Since that incident, Chu Xin has become more and more silent. She can feel that something is not quite right in the atmosphere recently. His Majesty is seriously ill, and many people are probably thinking about it.
Thinking about what the Crown Princess had said to him that day, he chose a sunny day and wanted to go to Fanghuayuan to make it clear to Aunt Chu, knowing that she would take anything involving Xiao Zhi seriously.
"You came here by yourself today?"
Aunt Chu didn't look as mean as before, and she even made a nice gesture to invite Chu Xin to sit opposite her.
"Yuexiang said that day that you were right outside the door. I'm curious, is there something you want to tell me?"
Aunt Chu has become much softer and no longer makes things difficult as before. Xiao Zhi is always with her these days. She is in a better mood and has no desire to lose her temper.
Chu Xin clearly told what happened that day. She could feel that something was wrong in the atmosphere now. His Majesty was seriously ill and many people were probably ready to take action.
But she is just a side wife, and she is not qualified to ask about this at all. Not causing trouble is the best help.
"So that's it," Aunt Chu smiled, "Don't worry, I'm not a fool. I see many things more clearly than you. Princess Xuan came here because Her Highness went to Wan County last time and wanted to come to the mansion to have a look. Is there someone who shouldn't be there, but fortunately you always stay in Qixia Courtyard with Qianqian, so she can't find anything."
While talking, Aunt Chu poured a cup of tea herself and handed it to Chu Xin.
"It turns out that they are still obsessed with the past. It turns out that Princess Xuan comes to the palace for these things every time."
This seemed to be a bit expected, but Chu Xin felt a little sour after thinking about it a little more. It turned out that her worries were nothing at all. Doesn't Aunt Chu not understand the importance of these things?
"Your Highness has told me that the Qianqian you brought back is of great use, so I let you stay with me in Qixia Courtyard because I know you like to be quiet and always stay in the courtyard and don't want to come out. That’s why Princess Xuan never sees Qianqian every time she comes over.”
Aunt Chu smiled lightly, looking at Chu Xin who looked calm in front of her, feeling a little funny.
"I see. It seems that I have been worrying too much. It turns out that His Highness will make it clear to the Princess what he needs to say. I shouldn't worry about it blindly."
Chu Xin smiled bitterly, blaming herself for not being able to see the facts clearly. Xiao Zhi's legitimate wife was Aunt Chu. How could he hide something from her? Naturally, he would explain everything clearly without having to tell her. ah.
What's more, Aunt Chu was of such great help to him that he was nothing.
"Do you know how tense the current situation is? His Majesty has been seriously ill for more than a month. Originally, all matters should be handled by His Highness the Crown Prince, but King Xuan must intervene. King Xuan does not dare to do anything to His Highness the Crown Prince. Then I will definitely vent my anger on His Highness!"
Aunt Chu glanced at Chu Xin calmly, "So why do you think His Highness has to follow the Crown Prince these months? It's because he wants to hold on to this big tree tightly. Even if King Xuan loses in the future, if he It's more than enough to deal with His Highness, His Highness the Crown Prince is virtuous and kind, so it's not a bad thing to be by his side."
It was rare for Aunt Chu to talk so much to Chu Xin. In fact, today was a relatively harmonious day for them to get along. If they met normally, they would definitely think about embarrassing each other all the time.
Looking carefully, I feel that Chu Xin suddenly doesn't hate her so much anymore. I don't know why I hated her so much when I was a child. Maybe as people grow up, many of their thoughts change, right?
"I see."
Chu Xin nodded slightly, realizing more and more that different responsibilities came with different identities. She was just a concubine, and she could just stay in her own yard on weekdays. The only one who was really useful was Aunt Chu as the princess. .
So there is no essential difference between my situation and Qingyun's. How many of those proud feelings are left?
"It has been almost a year since I came to Beiqi, and the days have gone by so fast. For more than a year, you only need to stay in your own yard and live a quiet life. I have never treated you badly in terms of food and clothing. , although the things sent to Qixiayuan are not the best, they are definitely not bad."
Aunt Chu was very emotional, and she didn't know why she suddenly wanted to say these words, but she felt these thoughts inexplicably.
"Yes, even if we are at odds and have so many conflicts, you have indeed never treated me badly in this regard."
Chu Xin was stunned for a moment, feeling that Aunt Chu seemed to be really different today. How could she say these words? She looked much calmer, and she didn't seem to be so arrogant and mean.
I vaguely thought of Aunt Chu when she was a child. At that time, she was like a sweet and lovely lucky doll. It was she who handed the basket of charcoal fire to me. It was precisely because of this basket of charcoal fire that my mother suffered so much. board.
"But I can't be as relaxed as you. Many things in the mansion have to be managed by me. His Highness has his own things to do. It is impossible to pay attention to the affairs of the mansion all the time, so I can only pay attention to it.
