"If someone makes you sad, never forgive him a second time. You must remember the feeling of sadness. If you forgive, it means giving him the opportunity to continue hurting you next time. do you know?"
Chu Xin persuaded her earnestly. She didn't want to see Chu Shu always immersed in those painful emotions. Since Yu Gu already had someone else, she shouldn't bother with her.
If a man already has another woman in his heart, he is destined to belong to that woman.
Chu Shu nodded and would listen to all these words, because she had indeed done so.
As the days passed, many storms gradually emerged.
"Didn't sister say that she would tell the imperial concubine about me? It's been so long, why hasn't there been any sound?"
Chu Yan asked cautiously. After going back that day, she was extremely happy. She could marry her beloved man right away. How pleasant it was to leave this suffocating palace!
What's more important is that as long as he stays far away from Chu Yi, since he won't live in the palace anymore, the two of them won't have many chances to see each other, so that's good.
But almost two months had passed and there was still no news, so I had the courage to come over and ask.
This matter is indeed very important to her. She doesn't want to miss the man she has liked for so long. What's more, she really can't stand the suffocating atmosphere in the harem and wants to escape as soon as possible and stay away from Chu Yi as soon as possible. .
"My mother and concubine are in a bad mood these days, and my father's health is also not good. Under such circumstances, you are still thinking about men's affairs. Do you still have any conscience?"
Chu Yi angrily threw the cup over. Chu Yan didn't dare to hide, so she let the cup hit her head.
"It's just a man, and you've been thinking about it for so long? My father, the queen, mother, and concubines are all sick. Have you ever asked me about it? Your heart and eyes are only thinking about men. Look at what you look like!"
Chu Yi stared at Chu Yan and asked, "When she was in a troubled mood, Chu Yan came over to make her unhappy. Isn't this what she deserves?"
"I said something wrong. Sister, please don't be angry. I'm just too worried about these things. I was wrong."
Chu Yan reached out and rubbed her forehead. The beating was really painful, but she could only admit her mistake aggrievedly.
Her father had ignored her for so many years. The imperial concubine treated them harshly, so why did she care about the two of them?
She was only worried about her future life and didn't want to be bullied by Chu Yi all the time.
"You have been well-behaved and obedient for so many years. I will discuss your matter with my mother and concubine. You are just marrying a man, why should you take it so seriously?
He only has you in his eyes at the moment. If you two get along for a long time in the future, can you be sure that he still only has you in his heart? You are so ridiculous! "
Chu Yi raised the corners of her lips and said disdainfully, feeling bored when she saw Chu Yan looking so stupid. Is it stupid to take a man so seriously?
My father used to love his mother and concubine so much, but now, I never see him cry!
Chu Yan lowered her head and did not dare to speak anymore. At this moment, it was most important for her to shut up. If she said one more word, Chu Yi would definitely be even more angry.
I believe that Gu Xiao is not that kind of person. Of course she has this confidence. As long as she leaves this palace, her life will definitely get better and better!
"Forget it! Get out of here! Don't be an eyesore in front of me!"
Seeing that Chu Yan was speechless and unable to say anything, Chu Yi also felt that she was not interested and waved her hand to let people leave.
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Chu Yu suddenly felt that he was not feeling well. Ever since he fainted for no apparent reason half a month ago, he had often felt weak and weak.
The imperial doctor said that he needed more rest due to being too busy, but he always had a bad feeling, a kind of weakness emanating from within.
"Father, you still need to rest more, and let your sons and ministers take care of other things."
Chu Yan handed the approved memorial to Chu Yu for him to review. Over the years, he had studied hard and practiced hard, and many of the things he had done were satisfactory to Chu Yu.
Only he himself knows what all this is for. He knows that his mother and concubine have been wronged in the harem, and he also knows that his sister is often reprimanded for being a concubine.
One day, he must kill that bitch!
"Yeah, well done."
Chu Yu nodded with satisfaction. Now this son is his favorite. His abilities are more outstanding than other sons. He is relieved.
"My father is not in good health these days. No matter what you want to do, you can safely leave it to me."
Chu Yan looked very humble. Over the years, he had learned to be forbearing. When he was a child, he could restrain himself from bowing respectfully to concubines.
At that time, he felt that the more beautiful a woman is, the more dangerous she is. Such a charming look is really disgusting. His father was confused by such a beautiful face!
He must learn from this and never be deceived by such a beautiful woman.
"Now you are my favorite and most trusted prince. You are more capable than your elder brother and younger brother. I love you very much."
Chu Yan's humble look made Chu Yu more and more satisfied. It was a good thing to have outstanding abilities, but don't be too proud and love pride. It would only make him think that the other party had some thoughts.
Chu Yan did a good job, with outstanding abilities and a humble temperament. He liked him very much and felt reassured.
He originally thought that since he was the child of a noble concubine, he would have any opinions on Mei Zhu, but he didn't expect that they had always been respectfully in love with each other for so many years, which made him feel relieved.
Chu Yi has grown up over the years, and her temperament has gradually changed, no longer as unruly and rude as when she was a child. She also feels very satisfied.
