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"Brother Cheng."
When Cheng Mu came out of Ling's house, he saw Qiu Yun leaning against the wall and looking at him.
"Didn't you say something happened? It was settled so quickly?" Cheng Mu asked deliberately.
"It's just an excuse. Brother Cheng must have guessed it a long time ago." Ling Qiuyun simply replied, and then he whispered: "You have to worry about my family's affairs."
"No!" Cheng Mu smiled, "Since you have nothing to do, do you want to go for a walk with me?"
"Where to go?"
"have no idea!"
Ling Qiuyun didn't ask any more questions. He and Cheng Mu walked side by side on the road. During this period, Cheng Mu remained silent. Ling Qiuyun was the first to break the silence, "Why are you so quiet today?"
"You mean I was too noisy before?"
"That's not true," Ling Qiuyun quickly explained: "It's just that you asked me to go for a walk but didn't say anything, which made me a little uncomfortable."
"If you have something to say, you will definitely speak up, but if you don't want to talk to me, it's useless no matter how much I say, right?" Cheng Muxiao asked.
"Some words won't change anything even if they are said." Ling Qiuyun replied calmly.
"How will you know if you don't try it?"
Ling Qiuyun shook his head gently, "Things are not as simple as you think. I heard everything you said to my mother. I really appreciate you caring so much about my family, but my mother and I have a long-standing relationship. There are too many things, and it’s not easy to untie them, so you’d better stop interfering in my family’s affairs!”
"You waited for me specifically just to tell me this?" Cheng Mu asked very seriously, "Qiuyun, are you blaming me for being nosy?"
"How could it be! What you said touched me very much. I am very happy that there is someone who can completely understand me. But I don't want you to worry about my own family matters. You have already helped us too much!"
"Why be so polite between friends! Is it possible that even now, you still don't want to tell me what's on your mind?"
Ling Qiuyun smiled bitterly, "Brother Cheng, at first I had to pester you and be friends with you, but now I really regret it! You don't know how kind a person you are. Compared with you, I am You are a villain, I don’t want you to see my unworthy places!”
"I also have a lot of bad things! You have always thought of me so well!" Cheng Mu sighed, "Unknowingly, you have arrived at my house. Do you want to come in and sit for a while?"
Ling Qiuyun didn't pretend to be polite. He found a chair and sat down, silently watching Cheng Mu playing with the medicinal materials there, feeling extremely complicated in his heart.
Just as he was fascinated, he heard Cheng Mu suddenly ask: "What kind of person do you think I am?"
Ling Qiuyun didn't think much about it, "You are upright, kind, and have a benevolent heart."
Cheng Mu smiled and continued to ask: "In that case, if someone in need of help appears in front of me, do you think I will pretend to turn a blind eye and ignore it?"
"No! Absolutely not!" Ling Qiuyun said with unusual certainty, "You will definitely help that person generously!"
"You just think too well of me." Cheng Mu stopped what he was doing and laughed at himself: "I am no different from ordinary people. I am also selfish and only think about myself. Don't you believe it? I will give it to you Tell me something that really happened."
"It was one winter. It was already very cold outside, but it happened to rain again. I was about to go out to do errands, so I was walking on the road holding an umbrella. There happened to be an old man walking towards me slowly on crutches. He didn't I was carrying an umbrella and there were almost no people on the road, so my attention was all on this old man. When he gradually walked in, I realized that he was a blind man. He walked slowly past me, and I stopped. I have been hesitating whether to help him or lead the way, but in the end I did nothing, I only stayed briefly, and then left without looking back."
"I keep making excuses for myself. The reason why I don't help is just because I still have something to do. But I can't deceive myself. I know that what I have to do is not that important. It doesn't matter if it is later. , and, even if it does matter, so what, is all this worth the safety of that old man? He can't see anything, and the weather is bad, how can I bear to ignore him? I should have given up what I was doing, chased him and asked him where he was going and if he needed me to lead the way! Or I could have asked nothing and just followed him slowly, holding an umbrella to protect him from the rain! But in the end I did nothing, even if I just gave him the umbrella in my hand and walked forward in the rain, I couldn't do it! Whenever I think of this, I feel disappointed with myself!"
"I can find many reasons for myself, but I know in my heart that there is only one real reason, and that is that I care more about myself! How could I not understand the principle of being willing to help others, but knowing it does not mean that I can do it, especially when dealing with myself There is a conflict of interest! Therefore, your affirmation and evaluation of me just now are one-sided. Don’t always think that you are not good compared to me! In fact, I am just an ordinary person. It also leaves a lot to be desired, and there’s nothing particularly noble about it.”
Ling Qiuyun didn't expect Cheng Mu to say these words to him.
Cheng Mu was the kind of person he had longed to be, but he would never have the chance to be someone like Cheng Mu again.
He always felt inferior in front of Cheng Mu, but it turned out that Cheng Mu did not look down on him from the highest moral point. Instead, he had been trying hard to convince himself that there was no difference between the two of them in essence.
