"I tried to persuade you back then, but you were never willing to listen to me, and now you have tasted the consequences. Aren't the pure nobles the most favored now? You may have no place in His Majesty's heart now."
Xu Yan said calmly, "Are you distressed or relieved because you can't hear these words?"
In fact, he has had some resentment in his heart for so many years, but in general, love is still greater than hate, otherwise he would not have stepped into the Fuling Palace at this moment.
"I was young and frivolous at that time, and I felt that I should be the most special one in everything. I always felt that as long as I truly stayed with His Majesty, then I would always have some place in His Majesty's heart, right? However, I underestimated it. Your Majesty's cruelty to me also underestimated the existence of others. Now I have completely become the one who has been abandoned."
Concubine Ning smiled bitterly.
From this angle, she could see the moon outside the window. The moon was still so round. It was exactly the same as every time he saw the moon after entering the palace.
But her heart has changed and she has made an unforgivable mistake.
I guess that one day, this mistake will be known to His Majesty, but I am secretly expecting His Majesty to know this mistake.
After Concubine Ning went back, she tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. She picked up a pen and wrote a few lines on the table. After writing, she carefully placed it in an envelope, and then put the envelope into a small wooden box.
The next morning, when Jinxiu came to serve, he saw the small wooden box.
"If you have this box delivered to the palace, say it is a letter written by me personally to His Majesty.
Concubine Ning ordered casually, and was currently sitting in front of the dressing table getting dressed. Although I am not in the palace now, even if I dress up beautifully, I don’t know who to show it to, but I just want to make myself look decent.
"Master still cares about His Majesty."
Jinxiu sighed. She originally thought that her master would be able to get out of this emotional turmoil, but she didn't expect that in the end, she would still care about his majesty.
"I entered the palace for His Majesty in the first place. How could I let go of Your Majesty so easily now?"
Concubine Ning said helplessly, she didn't want it to be so easy, just like letting go of all these troublesome feelings, but it couldn't be that easy.
Hating a person means that you have high expectations for that person in your heart, but it is just that the expectations you have in your heart have not been met, so resentment arises.
I just hope that His Majesty can change his mind, I just hope that I can see the good in myself, but there is none, not at all, so I feel resentment.
You can deceive others, but you can never deceive your own heart.
Her heart was still telling her that she still cared about His Majesty and still wanted to save His Majesty.
"Master, don't worry. I will definitely have all these letters sent to the palace. I also believe that Your Majesty will never ignore them."
Hearing these words, the pure nobleman just smiled helplessly. In fact, there is a high chance that His Majesty will not look at it at all.
It is precisely because I have been with His Majesty for so long that I understand the other person's temperament very well. He already dislikes me for being so indifferent. So what kind of feelings does that really mean?
That's why I feel aggrieved and resentful, and would rather commit such a big mistake.
He was just afraid of not getting a look from His Majesty. This feeling would make him feel aggrieved and helpless.
So I really want to do something shocking, as long as it can leave a mark in His Majesty's heart.
After tidying up and dressing up, I went to Junguiren's place. After all, I still have to live in the harem, knowing that I can't compare to before.
If you continue to openly communicate with the pure nobleman, it will not have any good consequences for yourself.
Don’t you realize that the food, clothing, housing and transportation provided to him now are much worse than before?
"You have a good temper today, and you are a little less sinister than before."
The pure nobleman asked Concubine Ning to sit down and smiled lightly, obviously very satisfied with the current result.
Although she is generous, she will not forget how she was bullied by Concubine Ning in the past, and she is fine the way she is now.
People who bullied me in the past can only look up to me now, which feels quite good.
"After all, we are all sisters in the harem, so we naturally want to live in harmony. I only hope that when your majesty comes back, you will see a quiet and harmonious harem. This will also be good for your majesty's health."
The pure nobleman smiled lightly, and his whole person looked much calmer, quite a bit gentler than before.
"It would be great if you could understand this. I'm very pleased."
The pure nobleman looked at Concubine Ning's face carefully and felt that she seemed a little different from before. It was not that she was different in appearance, but that her manner of speaking was slightly different.
"Your Majesty is not in the palace. I often have nightmares at night. I always dream about how old and lustful I will look after falling out of favor. How terrible do you think this is?"
Concubine Ning lowered her head slightly and her tone became a little depressed. Yes, this was what she was really afraid of.
She was still so young, still in her prime, and was about to become an outcast. It was hard to imagine how lonely she would be after so many years.
Everyone needs the company of others. If you have entered the harem, you need His Majesty's company, but now you have lost all this.
"Your Majesty is soft-hearted and has always been very kind to the people in the harem. If you really knew that you had done something wrong, I would be reluctant to be really indifferent to you."
The pure nobleman comforted him expressionlessly.
