"..."
Feng Nuan was left speechless and slumped on the sofa in a flash, and could only cry silently with regret.
"I don't blame you, nor will I avoid you. If you give me life, I will take care of you until you die.
But apart from these, I can't give you anything else. I can never be as close to you as I was when I was a child. "
Lu Zheng took a tissue and handed it to her. It was supposed to be a heart-wrenching and tear-inducing scene, but there was no emotion in his heart.
If he had not been loved since he was a child, perhaps he would not be so depressed because of not being loved.
But precisely because he has experienced love, he feels fearful and helpless when he is not loved, and cannot even accept the reality.
There was a knock on the door in the master bedroom. Yuanyuan woke up and stood on tiptoe to reach for the door handle.
The door opened from the outside, and Lu Zheng opened his hand to catch the child who rushed towards him, and smashed it into his arms like a little meat ball, which was quite impactful.
"Dad, I went to the supermarket with my grandma today..."
Yuanyuan hugged his neck and started talking about what she had done today like she was pouring beans.
Lu Zheng listened quietly, put her on the sofa, turned on the TV and played cartoons for her.
"Grandma, what's wrong with you? Why are your eyes so red?"
Yuanyuan saw Feng Nuan's red eyes at a glance, ran over and took her hand, looking at her with worry.
"Grandma is fine, it's just sand in her eyes."
Feng Nuan pinched her little face, feeling a little better than before.
She also understands that there is no way to make up for the missing love, but she still doesn't want to give up easily, at least for now she can be of some help.
Lu Chao also had no idea about Lu Zheng's bipolar disorder.
At that time, the doctor told him that the child might have depression and needed the company and guidance of his family.
He once mentioned taking Lu Zheng for a checkup, but was rejected. Every time he mentioned this, he would get choked up, and over time he never said it again.
Recalling the scenes of Lu Zheng quarreling with him for no apparent reason every time, he always thought it was because the child had stiff wings and was disobedient to discipline, but when he thought about it more, maybe it was because of illness.
Lu Chao looked at the medical certificate sent by his ex-wife and sat alone in the study for a long time.
I was caught in a tangle while holding my phone. It seemed difficult to save my dignity and say sorry to my child.
Rather than saying that I am embarrassed, it is actually that I am unwilling to admit that I have caused great harm to my children and that I am unwilling to face the mistakes I have made.
Lu Zheng was sitting in the study typing, imagining the plot in his mind. The book received a good response.
The editor said that he should keep his level up and continue writing to hope for publication.
He had never thought about eating this bowl of rice, but a random attempt unexpectedly discovered his talent in this area.
He had seriously considered what Li Yan said that day. He couldn't continue doing nothing like this. He had to at least have some plans for the future.
Yuanyuan sat in his arms, her head moving little by little, looking at the dense words on the computer, her upper and lower eyelids couldn't stop fighting.
At first, he was not used to his children always clinging to him, but now he feels that it is good to cling to him like this, which makes him feel at ease.
And with his connivance, Yuanyuan became more and more aggressive.
Sometimes when he wasn't paying attention, he would press the keyboard randomly and add a bunch of messy English letters to his manuscript.
Buzz——
The mobile phone beside him vibrated twice, interrupting Lu Zheng's thoughts.
Lu Chao sent him a long message, which probably meant that he always lost his temper with him in the past and felt guilty.
There are too many misunderstandings between father and son. I hope I can sit down and have a drink when I have time.
"..."
Lu Zheng threw his phone aside after reading the message. He really had no interest in drinking in front of his face.
Seeing his parents suddenly realize their debt to him, he actually felt a despicable pleasure in his heart.
It seems that the boy who was trapped in the shackles of family many years ago won, raised his head and proved that he was right, that they were sorry for themselves.
In the past few days when Feng Nuan was here, the little guy was dressed up beautifully, with a cute hairstyle, and he looked fragrant.
Lu Zheng also learned a lot about parenting. Putting aside everything else, she really helped him a lot.
In the evening, Feng Nuan received a call from Lin Yao. She coquettishly said that she missed her mother and asked her to go back quickly.
She smiled happily and sweetly on the phone. After hanging up the phone, she looked at Lu Zheng and felt a little melancholy. She sat on the sofa and watched him hesitate for a while but still didn't speak.
"Do I want you to go back?"
Lu Zheng probably guessed the content of the conversation and was the first to speak it out for her.
"Well, Yaoyao said she misses me. When are you free to take Yuanyuan to live with me for two days? Yaoyao has grown up now and will not be like before."
Feng Nuan could feel that his attitude toward her had improved a lot in the past two days, but some things didn't mean they were over, they were just tacit avoidance.
"I'll take you to the airport tomorrow. Thank you for taking care of me these days."
Lu Zheng squatted down with a towel to wipe the child's feet. The light shone on the side of his face, making it difficult to see the emotions in his eyes.
"I'll come back in a while to help you take care of the children..."
"No need, you are getting older. Live your life well. I will figure out the child's matters myself."
"..."
This is how the conversation between mother and son ended.
Lu Zheng drove her to the airport early the next morning, and stood outside with the child in his arms to watch her go in.
"Goodbye grandma!"
Yuanyuan waved her little hand, still reluctant to part with her.
"goodbye!"
Feng Nuan smiled at her gently, turned around and burst into tears unexpectedly.
It's too late now.
Yuanyuan's household registration has been completed, and Lu Zheng plans to let her go to kindergarten in the second half of the year. At that time, he will have time to pick her up and drop her off.
Grandma left, and the little guy was lying on the back seat, feeling unhappy, with his legs crossed and his mouth drooping.
"How about I send you to Lin's house to play for two days? It's not too late to go now."
Lu Zheng observed the child's every move in the rearview mirror and noticed that she was in a very low mood.
"I'm not going. I want to be with my father, but I'm a little reluctant to leave my grandma."
Yuanyuan cherishes people who are good to her and feels uncomfortable when she thinks of being separated.
"I'll take you to see her when I have time..."
Lu Zheng couldn't help but feel happy when he saw that his child had firmly chosen him between the two.
"good!"
Yuanyuan felt a little happier now. She climbed up from the seat, grabbed the seat in front of her with her little hands, and put her hand into his trouser pocket.
"What are you doing? Sit tight!"
Lu Zheng was afraid that she would bump into her, so he slowed down and pulled over.
"I want to watch cartoons."
Yuanyuan successfully took out her phone. She was now immune to her father's stern voice.
Holding the phone in his little hand, he skillfully unlocked it and opened the video software to watch Peppa Pig.
Lu Zheng really didn't understand the fun of such a flat animation with a single tone, but the child just enjoyed watching it.
"Yuanyuan, don't look at Pink Pig all the time. When you have nothing to do, go home and put the model together."
The fantasy garden models I bought for her are still piled in the corner.
He was anxious to enlighten his children, but he didn't realize that the model was not suitable for a two-year-old child to play with.
