Ning Guiren looked away, not wanting to see himself in the bronze mirror anymore, like a complete loser, and felt pitiful just looking at it.
He reached out and touched his belly. Although his belly was already very flat, the stinging pain from those days was really scary just thinking about it.
It really hurts a lot. I had to drink bowl after bowl of soup before I felt a little better. But maybe more of it was just numbness from the pain. Now it’s finally gone and I won’t feel any more pain. It hurts.
Chu Xin had been kneeling outside the palace for a long time, feeling that her knees were so painful that they were a little numb. In fact, she had always been like this when she was with Ning Guiren these days, and she was often humiliated.
In fact, sometimes I feel quite pitiful when looking at Ning Guiren, because I can see the deep despair in her eyes. The deeper she vents her anger on herself, the more she regrets that it is not worth it.
When Jinxiu came out, she saw Chu Xin kneeling on the ground with a smile on her face.
"Didn't I tell you to kneel down? Who allowed you to sit down? I thought your body would be as hard as your mouth, but I didn't expect that you couldn't hold on after only holding on for a while? You are in front of the master? Aren't you still very tough at that time?"
Jinxiu walked up to Chu Xin with a smile and walked around her. Then she deliberately pretended to suddenly remember something, "Oh, I forgot, there seems to be something wrong with your legs. Kneeling down, naturally. I won’t be able to bear it anymore!”
After saying that, she covered her mouth and laughed. Chu Xin acted as if she hadn't heard anything and forced herself to kneel down again.
"If tossing me like this can make you feel relieved, then that's good. What I'm afraid of is that if you torment me like this, you won't feel relieved.
Chu Xin took a deep breath and looked at the ground. It was very clean. She missed the pure noble people and wanted to return to the pure noble people.
Ning Guiren's palace is very unfamiliar to her. She doesn't like everything here, including the people here.
After kneeling down, he dragged his heavy body back to his house. Maybe it was for outsiders to see. The house Ning Guiren let him live in was quite nice.
Every time Yuan Heng came to see her, every time Yuan Heng came over, Ning Guiren looked gentle and generous, either scolding herself lightly, or telling herself to stay in the house and not allowed to go out.
Therefore, it is no wonder that Ning Guiren has so much resentment in her heart, because what she did does not conform to her own logic at all.
She had paid such a high price, but she didn't get the result she wanted. When facing Yuan Heng, she had to keep pretending, so how could she be happy?
Early the next morning, I got up and went to wait on Ning Guiren. It was said that I was going to serve, but in fact, it was better to play the role of a vent bag.
"It's been so long, and you still haven't learned your lesson? You used to really regard Pure Nobility as your master, and you thought of everything for her. Now I'm your master too, why don't you think of me?"
After Ning Guiren got up, she was sitting in front of the dressing table washing up. Looking at Chu Xin standing next to her, she really didn't like her at all.
If you can love Wu Jiwu, you can also hate Wu Jiwu. She hates Chun Gui Ren so much that she will naturally never have a good look at the people she likes around Chun Gui Ren.
"I wonder what your noble lord wants?"
Chu Xin looked down at the ground, unwilling to look into Ning Guiren's eyes. Those eyes were filled with too much malice.
"How do you think I can regain His Majesty's love in the future? Now that I have no children, I won't be able to have children in the future. Why don't you give me an idea, what should I do?"
Jinxiu was smearing rouge on Ning Guiren's face, and a slight blush suddenly appeared on her fair and tender face. It was white and rosy, which was the most beautiful.
"What did you look like when His Majesty liked you in the past? Gentle and dignified, but what do you look like now? If you go back to your original appearance, maybe you can win His Majesty's heart?"
Chu Xin thought carefully and thought about it, and this should be the only way. She believed that Ning Guiren once had a happy life, otherwise she would not have been favored by Yuan Heng for so long.
But now that it has become like this, it really makes people feel scared, and makes people feel a little afraid to get close, because when you get close, you will see those eyes full of malice, and you can't help but feel fear.
"What you said is wonderful. There is indeed something in your words. Are you saying that I am not gentle or polite now, but full of calculations?"
Ning Guiren took a hairpin and put it on his hair, gesturing from side to side and smiling slightly, as if he didn't mind these words at all.
"I dare not say these words, I didn't mean it." Chu Xin quickly denied it. In fact, if it was like this, what's the use of saying it?
The person involved would know it best. Could it be that Ning Guiren himself couldn't even feel the changes that had happened to him? She should be very clear about it.
It was rare that Ning Guiren did not make things difficult for her this time, but let the matter pass so easily.
During the meal, Chu Xin also stood by and waited on her, but Ning Guiren would not let her really do anything. People who served closely would only trust Jinxiu and let Ning Guiren stay by her side, but she could Just hit and scold as you please.
"I remember you were not a princess before? Weren't you a princess? Why are you really willing to be a slave now? What benefits did the noble lady give you to make you do your best to help her?"
After finishing the meal, Ning Guiren still let Chu Xin stay.
In the first few days, she naturally wanted to humiliate him casually, but after a while, such humiliation was meaningless. It really made her curious about this person.
How could he willingly endure being a slave now that he had such a noble status in the past?
"Jungui told me that she never regarded me as a slave, but only regarded me as a good friend. I will naturally do my best to consider her."
From the beginning to the end, Chu Xin lowered her head slightly and looked at the ground. If she had been talking to a noble person, it would definitely not be like this.
"Are you still hoping that Pure Noble will save you and take you back? But don't you know that Pure Noble can't protect yourself now? She has been imprisoned by His Majesty, and as he said, she is not allowed to come out.
