When Mu Tang woke up, Lu Yan was standing by the bed. He flipped through the documents on his knee with one hand, and reached into the bed with the other hand, holding her hand firmly and interlocking their fingers.
The moment she woke up, Lu Yan had already noticed it. He quickly put the documents in his hands aside, lowered his head and said to Mu Tang with a smile:
"woke up?"
Mu Tang nodded, rubbed his eyes and sat up. His black hair that was scattered behind him slid down his shoulders, and he said:
"I feel like I slept for a long time..."
Lu Yan was stunned for a moment, then stood up from the chair and sat on the bedside, allowing Mu Tang to lean on his shoulder and softly said:
"It didn't take long, I only slept for one night."
Mu Tang shook his head and muttered:
"No, no, that's not what I mean, it's..." She looked up at Lu Yan, her dark pupils reflecting Lu Yan's tired face, and whispered:
"It feels like I haven't seen you for a long time..."
As soon as these words came out, Lu Yan instantly felt a surge of sourness in his heart, and even his eyes felt a twinge of sadness, and his throat swelled. After a while, he said in a hoarse voice:
"Indeed... I haven't heard from Tangtang for a long time."
Mu Tang blinked and suddenly sat up straight, turned around and held Lu Yan's face, leaned forward and pressed her forehead against his, and said in a coaxing tone:
"Don't be sad, it's okay, it's okay..."
As she spoke, she bent down, put her hands around Lu Yan's shoulders, hugged him tightly, and leaned against him.
The little girl who had been waiting for so long finally came back to him. Lu Yan couldn't help but put his arms around her waist and hugged her.
After a while, Mu Tang asked softly:
"Will she bully you?"
Lu Yan was stunned for a moment, and it took him a few seconds to realize that she was talking about another Mu Tang, and he couldn't laugh or cry:
"No, she doesn't bully me."
Mu Tang breathed a sigh of relief, raised her face from Lu Yan's arms, grabbed his hand and touched her face, touched Lu Yan's eyes with her other hand, and whispered:
"You look a lot haggard, have you worked hard? I'm sorry, I can't help you..."
Her face was full of guilt, which made Lu Yan feel distressed. He raised a gentle smile at the corner of his mouth and patted her head:
"Why do you think so? As long as you are good, I will be very happy. Nothing you do will be hard or tiring."
Mu Tang looked at him eagerly, with a thoughtful expression on his face, and suddenly asked him:
"Really? If I'm good, you won't be tired and you won't have to sleep?"
Lu Yan's hand patting her head suddenly froze. He lowered his head to look at Mu Tang's eyes full of curiosity, and suddenly he didn't know how to answer her.
Being used to the calm and wise appearance of the other Mu Tang, Lu Yan couldn't resist once again facing a little girl who had countless strange thoughts and was full of curiosity about everything.
Seeing Lu Yan's expression of pain that he couldn't express, Mu Tang suddenly burst out laughing, his curved eyebrows revealing a hint of cunning and pride.
Now, no matter how stupid Lu Yan was, he knew that Mu Tang was playing a trick on him. He felt helpless and suddenly changed his mind. He pretended to be embarrassed and said to Mu Tang in a compromised manner:
"Yeah, now that I have Tangtang, I don't need to sleep anymore. How about Tangtang start supervising me from today, okay?"
"not good!!"
Now it was Mu Tang's turn to be anxious. She refused loudly without thinking, pressed Lu Yan angrily, and said seriously:
"You can't not sleep. You can't not sleep, otherwise your body will collapse. Didn't you say you want to stay with me all the time? If you get sick, you won't be able to stay with me all the time!!"
She spoke every word with extreme seriousness. She looked at Lu Yan with focused and persistent eyes. Lu Yan was in a daze for a while. The teasing in his heart had long since disappeared. He raised his hand to touch her face, but was afraid of rough fingers. Her abdomen hurt, and she could only put down her hands.
"Tangtang..." Lu Yan's voice was hoarse and low, and he said every word solemnly:
"I miss you so much. I always miss you."
Mu Tang was stunned, all the anger on his face dissipated, and after a long while he said in a low voice:
"Me too, I miss you too."
After saying that, he closed his eyes and put his arms around Lu Yan's neck. His soft and cold lips came up and gently pressed against Lu Yan's lips.
Lu Yan held her waist, put the little girl on his lap, hugged her whole body, lowered his head again, and kissed Mu Tang's lips carefully.
