Chu Xin still hadn't seen Xiao Zhi for several days this year. She heard that she was busy again, so she just stayed in her yard and lived her life, and the crying that day was treated as if it had never happened.
All the letters sent by Da Chu were put in the box, and he would take them out to read when he had nothing to do, but he would not cry like that day.
It's like I have buried all those emotions in my heart and don't want to think about them. I don't want to pay attention to outside things every day. I just want to stay in my own world.
I was afraid that the more I heard and saw, the more I would have random thoughts, so I simply closed it off.
"His Royal Highness has been busy every day in the past few days and only returned home at night. Maybe there is something really serious. Madam Side, don't think too much about it."
Lu Lu comforted in a low voice. In fact, it has been almost more than a month since His Highness came here. In the past, he only came once every five or six days at most, but now it has been so long.
"It's okay. He's busy doing his own thing, and he can't pay attention to what's going on in the backyard all the time."
Chu Xin smiled and shook her head and didn't mind this. In fact, she couldn't tell whether she didn't mind or didn't dare to mind.
"During this period, the princess has been sending some letters to Dachu. I don't know why she needs to write so frequently. Mrs. Side doesn't let us ask about things outside. I always feel that there is some bad premonition."
Mingyu looked worried. His Highness had not been here for more than a month and he was already very uneasy. He also heard that the princess frequently wrote letters to Dachu. It was inevitable that something would happen.
"If the princess can help His Highness, that would be a good thing. We don't have to worry about it, just stay well."
Chu Xin shook her head and refused to ask any more questions. If asked, what qualifications did she have?
The only one who can really stand by Chu Xin's side is Chu Yi. She is just a concubine who can't stand up to the stage, and she is the best if she doesn't do much.
Aren't the lessons learned so many times in the past not enough? Do you have to press forward eagerly and be humiliated again?
Luzhu and Mingyu glanced at each other helplessly. For more than a month, Chu Xin had really just closed herself up. She didn't want to interfere with anything and always stayed in the house by herself. She didn't even want to see Qianqian more.
This is really not a good thing.
"If His Highness doesn't come, can Madam Side go to see His Highness herself?"
Mingyu said tentatively. She heard Chu Xin crying in the house that day. She knew that these things would hit her, but it was not a good thing to stay in her own yard all the time. She still needed to see His Highness.
"I don't want to see him. Every time I go to see him, eight or nine times out of ten, I can't see him. I also get a weird humiliation. I know who I am, so I don't want to do so much. "
Chu Xin smiled and shook her head. She didn't want to go out anymore, she didn't want to see those people again, she just wanted to escape. Just think of herself as a coward. It was actually good to stay in her own room.
Xiao Zhi can come if he wants to come, and forget it if he doesn't come. As long as there are not so many expectations, he won't be sad.
In fact, she was always dreaming these days, dreaming about being a princess with the chef, dreaming about when her mother was still there, dreaming about talking with Shuer Ruowan, she was really happy at that time!
At that time, I was surrounded by blessings and I always thought that I would be happier after getting married. However, I didn't expect that after truly experiencing it, what I missed most was the time of being a princess.
No, she shouldn't think about these things anymore, she shouldn't think about these messy things anymore. She can't help but regret when she thinks too much. She shouldn't regret it.
"Ahem!"
Chu Xin covered her mouth and couldn't help coughing a few times. She had been feeling a little uncomfortable these past few days. Today she felt dizzy and had no mood to do anything.
"Is Mrs. Side sick?"
Mingyu looked worried that it was still very cold at this moment, maybe he had caught the wind chill.
"I'm going to the kitchen to make some soup."
Dewdrop goes as she says, no matter what, the body is still important, as long as the body is well taken care of, everything else will be easy to talk about.
"I feel dizzy today. I don't want to do anything or say anything. Lu Lu will put down the decoction later. You all can leave. I just want to be alone."
Chu Xin held her forehead and waved her hand to ask Mingyu to step back. She didn't want to say anything at the moment.
I just feel that all this is so boring. Even if Xiao Zhi hasn't been here for almost a month, it still feels like nothing. Sometimes sitting by the window and watching everything outside is so boring.
These lives seem really different from what I once imagined!
Luzhu left after delivering the soup. She noticed that Chu Xin seemed to have something on her mind, but it was hard to say anything at the moment, so she had better take care of herself first.
After Chu Xin drank the decoction, she felt warm all over her body and felt a little better. She felt uncomfortable in her heart, as if she didn't feel well at all.
I don't know what happened to me, I just know that after I received those replies more than a month ago, I felt as if everything had changed. Things that I had deliberately suppressed in my heart and not think about it now came to light.
My mother wrote in the letter that she would regret it, because life is never what she imagined. In fact, what her mother said was right, and she did have some regrets.
Having a third person in your life feels really bad, not good at all.
It's like the shame you felt when you did something wrong when you were a child and an adult found out about it. Your mother wrote out your deepest secret, and you felt so ashamed that you didn't have the face to see anyone.
Did the mother even know?