In fact, this is a truth that she deeply understands, because she really feels that His Majesty is a very soft-hearted person.
"Then I hope it's as you said."
Concubine Ning said perfunctorily, not believing this. These were just words to comfort herself. She only believed in the feelings in her heart, because she felt that she had suffered indifference.
"In a few days, I want to leave the palace and go to Fu'an Temple to burn incense. I want to get rid of the bad luck on my body. I want to wait for His Majesty to come back and see a brand new me. Do you think this is okay?"
After finishing speaking, Concubine Ning looked up at Pure Noble Man, and it was indeed different from before. There are two different looks when a person is down and out and when he is proud.
Now, the status of her and Chun Guiren has all changed. She has to seek the other person's meaning when saying or doing anything.
"Fu'an City is not far away. If you want to go, go ahead. It's good to burn incense and worship Buddha to calm down your mind."
The pure noble agreed. Anyway, this is not a big deal. It’s not a big deal if I want to burn incense and worship Buddha. I just hope it is true and I can know that I have done something wrong.
After getting the permission, Concubine Ning went back, but her expression changed the moment she left the house. She became extremely disdainful with deep resentment in her eyes. She was really fed up with bowing her head in front of pure nobles.
"Give her some face, she is really pretending in front of me, her condescending attitude is really disgusting!"
After returning, Concubine Ning complained softly and was so angry that she gritted her teeth.
"Although I was mentally prepared when I went there, when I really asked humbly, I felt aggrieved. When did I bow to her again?"
Concubine Ning sat with an annoyed look on her face, waving her hands in front of the tea handed over by Jinxiu, without any thought at all.
"Master, you don't need to worry about this anymore. Anyway, we have already received permission. Isn't that good? We will have the opportunity to leave the palace tomorrow. This has achieved our goal."
Although she felt unhappy in her heart, it was not the most important thing now. Concubine Ning sighed heavily and rubbed her temples with her eyes closed.
Sometimes, you do know that what you are doing is wrong, but you just can’t help but do it. You have already embarked on this path, and there is no room for regret.
What's more, her heart really hurts, so why should she have to hurt alone? You want others to suffer along with you. Even if that person is someone you once loved deeply.
for a long time.
"Madam, what's going on? Why are you always looking so sad these days?"
Suhua stood by the window, looking in the direction of the study, frowning, unwilling to speak for a long time.
"My lord is going out again tomorrow. I just want to be with you, but your lord is not willing."
Suhua spoke lightly, with a sour tone.
"Perhaps it's because you are so busy with your affairs, it's not convenient for your wife to be by your side."
Lamei comforted in a low voice.
"Okay, go out and let me be alone for a while."
After Lamei went out, the room suddenly became quiet. But Suhua felt upset. She was really uneasy and always felt that something terrible would happen.
It was because of the presence of that woman in the palace that every time Xu Yan came into the palace these days, she would wait eagerly. Whenever she came back late, her heart would beat very fast.
As soon as she heard that Xu Yan was back today, she hurried to the study eagerly, but Xu Yan seemed to be equally indifferent to her.
"I wonder what happened to you these days, sir? Or maybe I did something wrong? Why does sir seem so cold to me?"
Xu Yan, who came back today, looked much calmer. Facing Suhua beside him, he really couldn't bring up any interest in comforting her. After all, his eyes were filled with the existence of another woman.
"You should know who you are."
Hearing such indifferent words, Suhua's eyes suddenly became moist.
Once upon a time, she was just a maidservant beside the Lord, but she looked somewhat similar to that woman, so she became a lady.
Now that I hear this sentence, I really feel aggrieved.
"I don't like people around me being so talkative. Just stay quiet and don't cause too much trouble."
Xu Yan warned coldly.
He doesn't like that the woman around him has so many crooked thoughts. He just wants to stay by his side quietly. Whatever you want will be given naturally.
"You have met the person you care about the most, so you naturally don't care about the people around you."
Suhua muttered aggrievedly, but in fact, this was what he was thinking.
"Isn't it like this these days? They say they are very busy, but are they really so busy? Are the affairs in the palace so difficult to deal with? Or is it that after seeing that woman, my heart started to become chaotic? Already?"
"what are you saying?"
Xu Yan's expression suddenly changed. Yes, he felt guilty.
It's not that he didn't know what he had done, so he was always startled. Even with such a sentence, he could think of what he had done with Concubine Ning these nights.
If these things spread, they will definitely discredit themselves and may even risk their lives.
But he couldn't control himself, so he did it without hesitation, just because he couldn't refuse Concubine Ning.
"Presumptuous, this is not what you should have said!"
As if she was a little angry, she spoke louder to Suhua.
In fact, he is usually a modest gentleman, and he never gets angry like this, but at this moment, he is really too guilty.
