In fact, when I think about it carefully, the gentleman's method of deceiving him was very crude.
But dealing with the amnesiac Kashasha doesn’t require much skill. Just spend half a month playing development games...
Okay, Kawakamiji still doesn't want to admit that that stupid, stupid and easy-to-deceive guy is him, and he will be completely embarrassed.
But Kashasha could be forgiven for being so easily manipulated by that gentleman.
First of all, Kashasha actually trusts his guardian. In this case, he can easily be led astray by that gentleman. And the review has been subtle for so long, which will also make him involuntarily accept the world view in darkness.
At the same time, the tasks that the gentleman chose for him were all related to defectors... and also to let him see the consequences of leaving the organization.
Well, let’s talk about the time when Toudo Takuya followed the instigation of Aoki Company to steal the information of Masan Group... The problem is that Aoki Company and Masan Group were both Baidu companies that were organized and conquered.
Wearing the same pair of pants, what are you stealing information from? It seems that the gentleman couldn't find a task that could torment him at the moment, so he simply played a game of bets.
Maybe the mission target swallowed the USB flash drive into his stomach, which was all a staged stunt.
Ah, it's too far away... Jira Kawakami returned to his thoughts and continued to analyze Kashasha's grievance mentality after losing his memory.
After today, the problem completely broke out, but it also made Kashasha completely confused. He does have a physical rejection of those bloody scenes, but he also knows that he is a born killer - although the fact that experience is regarded as talent makes Kawakami speechless. And one more thing to add to this: he had nowhere to go.
In this case, choosing an organization is the easiest way for Kashasha. Maybe he really believes that the gentleman will not harm him.
Kawakami felt sleepy, and he knew that his husband had added something to his potion before leaving. This was good, at least he didn't have to force himself to continue acting despite being sleepy.
After that, the gentleman would probably assign him some relatively gentle tasks, which were probably long-range sniping, where he would shoot a headshot from a distance of seven to eight hundred yards, then pick up the gun and call it a day.
I don’t know if I will meet the gin people, and I don’t know what is going on in Scotland...
The gray-haired young man fell into a deep sleep.
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It will take some time to recuperate from the injury, but fortunately, it didn't break any muscles or bones. According to his previous experience in the novice period, Kawakami was very careful to maintain a close yet distant relationship with the gentleman. He would still eat and take walks together, but rarely communicated more:
After overcoming the psychological barrier of being embarrassed about himself, it was no pressure for Kawakami to play the role of a fool who transferred his age to a dog due to memory cleaning and had trouble with his guardian.
What does Kashasha's stupidity have to do with me, Kawakami Tsumugi? The gray-haired young man thought.
But the insomnia still persists, and it is difficult for him to eat in a normal way, because even similar colors can make Kashasha's difficult brain automatically think of things that are very delicious. At this time, white sugar mixed rice becomes a good choice. .
Although the gentleman restricted his sugar intake, he still had to let Kashasha choose between a hunger strike, vomiting on the table, or mixing white sugar with the rice. At most, he told the gray-haired young man to take vitamin tablets.
In fact, what Kawakami wants more is lemon jam or blueberry jam, but it is easy to get stuck. At this stage, Kashasha should be insensitive to any jam-like objects.
And after recovering his memory, Kawakami regained his former quirk: unable to eat food handled by others.
White sugar mixed rice is relatively simple, you can make it yourself, and it also allows him to satisfy his obsessive-compulsive disorder without violating Kashasha's character.
Eating problems can be solved, but sleep is the real problem.
Kashasha found herself unable to sleep.
Countless faces of dead people lingered in front of him when he was in a trance: blood, internal organs, bullets bounced off the ground after falling on the ground, and blood spurted out like mosquitoes being swatted to death during the sniper attack... The gray-haired young man had experienced the disadvantages of hyperamnesia. . Not only are these bloody scenes, he can even memorize the details of each deceased person damn well.
Two days a day was fine, and three or four days was fine. After holding on for a week, Kashasha knew that he was not far from death.
In fact, it doesn't matter if it comes to that point, but survival is human instinct...
He opened the [Instruction Manual], turned to the page about insomnia, and in a trance
[Perhaps you have discovered that after becoming Kashasha, hyperamnesia allows you to remember every frame of the killing.
Human beings' instinctive rejection of these things makes it impossible for you to get even a second of sleep from the first mission.
But that’s okay, insomnia is normal for people with hyperamnesia. And as long as the problem exists, the solution exists. Kashasha always manages to overcome this.
Of course, this is not the most important thing. The most important thing is that you have begun to doubt your own existence and the existence of Kashasha.
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Kashasha's eyes stayed on this line of text for a few seconds. He hesitated for a while, then turned the page and continued reading.
Kawakami, who was hiding under the mask of Kashasha, sighed softly. He already knew the next paragraph by heart.
[We actually want to apologize to you.
Without Kashasha, you can be anyone. Maybe it is similar to us because of the same nature and preferences, but it will not be us. It may be better or worse, but there are always other possibilities.
But we also have selfish motives, and so do we dead Kashashas. We hope that we can continue.
As mentioned before, each memory is equivalent to a new individual. And our memories that have become a thing of the past don’t want to be forgotten forever.
Keeping trivial and complicated memories will drive you crazy due to hyperamnesia, and forgetting everything is equivalent to erasing yourself. So we have the "Usage Guide" and the "Overview". According to the written records, we kidnapped a blank soul and kidnapped you by despicable means.
The process of becoming Kashasha is painful, but we don't want to die, so you become the only victim.
Maybe it would be nice to go crazy together? But we have always felt that losing our minds is more terrifying than death. In fact, you don’t have to endure it for long, right? In three to four years, you can dump this mess to another Kashasha after the next memory cleansing (laughs).
All in all, you will eventually become us and die a warm death. Fortunately, there is always someone who can take over Kashasha's path and continue on...
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[User Guide] There is still the last page, but the gray-haired young man has already started staring at the page in a daze. He stared at it until his vision was blurred and he couldn't help but blink.
Kawakami Tsumugi can memorize this passage - well, it doesn't prove anything, he can memorize many things.
But he knew that this was the most sincere expression of his feelings in the entire [User Guide]. It was also from here that Kawakamiji knew that he needed to take a path that all Kashasha longed for but had no chance to take.
And this is not the fault of the Kashashas. Maybe he does have countless possibilities after amnesia, but in the organization, there is only one path he can take.
"There won't be another Kashasha. No one should be left with this kind of mess."
Kawakamiji said to himself in his heart that he finally felt a little sad after successfully archiving the memory for so long.
"Even if I retain my memory, I won't go crazy. I will continue your life and continue on."
