Hu Tianhu Di was confused for a long time, and the two of them were lying in the hot spring. Yu Yao lay lazily on his chest, the blush on her face not fading.
"Will we have children if we do this?" she asked.
"No." Wei Shiqi remembered Yue Shuo's statement in "Linchuan Miscellaneous Notes" that he "may be called a mule" and had a premonition in his heart. Interspecific hybrids are sterile, he thought coldly, like mules.
After a while, Yu Yao asked again: "...Do you like children?"
"Not like."
I don't like it very much. He said it euphemistically. Maybe his original intention was "I don't like it." This reply shocked her and broke the warm and charming atmosphere. Yu Yao thought that she didn't make it clear and asked in a daze: "My own child" Is this the case too?”
Wei Shiqi's eyes became distant, as if he had seen the past a long time ago. He hugged Yu Yao's youthful body and expressed his thoughts for the first time, those deviant and unhuman thoughts. "They say that when they first see their children, fragile little babies, they feel a kind of joy that connects their blood. Watching them grow up little by little, crawl on the ground, stagger around, and throw themselves in your arms, lol. When we talk and make noise, all the hard work and worries will disappear. For them, I am willing to pay no matter how much it costs, but I just feel noisy."
"Children, even if they are your own biological children, are smart, beautiful, well-behaved and cute. If they are naughty and willful children - in fact, most cases are like this - raising them is a kind of torture. There is motherhood in this world, But there’s no fatherhood.”
Yu Yao fell silent. She tried to understand his words and his thoughts, but every word was like a needle piercing her heart.
"I said, you don't let me down, I don't let you down. I also said, fair trade, willing to accept defeat, but if the target is your own child, these become meaningless. You can't not give, and there is no reward for giving. That’s why I don’t like kids.”
Yu Yao asked cautiously: "What do you want in return?"
Wei Shiqi laughed, "That's the problem. For parents, they are rewards in themselves, but for me, children can't give me what I want."
"what do you want?"
This sentence went straight to his heart. Wei Shiqi paused and felt confused for a moment.
In another world, when he was forty years old, he abandoned all the past, cut off all karma, packed up his luggage, boarded the high-speed train going south, and came to a warm and unfamiliar city, living alone and growing old alone. What does he want?
In this world, he ranks among a handful of monks at the top of the pyramid. He can fly to the sky and escape from the earth, drown people in seas and rivers, kill people like chickens, and have money and beautiful women in the palm of his hand. Although his future is unpredictable, it is still satisfying, he thought. What do you want?
Yu Yao's chin touched his chest, staring at him intently. She was very close, close enough to see clearly the trembling of his eyelashes, the slightest change in his expression, his heart...
Wei Shiqi told her calmly, "Being clean and free of worries is the way to be at ease."
He is spotless and has no worries. Parents, children, lovers, relatives and friends, teachers, disciples, people he knows or doesn’t know, familiar people or strangers, people he cares about or doesn’t care about, no one can be an obstacle to him. Dealing with things is like the breeze blowing across the plains, birds flying across the sky, and water flowing over the white rocks, leaving no trace.
"It's too cruel..."
"Look at the big fireball in the sky, shining brightly and illuminating the mountains, forests, plains, rivers and lakes. All things benefit from it. How can there be any reward? All things are destroyed. Can there be any resentment at all? The world is unkind and regards all things as cud. Dogs, we are among them, as small as dust, with different human hearts, and I am the 'unkind' one among them."
Yu Yao blinked, thought again and again, shook her head and said, "I... don't quite understand."
"It's okay. If you want to hear it, I'll tell you later slowly."
Yu Yao was stunned for a moment, and a smile appeared at the corner of her mouth. She always felt that their bodies were intimate, but their hearts were still distant. Whenever she tried to enter his world, she was always pushed away intentionally or unintentionally, but this time, he He seemed to accept her and said some unflattering words from his heart.
It's fine if it's from the heart, but what does it matter whether it sounds good or not? She likes this man, is willing to stay by his side, and give everything she has to him, no matter good or bad, whether he likes her equally or not, it doesn't matter.
She felt that he had become a stranger, and that didn't matter, so just get closer and become familiar with him again.
He often leaves him and leaves her alone in the empty room. It doesn't matter, just wait patiently.
He is special, different, and unique. As long as you don't let him down, he won't let you down either. The more you give, the more bonds you will have, until they are tightly entwined together and can no longer be separated. Maybe she would never be his "hinder", but it would be nice if she could occupy a place in his heart. As long as she is strong enough and strong enough to walk beside him, then no one can separate them.
Destiny is in her own hands, it all depends on her.
