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Shen Ning carefully helped Ling Qiuyun pack her bags.
"Have you really thought about going to the Central Plains?" she asked quietly.
"You don't want me to go?" Ling Qiuyun asked.
Shen Ning hurriedly shook his head and denied: "Since your father wrote a letter asking you to visit him, your physical condition must not be very good. You are his son, how can I stop you from seeing him! Besides, I don't want you to stay. Pity."
"Don't worry, I promise I'll be back soon."
"good!"
Yesterday, she received a letter. After seeing the name of the person who sent the letter, she immediately became confused and even the things in her hands fell to the ground for some reason.
It took a long time for Shen Ning to come back to her senses. She slowly walked back to the room, forgetting to pick up things on the floor.
What happened?
Shen Ning hesitated for a long time before deciding to open the letter.
It turned out that the man was sick, so he wanted Qiuyun to see him.
He actually remembers that he has a son?
She has been struggling to support everything for so many years, and her body is exhausted. Why should this heartless person think of her son and ask him to find him when his health is not good?
Shen Ning was so angry that he wanted to tear the letter into pieces. Since that man had not fulfilled any of his responsibilities as a father, it was natural for Qiu Yun not to see him.
But she couldn't be cruel after all.
Shen Ning was devastated, but finally decided to give the letter to Qiu Yun.
The child was unwilling to reveal his feelings to him. Shen Ning wondered if it was because of his father that Qiu Yun treated him like this.
Ever since Qiu Yun was sensible, she had been complaining to him and scolding his father, but she never thought about Qiu Yun's mood when listening to these accusations.
He was just a child, and he longed for a complete and loving family, and hoped that his father would remember him. However, Shen Ning ruthlessly shattered all his fantasies and expectations.
Why couldn't I make up a beautiful lie for Qiu Yun?
Otherwise Qiuyun wouldn't be as thoughtful and unpredictable as he is now!
Doctor Cheng always comes to the house recently, and while talking to him, Shen Ning also starts to think about whether what she is doing is right or not!
She could find many reasons to defend herself, but Shen Ning knew that there was only one fundamental reason for her to do so, that is, she wanted Qiu Yun to know how much she had given and how much she had lost for him.
It's all just selfishness.
She has now figured it out. The past cannot be changed, so she should work harder to make up for the present. Therefore, despite her reluctance, she still handed the letter into Qiuyun's hands.
Shen Ning had been observing Qiu Yun's reaction, but after he finished reading, he just asked expressionlessly: "What do you mean?"
Shen Ning tried hard to say: "You'd better go and see him."
"Okay, then I'll leave tomorrow!"
"Tomorrow? So early?"
"I went to his place for a while from here, and I came back early after seeing him."
Shen Ning nodded, feeling a little uncomfortable.
When Shen Ning packed her bags today, she couldn't help but regret a little. She really didn't want Qiu Yun to leave for so long.
"General Li has approved it. I will leave the city directly in a moment."
"Qiuyun, do you want to see your father?" Shen Ning asked suddenly.
"have no idea."
If he were a child, he would nod without hesitation, but...
He really expected his mother to tell more about his father. When he saw other fathers holding their children's hands to buy sweets, he felt really envious.
But Qiuyun soon understood that she couldn't mention her father in front of her mother, otherwise her mother would be unhappy and say a lot of unpleasant things, which would make him extremely unhappy in the end.
I don't know since when, his desire for father's love and family has cooled down.
Shen Ning kept staring at Qiu Yun, and she asked again: "After meeting him, will you come back?"
This is Shen Ning's biggest worry. She is really afraid that Qiu Yun will be soft-hearted, afraid that the father and son will finally untie their knot, and even more afraid that the man wants to make up for the guilt he has felt towards Qiu Yun over the years and insists on keeping Qiu Yun in the Central Plains.
If Qiu Yun really doesn't come back, what will she do?
She only has one Qiuyun, and Shen Ning really doesn't want to be abandoned again.
"I'll come back immediately after I'm done. Don't worry, I won't lie to you!"
"Okay, then come back soon, mother is waiting for you at home!" Shen Ning choked with sobs.
"I will!"
"That's good," Shen Ning finally felt relieved. "Be careful along the way. You must pay attention to yourself and protect yourself. Got it?"
"I understand, mother, just wait for me to come home with peace of mind. You must also take care of your health while I am away!"
"Okay! Qiuyun, what did you say..." There was a question that had been hidden in Shen Ning's heart for a long time.
"What?"
Shen Ning was still hesitant.
"Mom, just tell me if you have anything to say."
Shen Ning finally plucked up the courage: "Does your father still remember me? Does he feel guilty when he thinks of me? Even if he only has a little such thoughts, I will feel much better."
