I don't want to believe anything, is it a false relationship or an obvious ambition, or maybe this person has never thought of loving him.
Maybe Bo Ye himself didn't know it, so he trapped himself in that world and waited for death to come.
Just like what Ye Che said about waiting for the moment when you betray all your relatives and leave, Bo Ye is also looking forward to it.
He would have died by then.
He thought so.
At this moment, Shen Tang said these words, as if he was digging out something he had buried a long time ago.
Bo Ye looked at Shen Tang without blinking.
"Shen Tang, you will get hurt. Since there is no ending, why must we start? Doesn't my mother really blame me? She didn't say anything and just disappeared into my world. I told her that no matter she Whatever she wants to do, I will be by her side.”
"She also promised me that she wouldn't abandon me. But she didn't do it, and still gave up on me. She left that night and never came back. If I hadn't gotten there, I might not have seen her for the last time. "
Bo Ye smiled bitterly, "But what's the point of seeing her for the last time? It's just to see her lying there with blood all over her body, motionless. It's extremely ugly. Doesn't she hate being ugly the most? Why would she choose to lie there in such an ugly place? over there!"
"No one told me what happened to her and her father. I have been with my father for so long. I thought it would be different, but there is nothing different. This is the world, there is nothing different."
Bo Ye murmured softly.
Shen Tang frowned deeply, feeling extremely distressed.
"Do you hate Auntie?"
"Don't hate."
Bo Ye answered without hesitation.
"My mother always doesn't act according to common sense, but she is always herself. She can do whatever she wants. I just wonder why she doesn't want to say goodbye to me, even a word. Not a word. I thought she Will come back, it is obviously just an insignificant, ordinary day."
Yes, Bo Ye never felt that his mother should do anything for anyone.
He even felt that his mother should be selfish and think about herself.
She is herself.
All he could think about was why he didn't tell him, even if he just told him.
For his mother, her life is so long, why should she choose like this for someone who has not yet entered the world.
Just give him up and everything will be fine.
Shen Tang didn't know what Bo Ye was thinking.
But she believed Bo Ye's words, because she didn't feel any resentment in Bo Ye, but more of heartache.
But she didn't know what Bo Ye was feeling distressed about.
Shen Tang frowned, but still spoke.
"Boss Bo, can you tell me what's bothering you?"
Bo Ye smiled and lowered his head to meet Shen Tang's gaze.
"You know it again."
"Well, I know it again."
Shen Tang smiled.
The sound of rain hitting the umbrella was like a symphony.
"I was thinking that my mother could tell me that she is also herself. Why can't she think more about herself. I was a child at the time, but I was just a child. Obviously..."
Bo Ye frowned slightly, was silent for a moment and then started to speak again.
"Obviously she can be herself, I'm just a child. She still has a long life, obviously she can."
Shen Tang was stunned, she thought a lot. The only thing I didn't think about was Bo Ye's thoughts.
The lifeless energy on Bo Ye's body was the death he had always wanted.
Shen Tang seemed to understand better.
"Boss Bo..."
"Um."
Bo Ye smiled and said, "Do you think I shouldn't think this way?"
"No," Shen Tang shook his head, "I just didn't expect you to think like this. Boss Bo, have you ever thought that your aunt thinks the same way. In her eyes, you are also a person with a long life. Your life has not yet Once it starts, it’s over.”
"Can……"
"No buts," Shen Tang shook his head, "I don't know much about my aunt, but from your mouth and from the mouths of many people, I can find that my aunt is very kind, such a kind person. The choices she makes are naturally kind. of."
"And this is her own choice, isn't she being herself? Aunt has always been an aunt, she just has an additional identity. But she has always been herself. Boss Bo, don't think too much, and don't blame yourself all the time. .”
Bo Ye looked at Shen Tang with a smile, "You always have a lot of truth, and I understand what you said. But my mother... I don't know what she thinks."
Shen Tang smiled, "But I know, if I were an aunt, now that I have chosen, I will not regret it. I didn't tell you, just because I didn't want you to be sad after knowing it. It's like leaving every day, this is the same."
"Just treat it as an ordinary day. The last thing she expected was your appearance. In the end, the thing she regretted was not hiding it from you. She let you see the most unsightly side of her. But if you, Boss Bo, Still covered by the haze, Auntie will probably be even more sad."
Bo Ye looked at Shen Tang speechlessly, just looking at Shen Tang.
Shen Tang smiled and said, "Boss Bo, I know it's difficult, but I hope you won't refuse change. Take your time, and there will always be times when things get better."
