"Young madam, don't think about the past anymore. That's all in the past. Now we just have to live our own lives well. But don't be angry about things that are not worth it!"
Futaba is most afraid of Chu Yan like this. Every time she mentions things in the palace, she always seems to have endless resentment. This is really scary and worrying.
I always think about the past, how will I live in the future?
"You have always been by my side. You know very well how much I have been wronged in the past! Why can't I vent my anger back! Do I deserve to be wronged!"
Chu Yan's eyes were red. Every time when she was so angry, it really didn't matter who spoke. She only knew that she had really gritted her teeth and swallowed it in her stomach before.
It is true that Chu Yi has married far away and is indeed far away from her, but it does not mean that the past can be passed away. She still remembers it! Still hating it!
"Young Madam."
Futaba was really helpless and distressed. What should she do if she was always like this? She still had to live a good life.
"No matter what happens, Princess Yi has already gone to Northern Qi, and most likely she won't come back. Anyway, it's good to stay far away from us. Madam, just forget about what happened in the palace before!"
After all, Futaba still felt more distressed after following Chu Yan for many years.
"How could I forget! How could you ask me to forget! Every grievance and flattery is like a knife! She clearly knows that Chu Yi has a temperament with eyes higher than her head, and I will not exist in her eyes at all. They just want me to come up with ways to make things difficult for Chu Xinchushu!
But even so, even if I know it clearly, I can only prove my usefulness in front of her. I am really unwilling to do so! "
Chu Yan closed her eyes hard and shed two lines of tears. At this moment, her whole body was shaking with anger.
She thought that her life would be easier if she left the palace and got married, but unexpectedly, she became even more irritated.
She would always inexplicably think of what happened in the palace in the past, and felt that her past life was too humble and wronged, and she became extremely angry when she thought about it.
"Even though Chu Yi has gone to Beiqi, I still hate her! I still hate! I hate that she looks down on me. I hate that she looks aloof. I have come up with so many ways for her, but she still looks down on me. ! I really hate it!”
Chu Yan was completely angry at this moment. When she spoke, she took the tea cup and threw it to the ground.
No matter what, I feel uncomfortable because I know from the bottom of my heart that the person I really hate, Chu Yi, must still be alive and well at this moment.
It seems that she will always be so noble, always so aloof, as if she will always stand on the clouds and never fall down!
Futaba only dared to stay aside and didn't dare to persuade her any more. She knew that the young lady's situation could only be vented out. It would be really uncomfortable if she kept it in her heart!
No one noticed a flash of clothes outside the house.
…
Since Chu Xin left, Chu Shu has often come to Zhongcui Palace. She promised Chu Xin that she would come to visit more often and didn't want the place to be too deserted.
Every time he came, he would always sit and chat with Xie Ruling, talking about the days when Chu Xin was a child in the cold palace, and every time she could see the other person's moist eyes.
This time when I came out of Zhongcui Palace and planned to go back, I was invited to Youran Pavilion by the palace officials. The three sisters used to sit here and chat, but now there are only two of them left.
"After Sister Xin'er left, it was just the two of us sitting here. It's really a bit uncomfortable."
Gu Ruowan subconsciously glanced at the place where Chu Xin had been sitting, but it was empty.
"Yes," Chu Shu also missed her a lot, "I just went to see Concubine Jing. She always told me about my sister's childhood, and her eyes became moist every time she talked. If my sister knew If so, are you still willing to make this decision?"
Chu Shu didn't know what to do. She always felt a little uneasy. She didn't know how Chu Xin was doing there, but with Chu Yi here, it seemed like life wouldn't be easy.
"Only she knows in her heart whether she regrets it or not. But what worries me is that Chu Yi is here. The two of them have been at odds for so many years. I am really worried."
In fact, this is what Gu Ruowan is most worried about. Forget about feelings, it doesn't matter whether Prince Xiang of Northern Qi is sincere or not.
The important thing is that if Chu Yi wanted to torture Chu Xin, it would be really easy.
"Who says it's not the case? Is it really worth it for my sister to wrong me so much? Does she really believe in that man?"
Maybe it was because she had experienced how ridiculous a relationship was, and Chu Shu was not very sure about it.
If a man doesn't like himself, it doesn't matter even if he is about to fall from a tall building and die.
That day, she felt that her whole body had soared into the air and was about to fall, but another person hugged her and brought her back to the ground. At that moment, her heart skipped a beat.
Liu Xuanfeng.
Chu Shu has always been deeply impressed by this name. Whether it was the first time they met or when she rescued her that day, she was always impressed by this person.
The number of times they saw each other in the palace seemed to be slowly increasing in the past few days. The two of them would chat a few words when they had free time, and they would all express their gratitude for the life-saving grace.
I don’t know if it’s her misunderstanding or just being sentimental, but I always feel that the other person’s attitude is no longer as cold as it was at the beginning…
"Shu'er, to tell you the truth, I feel that something is not right in the house recently."
Gu Ruowan frowned and thought about it carefully. It seemed that she and her brother went to the temple to pray to God and worship Buddha that day. Something was wrong after we came back.
In the past, my brother and Chu Yan were very much in love and would often stay together whenever they had free time. But these days, my brother is clearly free and just shuts himself up in the study.