"Want me to ask him for you?"
Shen Ning quickly shook her head. She was afraid that the man would look down on her if he found out.
"Then I won't ask! It doesn't matter what he thinks. You still have me, and I will be filial to you! Mom, you have to promise me that you have to take care of yourself during my absence."
"Well, don't worry about Mom! Okay, you can leave quickly, Mom won't delay you anymore."
"good."
After Qiu Yun left, Shen Ning couldn't stop crying anymore.
~~~
Ling Qiuyun told Li Ao yesterday about the letter and his plans.
Li Ao readily agreed.
He also advised: "No matter what he has done, he is still your father. You should go and see him. Now that you have gone, don't get too entangled in the past. It would be best if the conflict can be resolved!"
Qiu Yun was serious and capable, so Li Ao naturally valued him very much, but he was worried about one thing, and that was Qiu Yun's character.
He knew he couldn't judge too much, so he could only try his best to be nice to this subordinate.
"I will let the madam take good care of your mother. You don't have to worry about this."
Not only that, he was also afraid that Qiuyun was in danger, so he wanted to send some people to follow him.
Ling Qiuyun did not agree.
His feelings for Li Ao are very complicated. He truly respects General Li, but on many things, he has completely different views from General Li.
Ling Qiuyun couldn't understand why Li Ao was so majestic in the hearts of the people in the Western Region, and he had enough ability and military strength, why he was still willing to sacrifice his life for the imperial court?
The court was hopelessly rotten, and it did not deserve such treatment from the general.
Ling Qiuyun also knew that Li Ao hated the Liu family deeply, but in the end he chose to endure it.
Is this the justice in General Li's heart?
If justice has to bow its head in front of the powerful, who will defend the weak?
When he first followed the general, Ling Qiuyun hoped that he could eliminate evil and promote good and severely punish the bullies in the Liu family, but later he was completely disappointed.
He no longer wants to place his hopes on others and has to rely on himself for everything.
Perhaps General Li had other worries and concerns. He did not want to offend those powerful people at a critical moment, thereby affecting the stability of the court and the peace of Yin State. However, the court and the country have become like this. Is there really any hope for it?
If he had military power, he would not tolerate it!
He wants to subvert everything!
Therefore, although Li Ao was affectionate and righteous to him, he was destined to be unable to change his plan, and they would never become fellow travelers.
~~~
Before leaving the city, Ling Qiuyun went to Cheng Mu's house.
He hoped that Brother Cheng would listen to his advice and leave the Western Region.
It's a pity that the expectation turned out to be in vain.
"Brother Cheng," Ling Qiuyun quickly controlled his emotions, "I'm here to say goodbye to you."
"Where are you going?"
"Going to the Central Plains, there are some things to do."
"Um."
"Brother Cheng, aren't you curious about what I'm going to do?"
"Whatever you want to say will come naturally."
"I went to see my father. He wrote a letter saying that he was not well and asked me to see him."
"That's right, then be careful on the road."
"I will."
"Since uncle is not in good health, you should be more considerate when you see him."
"Considerate?" Ling Qiuyun sneered, "Then has he ever been considerate of me?"
"He wants to see you, which means that he has always cared about you and wants to make up for his past mistakes." Cheng Mu advised.
"Why do you always think so well of people? A man who abandons his wife and children for wealth, do you still expect him to change?"
"People can change."
Ling Qiuyun disagreed, "Not necessarily, some people are born bad, don't try to make them become good!"
"I still think that sincerity and kindness can change a person!"
Ling Qiuyun had a disdainful smile on his lips.
When he was young, he always thought that as long as he worked hard enough and was sensible enough, he could change his mother's habit of complaining and crying.
But he couldn't change his mother, all he could do was change himself.
What else can you do but keep climbing up?
"Brother Cheng, I don't have as high a consciousness as you. I only know that there will always be hopeless people in this world!"
Cheng Mu looked at him and suddenly asked: "Since you hate him so much, why do you still want to see him?"
"My mother asked me to go!"
"I thought that if you don't want to do something, no one can force you."
"It turns out that in Brother Cheng's eyes, I am so stubborn."
"Qiuyun, are you really going to see your father?" Cheng Mu asked coldly.
Ling Qiuyun's eyes did not dodge, "Otherwise, where does Brother Cheng think I will go?"
Cheng Mu didn't answer anymore. He said calmly: "Take care of yourself! Don't worry about Auntie."
"Thank you! By the way, Brother Cheng, if you can't let go of that girl, be bolder and set out to find her today!" Ling Qiuyun suddenly said something irrelevant.
"I know what I want to do most right now!"
"Okay, Brother Cheng, see you later!"
"Goodbye!"
