...There are no eunuchs, and it doesn’t mean there are no eunuchs.
Yesterday I was fishing at work during the day and wrote more than a thousand words on my mobile phone. When I got home from get off work, I wrote and deleted it again.
Then I went out for a meal. It was past nine o'clock when I came back, but as soon as I turned on the computer and looked at the coding interface, my mind went blank.
The next plot is about the world of swords, fighting together, and some group portrait scenes.
But I just don’t know how to write wonderfully. At least I have to write something that satisfies me. But the result is that the more I write, the more irritable I become. I force myself to write a few hundred words. When I look back, I see that what I wrote is rubbish. I don’t even know what I wrote. .
Then I wrote and deleted it.
I don’t know why, but it’s been like this lately. The more anxious I get, the less I can write.
Then I thought about adjusting my mentality. When I have no ideas, I read books or watch movies to find inspiration.
But when I think about the fact that it hasn’t been updated today, I keep remembering it in my mind, and then I start to feel anxious again. It just keeps repeating like this, a vicious cycle...
In the end, it successfully cycled to 12 o'clock. It's a new day. The update was interrupted today, so I just ignored it. I adjusted the status first and then made up for the update.
Then I kept reading, watching the works on the ranking list, watching the works of great masters, and even took the time to watch a movie in the middle, and my mood began to calm down slowly.
Then, after thinking about it carefully, I also found out some reasons.
One is a matter of time.
Part-time coding, sometimes it’s really too late, plus I haven’t been able to stay and save manuscripts. Sometimes something unexpected happens, such as working overtime or something, and I don’t have time to update on time, which will cause anxiety.
I worry about being scolded for unstable updates, and worry about affecting my grades. In addition, I work during the day and code in the afternoon and evening. I am indeed mentally exhausted, which will affect the efficiency of coding.
The second issue is the plot.
Nearly 1.7 million words have passed, and the plot of Shenzhou has entered its final stage, which is indeed a bit difficult to write.
In the past month or so, not only the updates, but also the plot have been somewhat unsatisfactory. I have noticed this myself and have been trying to make up for it, but it still fails to meet expectations, so I can only write according to my own ideas. .
But thinking about it tonight, I figured it out.
After all, I have no experience in writing long novels, so there will always be various problems. In the past few months, I wrote very smoothly and happily, with few glitches, and my grades have been steadily rising.
I am satisfied that this book can achieve this.
Next, I no longer worry about grades or anything else, I just want to finish writing the story I set, which will at least allow me to accumulate some experience.
I really like writing this kind of long-form plot. Even when I read it, I also like to read long-form stories with millions of words. I watch the protagonist go through various adventures and difficulties from the beginning, and finally grow up slowly.
This is the same process as when I write a book.
I am now, probably at the time when the protagonist has just entered the Novice Village.
Before, I had too high demands on myself. If I couldn't meet my expectations, I would get anxious easily.
Next, I will lower my requirements and finish writing my long story without considering other things. No matter how many people are left to read it in the end, no matter what the result is, I will finish the book according to my initial setting. .
I say this not to gain sympathy, nor to find reasons not to update, but to explain the situation to everyone, and it is also my own summary.
I have a weekend off today. I originally planned to write today's writing in advance last night and then take the day off. Unknowingly, I sat down until four o'clock.
Now the whole person is in a state of relaxation, without thinking about anything, and the anxiety has disappeared.
But I'm afraid I won't be able to endure it any longer at this point, so I'd better go to bed first and recharge myself so that I won't feel sleepy during the day.
I’ll make up for yesterday’s update today.
This book has nearly 1.7 million words since it was published on February 15th. It has never been updated without reason. I have never asked for leave more than three times a month, and I have made up for all the leaves I have taken.
Only there was no update last night, and indeed it was not written out.
Just consider yesterday a day off.
I took one day off before this month, and including yesterday, it was two days in total.
If I am in good condition during the day today, I will write one more chapter as compensation.
Hmm... The main thing is to make me feel better, otherwise I will feel ashamed and guilty if I keep remembering it...
That’s it for now. If you wake up early today, I’ll update a chapter at 12 o’clock. If you wake up late, I’ll update it together at 6 pm.
I'm not going anywhere today, just writing at home.