Xie Ruling suddenly had nightmares these days. She felt uneasy and had a bad premonition.
"What's wrong with mother these days? Why does she look so bad?"
Chu Xin took the medicine and fed it one bite at a time, with a worried look on her face. It seemed that the atmosphere in the Sun Palace was not good during this period, and her father was ill.
But she didn't feel anything. Although she called her father, this person was still very strange to her, so even if she was sick, she really couldn't feel anything.
"I'm worried about your marriage. Your Majesty and your concubine will naturally not make decisions for you carefully, but what can I do for you? I'm worried about how you will live the rest of your life?"
Xie Ruling took a sip of the medicine and waved her hands, not wanting to drink any more. She felt really depressed.
Chu Xin put down the bowl and didn't know what to say. In fact, she was a little sad in her heart.
The person she loves is naturally Xiao Zhi, but he will eventually return to Beiqi, so should he agree to this promise or follow him?
"Tell me, what is your relationship with that Northern Qi proton after all these years?"
Xie Ruling wanted to ask clearly today, but she didn't want to continue to be confused. If it was just an ordinary good friend relationship, why would she sneak to Nanyuan at night whenever she was sad or happy for so many years?
After so many years, if Ruo is just an ordinary friend, she is really a bit stale.
"Of course I like him. I keep the obsidian he gave me on my dressing table. After getting along with him for so many years, I am used to his presence. If he returns to Beiqi, I will definitely miss him."
Chu Xin didn't hide any of this, she spoke out her inner thoughts generously, not feeling that there was anything to be ashamed of.
If you like it, you just like it, just say it generously.
"He is going back to Beiqi. What will you do when he leaves?"
Xie Ruling felt anxious and asked quickly. What she was worried about was not that the two children liked each other, but what they would do after they left.
She didn't have much objection to Xiao Zhi, but she wasn't the same person after all.
"I haven't thought about it yet."
Chu Xin lowered her head and was speechless. She really didn't think of this. She didn't know which one she wanted to choose.
Do you want to forget the existence of Xiao Zhi from now on? But this is impossible. How can you forget after so many years of getting along with him?
Could it be that she had to leave the place where she grew up and go to a strange Northern Qi? This didn't seem possible.
"You have to think about this matter yourself. I can't help you. You have grown up and you have to make the decision in your life."
Xie Ruling sighed and did not want to say anything else, because it would be of little use.
Chu Xin is not the child who needs to be taken care of in the cold palace. After all, she has grown up and will have her own ideas.
Chu Xin was still silent. This was nothing less than a big gamble. She really went to that distant Northern Qi, and it was really just her.
She doesn't have much sense of belonging to Da Chu, and the only ones she can't worry about are her mother and sister. She finds it difficult to let go of these. No matter which choice she makes, there always seems to be something she regrets.
"Xiao Zhi told me that he has been a hostage here for so many years. His Majesty the Northern Qi Dynasty will make up for him when he returns. He will definitely agree to a condition. He said that he wants to marry me."
Chu Xin said these words slowly, with a little shyness in her tone.
In fact, her first reaction when she heard this sentence that night was that she was a little happy, feeling that a flower suddenly bloomed in her heart.
"What do you think"
The sheets in Xie Ruling's hands immediately tightened. Although she had raised Chu Xin to such an old age, she said she was indeed ready to get married, but she had not prepared that the two of them would be so far apart.
After going to Beiqi, the mother and daughter didn't know if they would be able to see each other again.
"I can't let go of my mother and sister Shu, and I can't let him go either."
Chu Xin's tone was a little choked. No matter which side she was struggling with, she was reluctant to let go. This was a difficult choice.
"I'm afraid it's a little early for you to think about this now. Even if he can really do what he said and ask to marry you, will your father agree? Will everything go so smoothly?"
Xie Ruling felt that she was going to have nightmares for a few more days. This matter was always a major issue that was difficult to solve. If it was not solved, she would not feel at ease for a day.
Chu Xin is indeed unhappy in her life here. Leaving is indeed a good idea, but will her life be happy after leaving? I'm afraid that's not necessarily the case.
After much deliberation, there is no good solution.
"I don't know, I haven't thought about this yet, but if I never see him again, I will be really sad."
Chu Xin felt sourness in her heart again and again. She had become accustomed to Xiao Zhi's existence over the years. Many times when she was very happy or sad, she thought about going to him right away.
But one day she suddenly told herself that that person was no longer there, and she could no longer express all her thoughts, and her whole heart would feel empty. She didn't like this feeling.
But what mother said is not unreasonable. After going to Beiqi, can the two of them live well? That place is completely unfamiliar.
Then the only one she can rely on is Xiao Zhi. Worse, if Xiao Zhi changes in the future, what will she do?
But he didn't want to think of Xiao Zhi in this way. After so many years, he felt that he already knew him very well and would never do such a thing.
Now she really felt that no matter what she chose, she would regret it and feel sad. She really felt so entangled and painful. What should she do with all this?
