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"Miss Wu Yin didn't come back with you?"
"She wants to stay with Lin Zai and Lin Sheng for a while. I will pick her up before leaving in the afternoon."
Ran You nodded.
Although I have a crush on my Lord, I don’t necessarily have to get someone if I like them.
The Lord has taken on too much, and he is actually very miserable, so Ran You sincerely hopes that there will be someone who can make him happy.
But will it happen when Wu Yin knows the true identity of the Lord?
"After returning to Rong Kingdom, if I am not here, Yin'er will be left to you. You must pay attention to her emotions and protect her."
"I will!"
After hesitating for a moment, He Lianxuan finally asked: "Will she hate me?"
"Miss Wu Yin will understand your difficulties!"
"I hope so."
No matter what she thinks, he will take her home!
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Qiu Yun was called away by a man in black.
I don’t know what they said, but he looked very solemn when he came back.
"What's wrong?"
"The day after tomorrow your companions will know that you have been kidnapped."
Cheng Mu's expression remained unchanged, "Is this day finally coming?"
"Since you chose to come here to find me, nothing can be changed." Ling Qiuyun pretended to be calm.
"Not necessarily!" Cheng Mu replied calmly.
"It's already here, what hope do you have?"
"Because I still believe in you, Qiuyun, and I will never give up."
Ling Qiuyun sneered.
What's wrong with him?
"What are you going to do with me after it's done?"
"Scared?"
Seeing that the other party did not answer, Ling Qiuyun continued: "I can give you a chance. Once this matter is over, would you like to retire to the mountains and forests and stop caring about worldly matters?"
Cheng Mu still didn't answer.
"Are you willing to leave the Western Region and never come back?" Ling Qiuyun asked again.
Cheng Mu still didn't answer.
Ling Qiuyun had a smile on his face, but felt disappointed in his heart, "It seems you are determined to go against me."
"Then will you kill me?" Cheng Mu finally said.
Ling Qiuyun didn't know that he had been escaping.
Cheng Mu was kind and righteous to him, and he shouldn't be ungrateful in both emotion and reason.
But Ling Qiuyun is very ambitious, and he is unwilling to give up his dream for anyone.
"Let me ask you one last time, do you really not consider my suggestions?" Ling Qiuyun asked fiercely.
"You asked before that since I like Xiaojin so much, why don't I go find her?"
Ling Qiuyun didn't understand why he suddenly mentioned this.
Cheng Mu smiled faintly and said, "I have a heart condition since I was born, Qiuyun, so my days are not long."
Cheng Mu had always been tight-lipped, and he refused to tell even those closest to him.
Ling Qiuyun was shocked, "You are lying to me!"
"Why did I lie to you? Do you think I said this to gain your sympathy?"
Ling Qiuyun remained silent.
"I know my body well, so I don't dare to be with Xiaojin. But I can't control my feelings. Day and night, all I think about is Xiaojin.
Every day with her is extremely happy. How I wish it could continue like this, but I must stay awake and not continue to sink.
I have delayed Xiaojin's youth. Since we are destined not to stay together forever, the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain. I cruelly cut off my relationship with her. Only in this way will Xiaojin meet the happiness that truly belongs to her.
I didn't expect Xiaojin to leave the Western Region. I originally thought that even though we couldn't be together, as long as we could watch her from a distance, that would be enough.
But she left anyway and I never saw her again. I knew that Xiaojin didn’t want to embarrass me, so she chose to leave.
But I really can’t let go! Every day without Xiaojin makes me miserable.
Qiuyun, you told me to go find her before, but I really can't! "
Ling Qiuyun's face turned pale, and he shouted: "You came here with the determination to die, right? Answer me!"
Cheng Mu nodded.
"It turns out you had no intention of going back alive from the beginning."
How ridiculous that he even thought about letting him go!
"I said, there are things I want to do more right now."
"What?"
"I don't want you to make any more mistakes." Cheng Mu looked at Qiu Yun tenderly and said slowly.
"What is right and what is wrong?" Ling Qiuyun sneered, "Besides, why does it have to be me who is wrong?"
"That's not going to work."
"How will you know if you don't try it? Don't think that you are the only one in the world who cares about the common people."
"People will have differences, differences will lead to contrasts, and contrasts will lead to jealousy. This is an objective fact, and neither you nor I can change it! You can't turn people into puppets, because people have thoughts! Qiu Yun, many people in this world do not have high expectations. They just hope to live in peace. The best we can do is to ensure that this simplest wish can be realized first, but this must be based on the stability of the country, otherwise everything will fail. That’s nonsense! Listen to my advice, stop being stubborn, and follow the general to defend our country, so that the people can live in peace first, and then work hard to improve their living conditions, isn’t that good?”
"Then how long do we have to wait? I can't wait any longer. I'm not doing this for myself. I also want to make the Western Region a pure land on earth, so I chose this path."
"You are just making excuses for your ambition. If you really want to make the West a pure land, you should do what I said."
"Different ways do not lead to mutual understanding. Since you don't understand my thoughts and ambitions, I don't want to explain it to you anymore!"