Several times, Chu Yan wanted to send something over, but the door was always closed and not opened.
This is really amazing. How could the former brother be willing to treat Chu Yan like this? Could it be that the two of them had a conflict?
After the matter was told as it was, Chu Shu felt that it was nothing. Maybe the two of them had been together for a long time, and they would have their own way of getting along. Maybe the relationship had faded?
He also felt that Gu Xiao was not such a person. When he was about to fall, he still vividly remembered the way he held Chu Yan in his arms. That gentle look was not fake at all.
"You'd better not get involved in their affairs and let them solve it on their own!"
Chu Shu shook her head and didn't want to discuss these anymore. They were all things in the past.
In fact, it is indeed quite strange to say that on that day, all the expectations in my heart have been disappointed. Maybe I will not look back until I am in a desperate situation.
They all realized that their lives were in danger, and in the eyes of others, it was no match for the smile of the person in their arms, so they really gave up at that moment.
If you say you give up, you may give up on that day, and then you won’t think about these things again. Even if you mention them again now, you won’t feel anything in your heart.
"I've always been like this. If I can't offend her, why can't I hide from her? Ever since she came, I've been giving in and hiding!"
Thinking of the countless little things Chu Yan had done in the past few days, Gu Ruowan felt very resentful. He didn't want to make the matter a big deal or ruin the family's happiness, so he didn't take it seriously and only thought about his family and their family. Just be harmonious.
"When my sister left, she said there was something she could do. What do you think?"
Chu Shu asked casually, without Chu Xin by her side, she always felt that something was missing. For so many years, the three of them would always sit in the Youran Pavilion and talk about everything. Suddenly one of them was missing, and she really felt a little sour in her heart.
Not to mention that Chu Xin can only be a side concubine. To be a side concubine means that she will be suppressed by the main concubine. This is really unfair. It was Chu Xin who proposed to marry from the beginning, and the position of the main concubine was obviously given to her. .
"It seems to be quite quiet these days. Maybe my brother is busy with his own affairs, so Chu Yan's thoughts are all on him and he doesn't have time to embarrass me. Let's take it one step at a time."
After all, Gu Ruowan was still soft-hearted, thinking that it would be good for the family to be in harmony. If the other party was willing to stop, he would not mind reconciling with her on the surface. At least the sister-in-law had already said this.
"That's all."
Chu Shu supported her chin with her hand and responded wordlessly. In fact, the two of them were no longer in the usual joking mood. Looking at the empty seat, they were really not used to it. It was really hard to get used to it.
"Do you think you will feel aggrieved as a side concubine? There was obviously a chance to be the main concubine at the beginning, but Chu Yi deliberately stepped in!"
Chu Shu looked at the stone chair next to her in despair, as if Chu Xin was still sitting here.
"If the concubine is Chu Yi, she will definitely be wronged, and I don't have that much confidence in Xiao Zhi. In fact, I have always been uneasy in my heart, so I only gave her a peace charm. I just hope that no matter what she goes through, What, just feel safe and sound!"
Gu Ruowan always feels worried when she talks about this. The mountains in Beiqi are high and the roads are far away. What happened cannot be reported in time. In fact, even if it is reported, there is nothing that can be done. If Your Majesty does not make decisions for his sister, how can he make decisions for Chu Xin? ?
"Shu'er, actually I have always had an uneasy feeling. This feeling is really bad."
Gu Ruowan held her forehead with her hands, hoping that God would bless Chu Xin and make her whole body safe.
"It would have been better if we had tried to persuade him, but it seems that our efforts were of no use. She seems to have made up her mind to get married, even if there is another Chu Yi in the process."
When she talked about this, Chu Shu was also confused. Originally, this thing happened very quickly.
First, his father suddenly died of a serious illness, then his brother ascended the throne, then Mei Zhu was executed for no apparent reason, and then the marriage proposal caused such a big disturbance, and no one could prepare for it.
The night before she was about to leave, she put the gold bracelet that she had carried for many years on Chu Xin's hand. The bracelet was already stained with her breath, so just think that she was by her side all the time!
The Queen Mother and Your Majesty will naturally prepare any good things, whether it is gold, silver, jade or silk and satin, but there are only so many sincere things.
"Have you heard about the disputes between Chu Yi and Xiao Zhi these years in the palace? Is there also love between the two of them?"
This is what Gu Ruowan finds most strange. Chu Xin said that she and Xiao Zhi have known each other for so many years, but it is inexplicable why Chu Yi is entangled?
Could it be out of anger? It's not impossible. She really married to Beiqi and spent her whole life out of anger. Could it be that she and Xiao Zhi also had feelings for each other?
"I don't think I've heard of this," Chu Shu thought carefully and shook her head.
"I only know that my sister has indeed gone to Nanyuan or Leng Palace to meet Xiao Zhi secretly for so many years. It has always been like this for so many years. That's why the two of them have such a deep relationship, but Chu Yi doesn't know why. Or maybe the people around her are strict and don't dare to reveal any rumors?"
The more Chu Shu thought about it, the more uneasy she felt. There was something wrong with all of this. Could Xiao Zhi really be reliable?
