Compared with Tao Huaying's hundreds of years of painful memories, the female ghost's memories seem much simpler.
She was a girl born in the countryside, with an older sister and a younger brother. In that era when boys were valued over girls, she was very clear about her position - she was born as a result of trial and error just to give birth to a boy.
The younger brother is loved by all, and the elder sister enjoys more love than her because she is the first child of her parents.
And she, the girl in the middle, was destined to be raised rough.
On the one hand, I have to wear my sister's old clothes, and on the other hand, I have to save money and buy new clothes for my brother.
Fortunately, she is smarter and has much better grades than her sister. She is expected to be admitted to a key university. However, precisely because of her sense and intelligence, she lacks more care from her family.
She studied extremely hard because she saw many different destinies in the books. She longed to go to a big city and try to live a different life in a relatively fair environment.
But her parents don't think so, especially according to relatives, girls will get married sooner or later, and providing her with education is just raising a loser.
And my younger brother is about to go to high school. Because his grades are not good, he can only go to a private high school. The tuition of private high schools is so high that it is not enough for his elderly parents and his eldest sister, who is studying beauty and hairdressing, to support him.
The eldest sister was soon married to the child of a foreman from the same village. After the wedding, the couple went to work in the city together.
On the day she sent her eldest sister away, she burst into tears. Relatives said that she and her eldest sister had a deep friendship, but this was not the case.
She hates her eldest sister because she has been picking up her leftovers all her life; she hates her eldest sister because after entering the society, her eldest sister always used an experienced tone to laugh at her hard work and thought that there would be no future in studying; she hates her eldest sister, Because the eldest sister always wanted to marry her off and use the bride price to pay for her younger brother's tuition, although the person who was finally married off was the eldest sister herself.
The reason why she cried so sadly was because she saw her future - marrying a man she had only known for less than a month, and then committing to her life.
After the eldest sister got married, the family's difficulties were alleviated. She studied harder and wanted to escape from this village in the mountains.
After the college entrance examination, she got her wish and was admitted to a prestigious university. With the hard persuasion of the school leaders and teachers, her parents were willing to let her go to college, but they were only willing to help her pay the first year's tuition, and she was asked to pay for the rest. Figured it out myself.
Despite her bleak future, she was ecstatic.
With hope and simple luggage, she came to the big city of her dreams.
Everything in the big city is very new to her. People here don't like to sit on the doorstep to eat with a bowl in hand, and they don't spit everywhere. Everyone restrains themselves with something called "quality". She I really like clean and tidy big cities, so I put my slightly hunched back away and worked hard to integrate into this unfamiliar environment.
In college, she met all kinds of people, some good and some bad, but none of them were too bad. At most, they were just a little petty. After a few years of college, she was quite happy to get along with them.
Every girl in the city is glamorous and shows off her fair thighs without any taboo; the boys in the city also talk elegantly, don't use swear words, and show off some small talents from time to time. Whether it's a boy or a girl, she is extremely attracted to them.
She also gradually learned to dress up, started to talk about the gossips of celebrities, disdained the tea in her hometown, forced herself to drink the bitter coffee, played with her dress in front of the mirror, smeared on bright lipstick, bought with borrowed money Find an angle to take a selfie with your phone, add some incomprehensible literature about pain, and post it on a few WeChat Moments.
But it received very few likes.
Although she worked hard to integrate into the big city, wearing bright clothes and drinking bitter coffee, she always seemed unable to get rid of her rural temperament and seemed incompatible with the big city.
She was discouraged, especially when she saw high reminder bills that she simply couldn't afford.
Although her life in the city has been repeatedly frustrated, she has never thought of returning to the countryside. She will stay in the city at all costs.
At an accidental sorority, she met a senior who had graduated. The senior was tall and handsome, and drove a black Mercedes-Benz. He was the focus of the audience. The junior girls looked at him with admiration, and the juniors looked at him with admiration. Then she pretended to be mature and toasted with him to build a relationship, promising to keep in touch with him in the future. The senior smiled and agreed, showing himself to be at ease in front of a group of students.
Without exception, she had a crush on this senior. She thought that her conditions were no better than other girls, so she gritted her teeth and forced herself to kiss the senior in the adventure game.
This can be called a brave performance, but it actually made the senior student confused. When singing later, his eyes frequently fell on her.
After the party was over, the senior actually offered to take her back to the dormitory.
Sitting in her senior's Mercedes-Benz, her eyes were blurred, and for the first time she felt the indulgent joy of city people, especially after defeating the other Yingying Yanyan tonight.
She said: I don’t want to go back to the dormitory.
The senior understood the situation, turned the steering wheel, and took her to the hotel.
That night, she tasted the forbidden fruit for the first time, and the pain was so painful that she almost begged, but she held back because she thought she had found true love and would soon be able to integrate into this strange city.
The next day, he disappeared.
She asked around and found out that the senior was actually from a rural area, his family conditions were not even as good as hers, and he owed many debts outside the country.
The clothes were counterfeit, the car was rented, and even the money for the house last night was waiting for her to settle.
She was so frightened that she was deceived. On the advice of her best friend, she went to the hospital for a check-up.
The result was that she was not pregnant, but she was infected with the disease.
She hated that man and hated her best friend even more, because not long after her test results came out, all the teachers and students in the school knew about her, and it was her best friend who told her everything.
Her parents, who were far away from home, came to the city by train overnight. When she saw her parents, the wrinkles on her father's face had deepened and her mother's eyes were red and swollen with regret.
Her father slapped her several times in public and called her a bitch and a shameless slut. Her mother stood by her side to prevent her father from hitting her, and even bit her father in the end.
Lying in the hospital for treatment, she looked at the ceiling aimlessly, and kept asking herself questions in her heart.
What kind of life do I want?
Is this all my life?
Why is God so unfair and why do all the bad things happen to me?
