The air was suddenly quiet.
Song Heng's body tensed to the point of stiffness, and the veins on the back of his clenched hands bulged, "Why?"
"I'm not ready yet." Lu Xinting said, "I don't want to get pregnant out of wedlock."
"Let's get married." Song Heng lay on his side and bent down, holding her in his arms, his voice uncontrollably hoarse.
"Xinxin, I will be responsible for you, as long as you want..."
"I haven't thought it through yet."
After Lu Xinting finished speaking, she raised her head after not hearing any sound for a long time.
In the darkness, Lu Xinting couldn't see Song Heng's face clearly, she could only see a deep three-dimensional outline.
After a long time, Song Heng pressed his face against her neck, "Am I not good enough?"
"No, I didn't think clearly."
"Is there anything else you can't figure out?"
Lu Xinting was silent. She had wanted to marry Song Heng, but when it came to this step, she backed down.
"I know, it's because you don't like me enough." Song Heng's breathing was heavy and his voice was hoarse.
Lu Xinting was stunned, not daring to move in his arms.
In the four years they'd been together, she'd never thought about it.
She only knew that Song Heng gave her a sense of stability and stability that she had never had before.
To be together for so long, you must like them.
But she feels that the current relationship is quite good, and she doesn't want to retreat or advance, or change the status quo.
"Xinxin, for the sake of our children, we..."
"Brother Song, I will not be tied up by children." Lu Xinting told him clearly, "Children will indeed make me tangled, but they will also make me re-examine my relationship with you."
"I love you, but I don't want to get married."
Song Heng froze.
Emotionally, Lu Xinting has always focused on her own thoughts and feelings, and her children will not be a hindrance to her.
She can be cruel to anyone, but she never treats herself badly.
Gu Zhiyin loves Ning Ning to death. She will never be this kind of person in her life because love is not the only thing in her life.
So she loves Song Heng, but she loves herself even more.
"Do you want to continue like this with me for the rest of your life?" Song Heng asked.
"If you want, I can."
Never get married for the rest of your life and maintain this relationship as boyfriend and girlfriend.
"I do not want to."
Song Heng hugged her tightly, "I want to start a family, I want you to be my wife, I want to have our children, I want..."
He choked up after talking about it.
Lu Xinting's heart ached after hearing his words.
She feels she can't give it at the moment.
Lu Xinting turned around and hugged him, "I'm sorry."
After a long time, Song Heng whispered, "Is it okay not to spank the child?"
Lu Xinting said nothing.
"You've worked hard on your business trip, go and get some sleep."
Song Heng let go of her, sat by the bed for a while, then got up and left.
Lu Xinting thought he was going to the bathroom, but she didn't expect him to take his coat and go out.
She didn't call him, guessing that he was in a bad mood and went to drink with friends.
Lu Xinting was lying on the bed. Maybe she had slept too much. She couldn't sleep. She took out her mobile phone and posted a message online, "What should I do if I am pregnant but don't want to get married? Should I have this child..."
The answer given by many people is, "If you don't love the father of the child, you can have the child. It doesn't matter whether the man wants the child or not."
"We are already in the 21st century. Do we have to marry with a son? If you have the ability to not rely on a man, then follow your own ideas. If you want a child, have it, and if you don't, just have one. The body is the capital of the revolution. You must take good care of it. Live by yourself. Being happy and comfortable is the most important thing, everything else is secondary.”
There was also a group of people who called her a scumbag, irresponsible, and a hooligan.
Lu Xinting was very confused and finally fell asleep after refreshing her posts until two or three o'clock.
…
Song Heng sat in front of his house and smoked all night.
It seemed like he had done something wrong, he didn't expect this.
He made Lu Xinting pregnant with his child, but he never considered that if she didn't want to marry him, it would be useless even if she had a child.
Now she wants to beat the child.
What he did not only broke the relationship they maintained, but also harmed the child.
The sky was dark, Song Heng looked at the dawn on the horizon, and the little bit of rising sunlight gradually enveloped him. He opened his eyes that were so dry and painful that he could not feel the slightest warmth in his heart.
He looked at the sycamore tree at the door of his house. The leaves had fallen off, leaving only dry branches.
Winter is like this. No matter how gentle the sunshine is, you can't feel the slightest vitality.
Song Heng opened the door and went in, feeling a blast of warm air.
He stayed outside all night, feeling cold all over, and the sudden warm air made him shiver.
There was a ball on the bed, and he didn't move after he came in. It looked like he was still sleeping.
Song Heng went to the bathroom to take a shower, changed into clean clothes, and then went to the kitchen.
He made breakfast for Lu Xinting as usual, but this morning he made more, so he was very gentle in order to avoid waking her up. When he finished cooking and put it on the table, he saw that it was only half past seven, which was still early. She usually went to bed. to eight o'clock.
Song Heng sat at the dining table and was stunned for a while.
Suddenly it occurred to her that what was he doing so much for? If she couldn't finish it, she would blame him for wasting it in the end.
At eight o'clock, Song Heng went to wake Lu Xinting up.
Lu Xinting was still a little dazed after being woken up. She looked at Song Heng sleepily, and after a while she said, "When did you come back last night?"
Song Heng sat on the edge of the bed, lowered his eyes and said, "I don't remember."
"Breakfast is ready. Get up and eat. Do you want me to hold you?"
Lu Xinting didn't sleep well last night. She lay there and didn't want to move. Her expression was bleak, "I want to sleep."
"I'll ask for leave for you. You won't go to the company today, okay?"
Lu Xinting frowned and lay there for a while, "No, I still have something to do at the company, so I have to go there."
She lifted the quilt and got up, without letting Song Heng hold her, and went to the bathroom to wash herself.
After coming out, I sat at the dining table and had breakfast.
Lu Xinting realized that today's breakfast was too much, so she said nothing, "Sit down and eat together."
"good."
Song Heng sat down opposite her and looked at her for a while before reaching out and picking up the tableware and eating breakfast with her.
The two of them were silent the whole time, and they made a tacit agreement not to mention what happened last night.
Lu Xinting didn't have much appetite, so she pushed the dishes away after a few bites, "I'm going to the company."
"Eat some more."
"I don't want to eat it. If I eat more, I'll feel sick." Lu Xinting told the truth. She had an obvious reaction after becoming pregnant.
Song Heng's eyes dimmed as he looked at the untouched breakfast table.
Lu Xinting changed her clothes and wanted to go out.
"I send you."
"No, it's very hard for you to go back and forth. You finally have a day off. Let's take advantage of this gap to have a good rest at home."
Song Heng stood at the door dumbly, watching her drive away.
Before Lu Xinting went to the company, she went to the hospital.
I had just registered and was about to go to the gynecological clinic when I turned around and bumped into a wall of flesh.
Lu Xinting looked up and saw the man, a trace of surprise flashed in her eyes, "Why are you here?"
"If I don't come, are you going to abort the child secretly?"