…
Chu Shu had been thinking about it for a long time, and the Queen Mother was pressing her hard. Things in the Duke's Mansion were becoming more and more troublesome. The princess's life was like this, which was really detrimental to the royal family's face.
The Queen Mother could only order her to persuade Chu Yan. No matter how her life went, she could not spread such rumors that were detrimental to the royal family's face. If she wanted to make trouble, she could only make trouble in her own palace and never spread it outside.
After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to persuade Chu Yan today. Maybe my life was too happy, so I no longer had any resentment in my heart, and I was willing to persuade Chu Yan in a good voice.
In the Duke's mansion, Chu Yan still made things difficult for Lian'er as before, and every time she would take advantage of Gu Xiao's absence, she would use all kinds of excuses to make things difficult for her.
Chu Yan thinks that she just wants to make everyone unhappy. Why should she only make herself suffer? If she wants pain, she must make everyone suffer.
Lian'er knelt on the ground. The weather was still very cold and the ground was cold. She felt that her knees were numb from the cold.
I can only secretly hope that the young master will come back soon. Only the young master can save me every time.
Sometimes the young lady would come to help her, but most of the time she and the young lady would quarrel fiercely. She also understood the young lady's kindness, so she didn't dare to let people around her tell the young lady. She only dared to wait for the young master. return.
"It's been so long, but you really don't have a long memory at all. When you shamelessly wanted to stay in the house, did you think that your plan was successful? Did you think that you could fly up a branch and become a phoenix? Already?"
Chu Yan looked down from a high position, but there was a lot more meanness between her eyebrows. Compared with the softness before, she really became completely different.
Lian'er didn't dare to speak anymore, it was just on purpose. He knew that the young lady wanted to torture herself on purpose, so she could only accept it. The more she said something, the more wrong it was.
Once the torture has been enough and the anger has subsided, it will be fine.
Seeing her resigned look, Chu Yan felt a little satisfied. Her own pain was nothing, it was even more painful to have someone accompany her!
"Young Madam, a distinguished guest is here."
Futaba comes in to report.
"who?"
Chu Yan frowned.
"It's Mrs. Liu."
Chu Yan originally wanted to refuse, but this was already the third time. If she refused again, it would be difficult to say, and she knew that this was all the intention of the palace.
"Let her come here!"
Chu Yan waved her hands helplessly, knowing that everything in her family had been spread to the palace, and she also knew that this was all the Queen Mother's intention.
But no matter how I tried to persuade him, it was of no use. His relationship with Gu Xiao would never return to its original state, and it would be impossible for him to reconcile, or even treat each other as a guest.
There is no chance to see her every day, and Gu Xiao is not willing to come over at all. Is this any different from staying alone in an empty room?
When Chu Shu came in, she saw Lian'er kneeling on the ground at a glance, and knew that she was Gu Xiao's concubine. She didn't expect that such a gentle person would actually have another woman.
"You came here to persuade me, right?"
Chu Yan stretched out her hand and made a gesture of invitation, asking Chu Shu to sit across from her. She didn't let Lian'er get down. She still asked her to kneel here, just to let Chu Shu see clearly what the current situation was like.
"I don't want to come here to persuade you. It has nothing to do with me. I am here because of the Queen Mother's wishes. The Queen Mother does not want any more foreign affairs to be spread in the Duke's palace, which will damage the royal family's face."
Chu Shu went straight to the point, but looked pitifully at Lian'er kneeling on the ground. The ground was so cold that her knees would probably become numb from the cold if she knelt for a long time.
"I'm already here, do you still want someone to kneel in front of me? Ask someone to get up. What's more, if Gu Xiao comes back and finds out that you are so embarrassed for Lian'er, the conflict between you will only get deeper."
Chu Shu said helplessly, after coming here today, she finally understood why there was such a deep conflict between them.
Chu Yan was able to torture Lian'er without hesitation even when she was present. Wouldn't it be that she would go even further in private? In this case, how could the relationship between the couple get better?
"You don't know how annoying she is. I just want to punish her, I just want to torture her, I just want to make her kneel in front of me, so I feel better.
Sister, you have had too many happy days to understand how uncomfortable I am right now. You are also a married person. If your husband has such a bumbling bitch next to you, can you swallow your anger! "
Chu Yan smiled and shook her head. She could only say that people's destinies are really different. When she thought she would be happy soon, it was just an empty joy.
But Chu Shu turned around and found her own happiness. She married such a good man. Looking at her face, she knew that her life must be very good.
But what else does she have, what is left?
Every day when I wake up, I feel endless resentment. I always want to torture others and make others suffer the same pain as myself, so that I can feel better.
"Didn't you choose this man yourself? Didn't you just want to marry him after you put so much effort into it? What's the trouble now? The trouble has gone to the palace and even Her Majesty the Queen Mother knows about it. You Do you know how much this will affect your reputation!"
Chu Shu was a little angry. She couldn't stand Chu Yan's behavior of not being afraid of boiling water, as if she didn't care and felt that all this was no big deal.
Didn't Chu Yan want to snatch this man Gu Xiao? Now that he's grabbed it, if he doesn't live a good life, what's the point of making such a fuss?
