is wavering and I am confused.

I fell ill and recovered at the beginning of the year. In April, the stones recurred. In May and June, I had to go through the house building procedures. In July, the stones recurred again and I had to undergo surgery. I lay in bed thinking about life. This is my life experience in the past few months.

I am in pain because of illness, and I am confused because of life.

I felt that life was too difficult, so I started to watch short videos, and I started to be addicted to Tomatoes. I just wanted to sink and escape. I didn't dare to log on to QQ, I didn't dare to start, I didn't even dare to click on my WORD file.

Because of certain things, I became confused about the proletarian belief that I had firmly believed in before. In order to strengthen it, I bought Mao Xuanxuan reading. My girlfriend and I drove 1,400 kilometers on May Day, starting from Leshan to Changsha. I went to May Day Square and Orange Island, where I stared blankly at the teacher's sculpture for two hours, reviewing his life in my heart.

During those two hours, I seemed to see light, but my faith was not completely solid.

I fell into deep thought and dared not write.

How can a person with wavering beliefs be qualified to write the books of these forefathers, and how can he talk nonsense about red and the proletariat?

I am afraid that the words I write will contaminate your eyes.

Dear comrades, this is not alarmism on my part, but my most sincere feelings and thoughts as I write this text.

In June, July, August, and now, I was wandering in confusion and pain. My short videos slowly changed from games to life, and then to thoughts. By chance, I came across [He Said].

When I saw the scene of [He Said], I couldn't help but shed tears. I didn't know why I shed tears, but I couldn't stop them.

The setbacks that the teacher encountered when I was young were probably a thousand or ten thousand times more difficult than the setbacks I am encountering now. He said that my wavering was normal, because people who have not experienced setbacks cannot experience a complete life experience.

Just like experience, only by mastering successful experience and failure experience can we sum up experience.

I was shaken, but after the shake, I am now more stable and determined than before.

So, rewriting today.

Today I don’t want to call you readers, I would like to call you comrades.

Dear comrades,

Life is hard, I hope you will persevere.