Bo Ye looked at Shen Tang and smiled. He reached out and hugged Shen Tang.
"Shen Tang, mother will definitely like you very much. Just like she likes you very much. You know the hesitation of both of us. But you are right, we have already chosen. Then accept all this and grasp the present moment. Everything. Just fine.”
Shen Tang hugged Bo Ye and smiled.
"Boss Bo, I said that I will stay with you as long as I am still here. With you, we share the wind and rain. I am the person standing by your side, not the person hiding behind you. Although I like to hide very much. Behind others, because it’s comfortable. But that doesn’t mean I can’t be beside you.”
Bo Ye laughed, "Mr. Shen, I never thought you couldn't stand by my side. I just worried about your safety just like you. You always risk your life for me, and I would be very worried. I didn't say you couldn't stand. by my side."
Shen Tang nodded, "I understand. Can Boss Bo talk to Auntie properly? Don't have such thoughts. Because Auntie will definitely not have such thoughts."
Bo Ye smiled, "Well, actually I don't know what to say. Just stay here quietly like this."
Bo Ye really didn't know what to say. If she told her mother about her experiences over the years, she would probably make her angry.
It would be better not to say these words and just stay with her slowly like this.
If he said it, it would be after meeting Shen Tang, but Shen Tang still had some things that he absolutely couldn't say.
Shen Tang didn't say anything, just handed the other umbrella to Bo Ye.
"Boss Bo, since you're here, please stay with your aunt. It's raining too hard, so I, the injured person, will go to the car and stay in the car first. Boss Bo, I want to take a nap, don't worry. .”
Bo Ye smiled and looked at Shen Tang, "Okay, everything you said is good. Go ahead and pay attention to safety."
"Um."
Chen Tang nodded, opened another umbrella and handed it to Bo Ye, took the umbrella in Bo Ye's hand and left.
Bo Ye watched Shen Tang go away.
After Shen Tang left, Bo Ye turned his head and looked at the person on the tombstone.
"Mother, do you know? Sometimes I really don't know what to do. Sooner or later, Shen Tang will leave. Although I have decided to leave with her, I always feel that she is far away, as if I don't know when. Gotta get out of here.”
"And I couldn't keep her. In fact, I knew she would leave from the beginning. My hesitation carried my own danger and I knew she would leave sooner or later. But... I couldn't bear to leave, I really couldn't bear to leave."
Bo Ye's voice became much softer, and there was sadness in the corners of his eyes and brows.
"Mother, if you were by my side, would you be able to tell me what to do. Mother, you taught me that to love someone is to respect everything about her, to love her, and to follow her wishes. Don't make your own decisions. "
"Can……"
There was helplessness in Bo Ye's eyes.
"Forget it, forget it. Since my mother said it, there is an answer. Everyone's life is not just about love. Shen Tang is different from me. She has many, but I only have love. So I will watch more about love. It's important, that being the case. Naturally, I have to do more. If one day she really leaves, I hope I can follow in her footsteps and leave her without leaving her."
"Mother, if you hear what I say, if you really don't blame me, please bless me more. I asked for nothing before, so let me get something."
Bo Ye looked at the person on the tombstone.
In fact, he should talk about how he has missed his mother these years.
But when the words came to his mouth, he didn't know what to say, as if he was mute.
"I want you to get more, and so does your mother. But your mother can't hear it, and I don't know what you will encounter in the future."
Tiandao stood not far away and said.
Bo Ye couldn't hear her, and no one here could see her.
Shen Tang ran into the car, and Lao Fang was a little surprised to see Shen Tang come back alone.
"Madam, are you coming back alone?"
Lao Fang took the umbrella from Shen Tang's hand, opened the door and let the person in.
"Boss Bo is talking to aunt over there."
"yes."
Lao Fang put away his umbrella and sat down in the car.
"Old Fang, I didn't say you just wait here. Why are you standing outside?"
"My wife and the boss don't know when they will come back. It's raining harder and harder. It's better to wait outside."
Shen Tang smiled and said, "Lao Fang, you are really attentive like no one else."
"Mrs. Miao likes it."
"No, you are really careful."
Shen Tang said, turning on her phone and saying no more.
Lao Fang didn't say anything, he just turned up the heater.
Warm air blows inside the car, making it warm in a short while.
Shen Tang yawned.
Such a warm car is perfect for sleeping when it's raining outside.
Shen Tang thought about it, but his hands didn't stop.
Fang An sent her a message. She had arrived at Yu Xing's place today and had roughly learned about the situation, so she wanted to meet Shen Tang.