Reunited after a long absence, the two hugged each other closely, enjoying this rare and quiet time.
I don't know how long it took, but Mu Tang suddenly opened his eyes, separated from Lu Yan first, then patted Lu Yan on the shoulder hard, and said seriously:
"Don't distract me!!"
Lu Yan was confused for a moment and asked blankly:
"……What?"
Mu Tang became even more angry, puffed up his cheeks, and said in an extremely serious tone:
"People have to sleep, you are different from me!!" She looked at Lu Yan's unusually obvious dark circles and became even more angry:
"You have turned into a panda. How long have you not slept?!"
Lu Yan was a little surprised:
"You still know about pandas?!"
"Of course I know!!" Mu Tang nodded firmly:
"I have remembered everything before I became a zombie. Those memories are very complete without any defects!!"
She recalled everything that happened before she became a zombie. No, it shouldn't be considered a recall, but she got another Mu Tang's memories before the end of the world!
Her life and knowledge all turned into long scrolls of memory, spread out in Mu Tang's mind.
Except for the memory of Mu Tang's awakening time after the apocalypse, she didn't know. Mu Tang could see everything about the other person at a glance, and there were no secrets between them.
Mu Tang could feel the other's desire for her father, her thirst for knowledge, her loneliness when she was alone, her helplessness in the strange eyes of others, her sadness after being treated indifferently by this person, and...
The numbness and hatred after being taken advantage of again and again.
These emotions filled her brain when she first woke up, clamoring and wailing, making her feel the pain of her other self, and see with her own eyes the torrents pressed at the bottom of the frozen lake, rolling and rushing, I wish I could destroy everything.
It hurts, it hurts, Dad, why can't you look back at me?
Why spend your birthday alone? Why do they always look at me with scared eyes?
Am I a monster? Are you afraid of me? Do what I have done make you think I am unforgivable?
Father, father, Mu Xu! ! !
What on earth are you going to do, and why are you just standing outside the door and watching helplessly? ! What on earth is it worth for you to use me again and again, push me onto the altar again and again, and let those greedy desires and hopeless dreams devour me and tear me to pieces! !
I hate you so much, I hate you so much! ! !
Why on earth, why? ! ! Why! ! !
It’s unimaginable that the girl in my memory who was always calm and as calm as water would have such strong hatred boiling in her heart! !
This hatred turned into a raging fire, almost burning her to death, and burning away all her sanity! !
Such strong emotions forced Mu Tang to sleep after waking up to avoid being swallowed up by emotions.
Mu Tang, who gained the memory, clearly realized that when the other Mu Tang realized that the virus had spread to an irreversible point, he felt happy in his heart! !
She hated herself and the world, and even wanted to let nature take its course and allow this catastrophe to destroy the entire human civilization.
But in the end, she didn't. She still suppressed the hatred in her heart and carried out the greatest possible rescue, letting most of the viruses that had already parasitized people fall asleep.
Even now, Mu Tang never thinks that the other person is an enemy. She regards her as her relative just like she did when she first learned of the other person's existence.
If given the chance to communicate with the other party, Mu Tang felt that she would hug the other party and tell her:
"It's okay, I'll be your family."
It's a pity that the other party has fallen into a deep sleep now.
"...Mu Tang?" Seeing that the little girl who was still angry just now suddenly became stunned, Lu Yan called her hesitantly.
Mu Tang came back to his senses and grinned:
"You changed the subject again." Then he pressed Lu Yan's shoulders and said:
"Anyway, let's take a rest first. The human body is very fragile. If you don't rest, you won't be able to bear it."
Lu Yan opened his mouth, but before he could speak, Mu Tang covered his eyes and whispered:
"I know you still have a lot of things to do, and you can't rest for a long time, but it's still okay for an hour. Go to sleep, and I will wake you up then."
Although the little girl who woke up again was still quirky, she had become mature in some aspects. Lu Yan couldn't tell whether this was good or bad.
However, he didn't want Mu Tang to worry about him all the time, so he compromised, lying on the bed obediently and closing his eyes.
But before going to sleep, I suddenly thought of something again. I opened my eyes and hesitated for a moment, then said to Mu Tang:
"That... friend of yours, the one named Qi Su, is now locked in a cage outside. Do you want to see him?"
Mu Tang's pupils spoke, and after being silent for a while, he said sadly:
"I do not want."