I have to spend at least an hour every day looking at the account books. I have to personally inquire about all kinds of things in the palace. It is precisely because I am the princess and the mistress of the palace that I have this responsibility. It is impossible for me to do it like this. You still only care about yourself. "
As Aunt Chu thought about the past year or so, it seemed that she had only spent a few months with Xiao Zhi.
Most of the time, he stayed alone in the room, looking at the accounts, or dealing with various large and small things. When things didn't go his way, he would embarrass Chu Xin and vent his anger on her.
Now that I think about it, I wonder why she was so naive in the past. Yuexiang often said that she was still as arrogant and willful as she was when she was a princess, and she didn't even know that she had responsibilities on her shoulders.
Just like when a mother was a concubine, she had to manage the harem well. No matter how bad her mood was, she always had to do what she should do.
No matter how much I didn't want to understand the truth, I suddenly understood it at this moment, which is really amazing.
"Chu Xin, do you understand the difference brought by status? Even if we were both princesses before, even if my father doesn't like me as much as he did at first, I can still dominate you. Now that I'm a princess, You are just a side wife, but I can still put pressure on you, so do you regret that you had to fight with me in the first place?"
This was the first time Aunt Chu said this calmly. Maybe it was just a moment, and many things could be figured out.
At the beginning, she disliked Chu Xin because of her inexplicable identity as a legitimate princess, and then she always targeted her intentionally or unintentionally, but doesn’t it seem like that’s the same thing?
"I'm not fighting with you, I just don't want to give up my feelings. Facing you, I have given up a lot and given up a lot, but I don't want to give in to my feelings and my people anymore.
But now it seems that it was just my wishful thinking at the beginning. Whatever it is, it will become yours, whether it is feelings or people. "
Chu Xin said every word sarcastically. If he didn't care about these things before, then he couldn't ignore them now.
Because I watched helplessly how my feelings disappeared bit by bit, and when I thought about what Xiao Zhi said that day, and when I thought about the fact that we had only been together for less than a month or two in the past year or so, I felt that everything was so pointless. help.
The reason why there was such a big reaction when she went back that day was because those words were just the straw that broke the camel's back and really made her collapse.
"Why do you think it's your love that belongs to you? Why can't you think it's me? When Xiao Zhi was in the Chu Palace, he didn't fall in love with you alone. Why can't you believe that he had shown his love to me at that time? good?"
Aunt Chu raised her eyebrows and asked funnyly. She could see why Chu Xin was insisting, but this persistence was a mistake from the beginning, it was a joke from the beginning!
Could it be that Xiao Zhi was some kind of loyal man? He had attracted her intentionally or unintentionally when he was in Nanyuan, which showed that he was definitely not a single-minded person.
But Chu Xin still seems to be stubborn about trusting him. How can a person be so stupid?
"Yeah?"
Chu Xin still looked calm, but only she knew how fast this heartbeat was.
At this moment, it felt like the only thing I had ever owned was worthless in the eyes of others, and I felt nakedly humiliated once again.
It seems that since childhood, Aunt Chu has always been able to easily get everything she can't have. She was born a noble princess and enjoyed the life of a princess, but she suffered in the cold palace for eight years.
After coming out, I always had to give in every time I faced Aunt Chu. I was not qualified to fight for anything, so I always had to give in again and again.
But now he was told that the Xiao Zhi he once thought he had was nothing more than this, and the feelings he once valued so much were also the same. So what was left of what he really had?
"Do you know what a stupid decision you made back then?" Aunt Chu looked at her and said reluctantly, "At the beginning, she only said that she wanted to be Princess Chu, but she didn't name her and said that she wanted to marry you. Why didn’t he tell you clearly at the time?”
"Why?"
Chu Xin asked.
"Because the person he really wants to marry is me!"
Aunt Chu's answer was so natural. You can figure out the answer after just thinking about it.
"At that time, I was also my father's favorite princess, and my brother was also my father's favorite prince. There would be no harm in being in love with me. When the news of your marriage proposal came, I thought you were stupid. Why are you rushing to get there? Do you know how tired I was of you at that time?"
At this moment, Aunt Chu seemed to be as high-minded as before, showing off her happiness. Maybe she had never lost and was always confident in front of Chu Xin.
Now that I understand this, I feel less aggressive, just like a person in the clouds who doesn't pay attention to what the mud looks like, and maybe sometimes has a little more compassion.
Poor, really pitiful, how could there be such pitiful people?
Chu Xin was silent for a long time, unwilling to speak, but felt that her eyes seemed to be moist again.
Needless to say, I can feel how cowardly she is at this moment. I vaguely think of how brave I was when I was a child. Does it mean that as people grow older, they lose the courage they had as a child?
"I suddenly have a good idea that can help you judge whether there is really much left in your past relationship. Are you willing to take a gamble with me?"
Aunt Chu suddenly laughed again.
"What?"
At this moment, Chu Xin was like a puppet who suffered silently. She could only passively accept the answer to whatever the other party said.
