"Why do you make yourself so tired? You know that many things have nothing to do with you." The scholar shook his head.
Throughout Su Mo's life, many things had nothing to do with him.
For example, the case in the west of the city among the Nine Heavens and Ten Earths, the chaos in the Demon Realm, the Tribulation of the Nine Heavens, and the Fusheng Pass...
But he took everything on himself, and everything had a reason.
Su Mo did all this for a reason.
But...he never said...
Su Mo was dumbfounded and shook his head.
He didn't know, he just seemed to want to do this.
The scholar looked at Su Mo, looked at Su Mo, and seemed to be looking at the sadness in Su Mo's heart that had never been revealed before.
"Want to know the answer?" the scholar asked.
Su Mo looked up at the scholar and nodded.
"Because you always remember that you are not from this world..." Scholar Youyou said, feeling a little sad.
"Everything in this world makes you feel unreal."
"You want to be involved with everything in this world and integrate yourself into it, rather than just being a spectator..."
"It's very tiring and very painful."
"But this feeling makes you feel...real."
Su Mo trembled, then nodded in a daze.
The cool breeze blew, and the Cangsheng pen on Su Mo's hair fell silent at some point.
Su Mo turned to look at the clouds outside the netting platform, as if he was lost in memories.
"Back then, when I first came to this world, I felt that everything in front of me was so unreal."
"I never thought that there would be such a world that seems to be incompatible with me."
"I fell into a feeling of being alone among thousands of people."
"Until I saw a refugee who was about to starve to death, I couldn't bear it and gave him my food."
"That man was so grateful to me. The tears in his eyes were beautiful."
"I'm very happy that I can help him. This makes me feel that I am not completely isolated from the world."
"It's just that I fell on a stone because of hunger. It hurt!"
"That kind of pain also makes me feel real."
"Only at times like this can I feel that I really exist."
"This world is real."
"So since then, whenever I meet someone who needs my help, I will help."
"Only in this way do I feel...that I really exist in this world."
Cang Shengbi listened to the words in Su Mo's mouth and felt the innate sadness in Su Mo's heart, unable to speak.
It turns out that this is the reason why he has been a 'sage'.
Because of loneliness......
The scholar stared at Su Mo and seemed to sigh deeply: "But have you discovered it?"
"Everything you do in this world will eventually reflect on yourself..."
Su Mo nodded and sighed softly, "I know, I've always known..."
"I saved that refugee with my own food and almost starved to death myself."
"I helped redress the injustices of the wronged souls in the west of the city, and got myself into trouble."
"I took the girl with me and allowed myself to bear the pain of losing her."
"I avenged the villagers who were massacred by the immortals, putting myself in a deep crisis in the divine realm."
"I helped the world quell the chaos in the demon world, and made myself spurned and cursed by the world."
"I brought down the red mist calamity for Ninth Heaven, but I regretted having to kill tens of thousands of people with my own hands."
"I used myself to hold up the floating leaves, but I let myself die and could not return to Jiutian."
"I want everyone in the world to be safe and happy, but the Book of Life and Death makes me feel the pain of everyone who dies..."
Su Mo's words were very soft, as if he was remembering, but also seemed to be regretting.
It is a pity that his life is not good. Every good thing he does will have the negative consequences of that good thing on him.
Cangshengbi listened to Su Mo's words in confusion, but what he felt in his heart was the endless suffering of a young man.
Everything he did seemed to turn out just as he expected.
However, this young man has to bear all the bad consequences alone...
He had always known that whatever he did would bring bitter consequences to him.
"Actually, when Huikong told me that I would suffer more than everyone else in the world..." Su Mo shook his head and murmured to himself, "I knew it."
"Huikong also knows, so he wants to take me out of the sea of suffering."
"Just like the reincarnation in the mirror of reincarnation, I am just an ordinary Su Juren."
"But if this is the case, I will return to that kind of loneliness that is far away from the world."
"That feeling of loneliness makes me feel like everything in front of me is illusory."
"I myself am illusory..."
The scholar shook his head and sighed, "Is it worth it?"
Su Mo smiled slowly, as gentle as the breeze and as bright as the spring clouds.
"It's not important, it's painful anyway..."
“…it also makes me feel real.”
Su Mo turned his head and looked at the clean platform at his feet, then looked up at Mount Sumeru, which was as high as the top. "For me, perceiving the reality of this world is more important than anything else."
"I don't want everything I've experienced to be just a dream."
The scholar slowly stood up and looked at Su Mo, "What if all this is really just a dream?"
"Then keep doing it and turn this dream into a sweet dream that warms people's hearts." Su Mo said.
"What if all this is just a book, and you are just a person in the book?" the scholar asked again.
Su Mo was stunned for a moment, staring at the scholar, feeling that the scholar was himself, but also somewhat different from himself.
"So you're the one who wrote the book?"
The scholar shook his head, "Yes, you are me, and I am you."
"What's the difference? We are all book writers, and each of us writes our own book..."
“Some write well, some write badly.”
"But the things in the book are beyond our control, right?"
Su Mo thought for a moment, then nodded.
Who in this world is not writing books? Some people write comedies, and some people write tragedies, but no matter what, they are their own 'books'.
But at least, the love in the book is real...
"You haven't answered me yet." The scholar said.
Su Mo thought for a while, then smiled and said: "Since I am the person in the book, I am also the person who wrote the book."
"Then write this book well so that people who read it will feel it is true."
"It also makes me feel real..."
When the scholar heard this, he burst out laughing. He looked at Su Mo and said, "Look, don't you understand?"
"Everything has no intention and no residence, and everything is the same as the laws of the world."
"If you feel it, it's true; if you don't feel it, it's false..."
"Wonderful...wonderful!"
The scholar smiled and turned away, disappearing.
Su Mo lowered his head, stepped out, and walked slowly towards the top of the mountain...
Biquge
