late at night.
"What's wrong, but what happened? It's rare to see you looking so worried?"
Xiao Zhi asked worriedly. The Chu Xin he saw tonight seemed to be particularly sad. Through the moonlight, he could vaguely see that his eyes were swollen from crying.
What on earth is going on that makes you cry so hard?
Chu Xin sniffed and choked with sobs as she recounted what had just happened word by word. The jade pendant that had not been broken had already been taken away and thrown away.
But it seemed that it was not just the jade pendant that was broken, but also her trusting heart.
She trusted Chu Yan so much. It wasn't that she didn't have a sense of precaution. She just knew that Chu Yan had a soft temper and was afraid that he would think too much if she didn't accept the jade pendant.
But I didn't expect that all this would be so ridiculous.
"Chu Yi has a noble status, and it is the right thing to choose to please her. In fact, it is not a big deal to recognize this reality. Fortunately, nothing major happened this time, and you also recognized it, which is a good thing. Isn’t it?”
Mentioning the arrogant and indulgent princess, a flash of disgust flashed in Xiao Zhi's eyes. He really hated those people who thought they were noble, always looking down on everyone from above!
He had really had enough of that feeling of gritting his teeth and having to endure it!
"I understand all the truths. My mother also told me a lot just now. I know what you said is right, but if people can really listen to so many truths, they will never do the wrong thing again. This It’s because people’s emotions are difficult to control, and I still feel disappointed in my heart at this moment.”
Chu Xin sat on the ground and buried her head in her hands. It wasn't that she didn't understand these principles, but she still couldn't get over the hurdle in her heart.
The Chu Yan she usually saw was always soft and weak, and would always make her cry when she was bullied by Chu Yi. She looked at this sister as if she was pitiful, so she always wanted to take more care of her.
But she didn't expect that no matter how good she was and how well she took care of her, she would never be able to compare to Chu Yi. Even though Chu Yi looked down on Chu Yan in every possible way, Chu Yan was still willing to do things for her.
My heart was full of frustration, as if nothing could compare to this, as if I was destined to be unloved because of my origin.
Just like after leaving the cold palace, everyone tacitly believed that Xie Ruling was their biological mother. No one dared to mention her biological mother again, thinking that her biological mother was an ominous person.
I have never met my father a few times, he is just a very transparent existence in the harem.
"People's hearts are very soft. It doesn't just make them indifferent after listening to a few words of truth. Ordinary little things can hurt this heart. I understand you!"
Xiao Zhi reached out and patted Chu Xin's shoulder distressedly. He had experienced this feeling before. It was really sad to be in a humble position and never seem to be loved.
That's why he hates those noble people more and more, thinking that one day he will climb to the top.
"I remember that Princess Shu you told me about before was pretty good, wasn't she? Maybe she would be a very good sister?"
Xiao Zhi had no choice but to find some topics to talk about. At this time, the more he talked about it, the more boring he became.
"Sister Shu is naturally wonderful, and I have confidence in her. I believe she will never hurt me!"
Chu Xin raised her head and her eyes were firm, without the disappointment and loneliness just now.
Others really couldn't believe it anymore, but Chu Shu was the only one who felt somewhat confident.
People cannot pretend to act subconsciously. When Chu Shu was pushed into Lianchi, she was able to let go of her hand in time without dragging herself down, which means that Chu Shu is a very good person.
"So this is already good. Sincerity is rare in the harem. It is lucky to have a good sister. So, you should focus all your attention on people who are trustworthy. Don't think about what has happened. Yes, but you must keep this matter firmly in mind in the future, and don’t let her cry in front of you, and you will be soft-hearted and forgive her again!"
Xiao Zhi warned her carefully. Chu Xin's heart seemed hard, but it was still very soft.
Otherwise, how could you trust yourself so much?
In fact, isn't he also a bastard?
"I know, I'm just sad for a while now. After I'm done, I will never think about it again. She doesn't deserve this."
Chu Xin wiped away her tears with a firm face.
She is like this many times. She will not hold back the sad feeling and will cry happily. But after crying, everything will pass and she will never look back.
Anyone who makes her sad will never get a second chance.
Chu Yan still wants to be around Chu Yi even if she suffers all kinds of grievances, so let her go, everyone has their own destiny.
Xiao Zhi suddenly couldn't speak anymore. He stared silently at the moonlight falling to the ground.
What if one day he becomes the unworthy person Chu Xin said?
…
"You must have heard about the imperial concubine, right? Can you feel relieved?"
Xie Ruling dared to say such a thing when there was no one around at the moment. She hadn't come to see Xie Churou for many days, so she specially came to see her today.
"Forcing people to look like this always makes me a little angry, but in the end I can't even laugh. I just feel a little pitiful!"
Xie Churou's clothes have become much simpler since she was demoted to a nobleman. Perhaps she has long lost the mood to dress up.
"Indeed, people say that Ting Bin is crazy, but a madman knows how to avenge himself and wants to strangle the person who once wanted him."
Xie Ruling poured herself a cup of tea and drank it slowly.