His Majesty has never visited me once in the past few days. He only comes to see me every day. Every day when he comes to see me, he apologizes to me and says he is sorry to me. Look how deeply your Majesty feels towards me now. ! "
Ning Guiren smiled as she spoke, as if she was very satisfied with this. She just wanted to make His Majesty feel guilty and feel distressed.
"At this moment, there is no one else in the room, so I will say some things bluntly. If what I say makes you unhappy, you can punish me."
Chu Xin took a deep breath, she just felt aggrieved for Chun Guiren.
"Actually, you know very well in your heart, is Chunguiren wrongly accused? You have poured dirty water on her, don't you feel satisfied? You have wronged such an innocent person, do you really feel at ease?"
"So I said, how lucky is Chun Gui? She has such a good sister who is willing to suffer for her, and a majesty who loves her so much. Even if I have slandered her like this, she can still be safe. Nothing happened, His Majesty was silently protecting her.
Her life is already so beautiful, so what if I add some stain to her beautiful life? It's just a small stain, nothing serious, so what are you worried about? "
Ning Guiren's face froze and he took a strong breath, not wanting to lose.
In fact, in the first few nights, she couldn't sleep because she was afraid of falling asleep. She would always have nightmares as soon as she fell asleep, and she would often wake up from nightmares.
People who have done bad things must have a guilty conscience, and she is no exception. She can deceive everyone, but she can never deceive her true heart. She will feel guilty and regretful. She really feels that all this is calculated. Not worth it.
"My lord, why do you have to make things like this? You have been loved by His Majesty before. His Majesty loves a gentle and kind-hearted woman. You should have been gentle and kind before. You always complain, why has His Majesty changed? Love you? In fact, the person who has changed is you. You have become vicious and calculating.
Whether it was using blood as medicine in the past or this child, you have hurt yourself. You have caused yourself to bleed so much blood. You have succeeded in getting His Majesty's guilt, but you will not get the love that radiates from the bottom of his heart. "
Chu Xin raised her head. This time, she looked directly into Ning Guiren's eyes. What she said was nothing but what was in her heart. The authorities were confused, but the bystanders could see clearly. Many things could always be seen more clearly by an onlooker.
"What do you mean by this? Are you mocking me? Are you mocking me? Do you think I have dug out all my flesh but not received any corresponding reward?"
Ning Guiren's eyes turned red instantly. Yes, I didn't realize it even if I didn't say it. It turned out that he had paid so much price.
Whether it's the bad mark on your hand or the piece of meat that fell off your stomach, it's all the price you really paid, but did you get anything in return?
It seems that there is no, there is no reward, just some unworthy affection?
"True love is not calculated or begged, but should be radiated from the bottom of people's hearts. Why must it be forced? If you hurt yourself, you can get the love emanating from your heart. Really? No, he will only feel sorry for you and sympathize with you.
Your Majesty is a very soft-hearted man. He will sympathize with you, so he will come to see you every day and be kind to you. But what if it were another cold and ruthless man? Maybe I have forgotten you a long time ago. Maybe at that time, you will feel how hypocritical and ridiculous everything you have done is, and how unworthy it is. "
"Shut up and stop talking!"
Ning Guiren seemed to be furious at this moment and turned around, unwilling to hear these words again.
The truth always hurts.
"I said something wrong. What I said didn't please you."
Chu Xin knelt on the ground. In fact, she wanted to go back to Pure Nobility every moment. The days staying here were always so painful.
Ning Guiren's mood became more and more moody, and he seemed to be sick. Jinxiu suddenly ran over from outside.
"Master, your Majesty is here!" After saying that, he glanced at Chu Xin, "Get up quickly. If His Majesty sees you kneeling, you will blame the master again. Get up quickly!"
Jinxiu quickly pulled Chu Xin up. After all, no matter what, he would not embarrass her in front of His Majesty.
"Why are you crying again? Every time I come here, I see your eyes are red. If you cry every time, your eyes will suffer from problems in the future. Your eyes are so beautiful, are you willing to suffer from any problems with your eyes in the future? ?”
As soon as Yuan Heng came in, he saw Ning Guiren crying again. He walked over distressedly, hugged her into his arms, and reached out to wipe the tears from her face.
"Why aren't you happy? It's been so long, and you should be in good health. I'll give you whatever you want. Is there anything else you're not satisfied with?"
Jinxiu had already pulled Chu Xin and retreated to the edge. After hearing these words, Chu Xin quietly raised his head and glanced at Yuan Heng's expression. He was 70% helpless and 30% pity. It seemed that the helplessness was more than enough.
In fact, Yuan Heng is really a very good person. If it had been another man, I'm afraid he wouldn't have been so patient to coax Ning Guiren.
Suddenly, he thought of his past appearance. At that time, Xiao Zhi was not as good as Yuan Heng, and he would never really put a person in the palm of his hand to pamper and coax him.
If Xiao Zhi had been in the situation at this moment, Ning Guiren would have truly felt what despair was.
"I don't want to close my eyes. As soon as I close my eyes, I will think of what happened that day. I will think that my child is gone and I will never have children again. Does this mean that I will be useless in the future? What if I am a useless person? I have no hope whatsoever."
As Ning Guiren spoke, she began to cry aggrievedly again. Every tear she shed was so real, and she really felt that her whole heart was hurting.
I don't know what's wrong with me. I seem to be stuck in an emotion that I can't get better. I feel that my whole person is so hypocritical.
Sometimes, what Chu Xin said seems to be quite right, and it is only he who understands the most vicious things he has done.
She really killed her child. She was given bowl after bowl of poison every day. The child was dead when it was born without even a cry.
How vicious, what a vicious person I am! Sometimes I lament my own cruelty!
