"Every time His Majesty goes to see His Majesty, he always asks me to wait outside. Do I have such an important position in His Majesty's heart?"
After going back, Chu Xin couldn't help but feel a little shy. He didn't expect that in His Highness's heart, he could actually be such a trustworthy person.
"You have always held a very important place in my heart, not to mention that only you can truly make me feel at ease."
Xiao Zhi looked at her with a smile, but how could he not see what he wanted in the first place?
If you want a high status and a life of glory and wealth, then you can only have it all by staying with yourself.
"So, you don't have to feel insecure all the time. Just stay by my side and feel at ease."
Xiao Zhi suddenly changed his usual cold attitude. At this moment, he was extremely gentle towards Chu Xin. He held her in his arms and comforted her carefully every word.
Knowing that Chu Xin was not stable, especially after being slapped by Chu Yi, she felt insecure. It was precisely because of knowing that she comforted her so gently now.
This feeling is like making up for regrets. What I didn't do to Chu Xin in the past is now returned to my original intention.
"Thank you, Your Highness, for being so kind to me. In fact, there is something I have said countless times. I still can't believe that all this is true. How could I be so lucky to have such a good relationship with His Highness?" Where is the deep preference?"
Chu Xin had already been moved to tears, huddled in Xiao Zhi's arms, and closed her eyes happily.
I really feel that I feel so safe now, even if I get slapped, it is nothing, because I always know that His Highness is partial to me in his heart.
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Late at night, Chu Xin woke up from a nightmare. She dreamed about things in the past, about things in Chu State when she was a child, and about things in Northern Qi.
Whether it was Xiao Zhi's sweet promises or Chu Yi's condescending humiliation, she felt so painful that she really couldn't bear to die.
Coupled with the news I heard a few days ago, my whole body felt like I had been beaten into a sap, and I couldn't vent my courage.
All the people he hates who have hurt him are still alive and well, and are living better than before. For him, this is really bad news!
After waking up from the nightmare, I could no longer sleep. I lay on the bed tossing and turning, as if I couldn't fall asleep no matter what.
Will we really have to stay in Nanliang for the rest of our lives?
Can all the past events really be wiped out? Can all the deceptions, betrayals, humiliations, embarrassments, and even the fear of death be forgotten?
If all these things can be forgotten and tolerated, what is the meaning of her life? Is it possible that as long as you live, you can only be bullied by others, without being able to fight back? Then he shook his head and smiled bitterly.
Yes, isn't she just like this? She is. Who can stand behind her and be her confidence?
When I went to take care of Yuan Heng the next day, his eyes were black and blue, and he was not in good spirits. It was obviously due to lack of sleep.
After waking up in the middle of the night, I never fell asleep again. To be precise, I didn't have any intention of sleeping.
"What's wrong with you? It's been several days, and you're still obsessed with the news? Your mental state has been really bad these days? Should you take care of me, or should I take care of you? "
Yuan Heng looked at Chu Xin and smiled slightly.
His spirits have improved a lot in the past few days, but Chu Xin herself seemed to have collapsed. Did the news he told her that day hurt her so much?
"Why do you have to make fun of me? Many things cannot pass the test in my heart. Even though I don't mind, I still complain about the past, why I am so stupid, and why they bully me like this."
Chu Xin pouted and murmured in a low voice. Now she seems to have a bit of a temper in front of Yuan Heng. Maybe subconsciously you know that Yuan Heng is a very gentle and tolerant person.
"Not everyone is so bad, not everyone is so cold-hearted, and not everyone will hurt you. At least, I have never hurt you."
Yuan Heng suddenly felt aggrieved and defended himself. Whether it was the few times he met when he was a child or leaving Chu Xin in Nanliang, he thought he had done a good enough job.
"Do people only remember what they are missing? They only remember who hurt them, but they don't remember people who are good to them?"
Yuan Heng looked at her quietly, suddenly feeling a little disappointed.
"Of course not, why do you say that? I naturally remember anyone who was good to me, including my mother, my sister, you, and the pure noble people. They were all very good to me. Naturally, I am a good person to me. Keep it all in mind!"
Chu Xin raised her head and immediately retorted.
She is not a supercilious person, how could she not remember someone who is kind to her?
"In this case, there are people who treat you well around you. The pure and noble person you often talk about is probably thinking of you now, so your life is not that miserable. This was your favorite comfort in the past. My words, now I will return all these to you, are you willing to listen?"
As Yuan Heng said something, he suddenly thought of something. He stood up, held Chu Xin's hand, and led her to the desk.
Chu Xin was still confused, not knowing what she was going to do. She felt her hand being gently held by Yuan Heng. She dipped a brush in some ink and started painting on a piece of white paper.