Even if no one dared to spread the word, she could still think of the scene that day, which drove the concubine crazy and wanted to borrow help from others, wouldn't it just end in a life-and-death situation?
"Even if no one dares to say anything about this at this moment, I can guess that the concubine's injury is probably quite serious, which is why His Majesty is so angry."
Xie Churou sneered disdainfully, when Zheng Yinghuan tried to do everything right, did he ever think about what people would do when they were forced to die?
"You said that Ting Bin is crazy, are you really crazy?"
Xie Ruling closed her eyes and sighed.
In fact, she didn't have a very deep impression of Ting Bin. What impressed her the most was how proud Ting Bin was when she was pregnant, and she even dared to refute Zheng Yinghuan's words.
I'm afraid Zheng Yinghuan had a grudge against the concubine at that time, so he tortured her like this to relieve her hatred.
"I see this is probably a lie. How could the people in this harem be really crazy?" Xie Churou shook her head with a smile.
"After the concubine gave birth to the child, she also lost His Majesty's love. This life will certainly be difficult. What's more, when she had the child, she had already offended Zheng Yinghuan. If she didn't pretend to be crazy and betrayed her, I'm afraid that She was really going to be tortured to death. But she always underestimated Zheng Yinghuan's cruelty, and she didn't expect that she would not be able to save her life after all!"
In fact, Xie Churou still felt a little chilled when she thought about what happened that night. When the people around Zheng Yinghuan presented evidence that day, His Majesty didn't even check whether the evidence was true or false, so he decided his guilt.
She knew that His Majesty didn't like to deal with matters in the harem, but to convict herself so casually really hurt her heart!
"I think so," Xie Ruling nodded, "It's just that everyone is gone, so we don't have to talk about it anymore. His Majesty's birthday is next month, and both Southern Liang and Northern Qi will send their ministers to congratulate them. During this period, I have to teach Xin'er well within the day so that she doesn't make a fool of herself."
Thinking about what will happen next, Xie Ruling still attaches great importance to it. This is the first time that Xin'er appears in front of everyone. This is indeed very important.
"That's true. After all, the eldest princess must come out to meet people!" Xie Churou said with a smile, then thought of something and frowned.
"It's just that in the end it's better not to overstep Chu Yicai. Just be dignified and decent, and don't compete with others in the limelight."
"I know, how could I do such a stupid thing?"
Xie Ruling shook her head helplessly. In fact, in terms of age, Xin'er was His Majesty's first daughter. However, His Majesty's favorite princess was Chu Yi, so all the limelight could only be given to Chu Yi.
He returned to Zhongcui Palace with a helpless heart. After experiencing the jade pendant incident last time, Chu's heart became much calmer.
Recently, I have been practicing calligraphy in the house. When I have free time, I go to Funing Palace to learn the rules. I also go back to see Chu Shu every three or two days.
In fact, Xie Ruling was not optimistic about the sisterhood between the two at first. She always felt that the two children happened to be able to talk together, and maybe they would break up soon.
I didn't expect that the friendship between the two children could last for so long, let alone that they would become friends in life and death after experiencing the lotus pond.
And the noble man seemed to look away, turning a blind eye, maybe because he thought that as long as his daughter was happy, she couldn't care so much.
"You have indeed made great progress in your calligraphy practice. When I was in the cold palace, I would teach you to write and draw with wooden branches on the ground. You have also learned a little bit, so you will not be at a loss."
Xie Ruling picked up the calligraphy that Chu Xin had just practiced, looked at it carefully and nodded with satisfaction. After all, she had just had the opportunity to learn this. It is really good to be able to write like this. It can be seen that she has worked hard. of.
"It's good if mother thinks she can still read it," Chu Xin said modestly. In fact, she knew that her handwriting was only good enough to be read and would not be that good.
Because she had seen Chu Yi's handwriting before, it was really good. Because Chu Yi had the best aunt to teach her from childhood to adulthood, no matter what she did, she would never be bad.
And I can only just start now. Whether it is learning any rules or playing music, chess, calligraphy and painting, I can only learn and practice hard day and night before I can reach a point where I am not so bad.
The starting point was unequal from the beginning, so how could she be qualified to surpass Chu Yi?
I don’t know when it started, but Chu Yi seemed to have become an insurmountable hurdle in her heart, like a majestic mountain, always in her heart.
It was as if no matter who or what happened, being around Chu Yi would always make her feel a little stinging in her heart.
"Actually, as long as you study hard and practice these things, you will definitely make progress. I remember that when I first learned it, my handwriting was not as good as yours. It's not a big deal. You don't have to be so frowning all the time."
Xie Ruling realized Chu Xin's annoyance. In fact, she had felt it a few days ago.
As this little girl grows older, she will have her own little thoughts. It's not like she has never been young, so she can understand it.
"I can't understand what mother is saying!"
Chu Xin bit her lip unnaturally, her eyes evasive, and when she talked about what she cared about in her heart, she felt a little embarrassed.
She did want to compare with Chu Yi intentionally or unintentionally, but it was a bit ridiculous. What qualifications could she have to compare with the other party? But there was always some subtle feeling in her heart that she couldn't control.