"But for the sake of this so-called ambition, are you really willing to kill loyal people and betray your country for glory?"
"To achieve great things, sometimes you have to use some despicable means!"
"Don't make excuses for your behavior. After all, are you just doing it for your own selfish desires and revenge on those who look down on you?
The world is unfair, that’s right! I obviously don't ask for much, and I admit that I have never done anything harmful to nature, but why did I get an incurable disease and be unable to stay with my sweetheart for the rest of my life? And why do some people, despite being insidious and cunning, still be able to live freely and enjoy prosperity?
I also have resentment and hatred, but one cannot be blinded by hatred, let alone lose one's humanity and become the kind of person one hates most in the first place.
Qiuyun, I beg you to let yourself go and not go further down the wrong road. Resentment will only make people painful. There are still many people and things in this world worthy of your love and protection! "
Cheng Mu knew that Qiu Yun was stubborn and extreme.
In order to make his life easier, Cheng Mu did many things for Qiu Yun and Shen Ning.
He doesn't expect to get anything in return, as long as Qiu Yun is no longer obsessed with it.
For this reason, Cheng Mu would rather give up his life.
If his life can bring one more person in the world who has found his way back from his own way, then it will be worth it!
Ling Qiuyun's eyes burned, "Do you think you can impress me with these words?"
Cheng Mu sighed, "After I die, remembering our friendship, you should stop hurting those who are truly good to you."
"I can't look back!" Ling Qiuyun's eyes were gloomy.
He is not born cold and enjoys hurting others.
But in the past days, he had really had enough.
Cheng Mu looked pale, "Really?"
Ling Qiuyun noticed something strange. He rushed to Cheng Mu and squeezed his shoulders hard, "Don't think you can die so easily!"
Cheng Mu lowered his head feebly, "Life or death is not something I can decide, but I don't regret being your friend!"
"What exactly is going on?"
His heart was full of despair.
"I didn't take my medicine!"
Ling Qiuyun asked loudly: "Are you trying to force me to death?"
"I don't have long to live, so what if I live a few more days or a few less!" Cheng Mu said with a smile: "They won't fall into the trap. Don't fantasize about using me to lure other people out!"
"You can't die!" Ling Qiuyun seemed not to hear.
"If a person wants to die, you can't stop him! I won't ignore you, let alone put them in danger."
Ling Qiuyun was not unaware of Cheng Mu's good intentions.
He and Cheng Muben came to the same destination by different paths. They both hoped that the world would get better and better and that people could live carefree.
But the biggest difference between Ling Qiuyun and Cheng Mu is that Cheng Mu treats everyone sincerely, but Ling Qiuyun does not.
He is used to seeing people's selfishness and ugly faces.
Except for a few, he hated most of the people around him.
Even his mother, Cheng Mu and the general's family couldn't make him change his prejudice.
The evil in human nature is due to the desire for power and money.
But if everyone had the same amount, they would no longer fight and kill each other over these things.
By then, the ugly parts of human nature will gradually disappear.
This is his ideal pure land, and for this Ling Qiuyun is willing to sacrifice everything.
"Qiuyun, you haven't called me Brother Cheng for a long time!"
Ling Qiuyun didn't reply. He watched Cheng Mu fall to the ground bit by bit.
Why?
Why did he have to get to know Cheng Mu?
Why did Cheng Mu come to disturb his already cold heart?
"Stop hating people." Cheng Mu said with all his strength.
He must take medicine every day to survive for a while longer.
But he didn't want to take any more medication.
I hope this life can awaken the goodness in Qiu Yun's heart.
Cheng Mu used up his last bit of strength, "Go and love this world!"
After saying that, he slowly closed his eyes.
Will there be a soul after death?
If there is, let it float to Xiaojin!
Cheng Mu, I really like Xiaojin!
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Everything seems unreal.
Ling Qiuyun remained motionless, looking down at the people on the ground without blinking.
Cheng Mu, died like this?
The past is vivid in my mind.
Deep down in his heart, Ling Qiuyun didn't want Cheng Mu to die.
He treats each other sincerely, but why should they become rivals?
It would be great if Cheng Mu was just an ordinary person!
For a moment, Ling Qiuyun's eyes showed a hint of regret.
Cheng Mu, because you knew you wouldn't live long, you threatened to die so that I could feel guilty and change my ways?
I don't!
Do you think I will be soft-hearted?
No! I won't!
I want you to know how hard-hearted and ruthless I am!
You will see all of this, right?
If you are angry, if you feel that it is not worth giving your life for me, then come back and scold me!
But no one answered him, and the voice that earnestly persuaded him could no longer be heard!
Cheng Mu lay quietly on the ground, looking so peaceful.
Ling Qiuyun carried Cheng Mu to the bed and gently helped him tidy up his slightly wrinkled clothes and messy hair.
After that, he looked away.
Do you think you are smart? But this time, you miscalculated!
I want you to see with your own eyes how I hurt those who are important to you!
If you regret being angry, then wake up!