I couldn't figure out what I wanted. I felt my hand being held and scratching on the paper. After a few sketches, I could see the general shape. It turned out that the painting was an orchid.
"You have told me several times that the orchid picture you drew when you were a child helped you a lot, so now I will draw another one for you. I just want you to know that no one's life is completely one piece. In the dark, there will always be a few rays of sunshine, and there will always be a few people who are kind to you."
Yuan Heng gently held Chu Xin's hand and whispered softly in her ear.
In fact, this is a very strange feeling. In front of Chu Xin, I don't seem to be a weak patient. I seem to be able to help her several times.
"Sometimes I think that being able to help you would be a very meaningful thing for me. Everyone thinks that I am weak and that I am a useless waste. But it happens that I In front of you, I feel a little more confident."
Yuan Heng said these words so softly that Chu Xin felt that she had not heard them clearly.
Seeing that the orchid painting was finished, Yuan Heng released his hold on her hand.
Chu Xin picked up the picture and looked at the orchids outlined one by one, as if she had returned to her childhood.
At that time, it was the orchid picture drawn by Yuan Heng that solved my urgent need. I felt really lucky. How could I happen to meet Yuan Heng and help me?
"You're right. I really shouldn't give up on myself anymore. Not all the people I meet are cold-hearted. You are very kind to me, and pure noble people are also very kind to me. I hope to rest in the palace as soon as possible. You are in good health, I am afraid that the noble lady has been waiting for us in the palace for a long time!"
Chu Xin put away the orchid picture, but never forgot to talk about the pure noble person.
"In front of me, you always like to mention Pure Nobility, mentioning her over and over again. Do you think that I will forget her after only a month or two in the palace?"
Yuan Heng put down his brush and suddenly felt a little unhappy.
"Is it possible that in your heart, I am such a cold-hearted person?"
"Of course not. I have never thought of you like this. On the contrary, you are the most gentle in my heart."
Chu Xin quickly denied it, "I just think that a noble person cares about you very much. She is very good to you. If a woman likes someone, she shouldn't be willing to share it with other people, let alone let others get involved."
When talking about this, Chu Xinshi recalled the memories of the past.
At that time, she was just a concubine and was suppressed by Chu Yi at all times.
What's more, if we really want to talk about it, Chu Yi is the wife who has truly worshiped the world, and she is just a concubine with a little more and a lot less. In fact, what is it?
"You have considered everything for her. You seem to really like her."
Yuan Heng sat down and looked at him quietly, unable to explain how he felt.
He could feel the love for him from the concubines in the harem, but sometimes he suddenly felt a little bored.
What he hates most is when others treat him as if he is useless.
He is a human being, a real person, not a waste who can only be served by others.
He knew that he was weak and would get sick from time to time, but so what? You don't need others to care about you carefully all the time.
In fact, it's good to be like Chu Xin. Don't treat yourself like a patient.
"What do you mean by this? She is my master now, and it is natural to think about her master. What's more, when pure nobles were not favored in the past, weren't they often bullied? At that time, you Have you ever noticed her?"
Chu Xin couldn't help but have a hint of resentment in her words. Wasn't the pure nobleman she saw at that time being bullied by Ningguiren? Where was Yuan Heng at that time?
"Are you blaming me for her?"
Yuan Heng suddenly couldn't help but smile.
"I can't always pay attention to things in the harem, not to mention that Ning Guiren was gentle and dignified in front of me at that time, how could I have thought that she would bully others like this in private?
Don’t I also know her true face now? So let the pure nobles manage all the affairs in the harem, so that you won't be bullied anymore. Isn't this enough? "
Yuan Heng really found it a bit funny, but he didn't expect that Chu Xin would always be quite resentful towards him because of Chun Guiren's affairs.
I always blame myself for not treating him well and not thinking about him all the time. Why is it so baffling to say this? Why don't other women behave like this in front of me?
"Today, you are talking more and more strangely. The noble lady is your concubine. I think about your concubine. Are you still unhappy?"
Chu Xin felt warm in her heart just after she got the orchid picture, but now when she looked at Yuan Heng, she became angry again, as if the past few days were really strange, and she wanted to quarrel from time to time.
Yuan Heng is obviously such a gentle person, but why does his words sometimes sound so irritating?
"I didn't mean it that way."
Yuan Heng seemed a little aggrieved and didn't know what to say to explain. In fact, he himself couldn't explain his current mood.
The pure nobleman is indeed her concubine, and she also knows that he has done a lot for her, and will indeed treat him well. She has already given her the right to manage the harem, which should be enough.
But why does Chu Xin still complain about herself? Doesn’t she think it’s good enough for a noble person?