In short, Cheng Mu gave Ling Qiuyun the equality and self-esteem she longed for most in her heart.
"Brother Cheng, I'm glad you are willing to tell me this." After a long time, Ling Qiuyun said slowly, "But I think you don't need to worry too much about this matter. The past is in the past. Who can guarantee that you will not make mistakes in your life? The difference with others is that some people never realize that they have made mistakes throughout their lives. In fact, it is not difficult to realize your mistakes, you just don’t dare to do so. In reality, there are too many such people, but Brother Cheng It’s different. You can constantly reflect on yourself, recognize your shortcomings and correct them, so that you can become better and better! Unfortunately, there are too few people like you! In fact, many people have encountered what you said Similar situations, there are too many weak and helpless people in life, but most people turn a blind eye with peace of mind. Few people will blame themselves and feel guilty like you! And I firmly believe that if we meet again next time, You would never ignore similar things, right?"
"I don't know, maybe I'll help, maybe I won't!"
"You will definitely do it!" Ling Qiuyun said firmly.
Cheng Mu couldn't help but laugh, "You have so much confidence in me!" He looked at Ling Qiuyun and suddenly asked, "If you don't talk about me anymore, what about you? What kind of person do you belong to?"
"Me?" Ling Qiuyun was stunned for a moment and laughed at himself, "Of course I'm just like most people."
"But I don't think so. If you are unwilling or even unable to realize your mistakes and shortcomings, then how can you admit that you are this type of person? I think we are always accustomed to dividing people into Good people or bad people, but there are very few absolute good people and bad people. No one is perfect. Most of us are somewhere between good people and bad people. We will have good intentions, but we will also burst out some evil thoughts from time to time. Thoughts. So, I don’t think you need to deny yourself in your heart, and I can’t be complacent just because I get your approval; we are both the same, there is no difference.”
Cheng Mu's words always entered Ling Qiuyun's heart. He was grateful for Cheng Mu's comfort and advice, but he just couldn't make real changes!
Maybe he had known for a long time that he was not on the right path, and he had the courage to admit that he might have been wrong, but now he couldn't go back, and he didn't want to go back!
"Brother Cheng, I will consider your words carefully!"
"Qiu Yun, do you still remember what I once said that you sometimes look at things in an extreme way?"
Ling Qiuyun nodded.
"I've said so much, and I don't know how much you can listen to it. Even if you forget everything, it doesn't matter. I just hope you can remember that many things are not either/or, don't be so cynical, and don't always take advantage of others! What if? If you have anything you can't figure out, think of me more. I don't want to see you living so tiredly."
"I remember!"
The atmosphere became quiet again, but soon it was Ling Qiuyun who broke the silence first, "Brother Cheng, you know, in fact, I am very, very thirsty for power!"
"I know."
Ling Qiuyun was very surprised. Before he could speak, Cheng Mu said warmly: "I know that the Liu family has a great influence on you. If you have power, everything may be different. Auntie and you don't have to swallow your anger anymore, and you The relationship with my aunt will also improve. Is it wrong to like power? That’s right! What’s wrong is just using power for personal gain and oppressing people, just like the Liu family! We both know in our hearts that sometimes we have to do something real In practical matters, if you want to benefit the people and bring peace to the country, you must hold power! So the key is not the power itself, but what you do after you get it! Secondly, you have to remember that you can pass You must use certain means to obtain power, but you must not use unscrupulous means, let alone do things that are harmful to nature. Otherwise, what is the difference between you and the Liu family that you hate? Don't think that those who want to achieve great things will not stick to trivial matters and only go after gaining power. Wouldn't it be better to do good deeds to make up for the things you did before that went against your conscience? That's not the case. If you can give up anything for the sake of power, even if you get everything, your self and your original intention are gone. Why do you think that you can really do things for the people?"
"Thank you, Brother Cheng, for reminding me. I understand everything you said." Ling Qiuyun replied.
But at the same time, he also knew that knowing it didn’t mean he could do it.
Is the original intention still there? Ling Qiuyun kept asking himself questions, but he really didn't know the answer.
Perhaps he is now or will soon be completely swallowed up by desire.
"Brother Cheng, it's getting late, I won't disturb you anymore!"
"Okay!" Cheng Mu thought for a while, and stopped Ling Qiuyun when he was about to step out of the door, "Auntie loves you, and you also love auntie. If you have any knots, you must untie them as soon as possible. Don't It’s better to leave regrets!”
"Yeah!" Ling Qiuyun had his back to Cheng Mu, so the other party couldn't see the expression on his face.
"Brother Cheng, I sincerely advise you that the Western Region is not peaceful. The sooner you leave this troubled place, the better it will be for you! Isn't it also a good choice to find a peaceful place to practice medicine and save people?"
After saying that, Ling Qiuyun left without looking back, leaving Cheng Mu alone and feeling sad.
Are you leaving the West?
But there are so many bonds and memories here that he can never leave them again.
