Gu Zhiyin's heart twitched violently.
He suddenly opened his eyes.
In the darkness, sharp black eyes stared at her.
Mu Ning's dark apricot eyes looked particularly clear at night, and she looked at him without hiding.
The next second, his body trembled, his pupils suddenly tightened, and his shocked eyes moved downward.
Mu Ning sat on his waist, already halfway inside.
"Ning Ning!"
Gu Zhiyin stood up and stepped back in horror.
Because he was too hasty and his body was weakened by alcohol, he fell back on the bed. He ignored his own embarrassment and shouted hurriedly, "Don't...don't..."
Seeing his panicked look, Mu Ning grabbed his arm and prevented him from hiding, neither retreating nor advancing.
She leaned down, got close to his face, and looked directly at him, her eyes calm and sharp, "Are you hiding something from me?"
Gu Zhiyin turned his head and avoided her gaze, "No, I didn't..."
"Then why are you panicking? I've never seen you like this."
Gu Zhiyin looked back and stared at her body, clasping her waist tightly, "Please, please come out, please."
His tone was heartbreakingly low, "Don't do it, I will promise you anything."
He begged hoarsely with red eyes. The alcohol had taken over and his body had no strength at all.
Mu Ning refused to listen to him. If he was not dealt with today, he would never have another chance in the future.
So this time, she has to obey herself.
Mu Ning exerted force fiercely.
The pain made her gasp.
It's been so long, it hurts just like the first time.
"Ning Ning... Ning Ning... don't." Gu Zhiyin was almost driven crazy by her.
It was like five thunderbolts struck his head, and everything collapsed.
But he couldn't move his body.
"Stop it... Ning Ning, please, stop it..."
He reached out eagerly to stop him, but Mu Ning grabbed his wrist and pinned him down on the bed.
When the whole thing was finished, his heart stopped.
The deep pain was tearing his insides apart.
He lay on the bed, breathing heavily.
The mental torture made his whole body hurt.
All he could think about was the child who was crushed by the machine and flowed out of Mu Ning's belly.
Recalling the way the child was broken...
He was in so much pain, and he felt that he was the source of all evil.
He was in so much pain.
Mu Ning didn't know that the man beneath her was about to collapse, so she moved gently.
Gu Zhiyin lay on the bed like an injured trapped animal, and could only make a low and hoarse voice, "Dirty... Ning Ning, very dirty..."
When Mu Ning heard him say this word, his heart was suddenly stabbed.
She frowned tightly, stopped, and looked at him dissatisfied, "Who said you were dirty? If anyone dares to say it, I will beat him to death, and you are not allowed to say it!"
While Mu Ning stopped, Gu Zhiyin gritted his teeth and stood up.
Mu Ning saw that he was about to sit up, "What do you want to do?"
"Let me... let me take a shower." He wanted to push Mu Ning away.
Mu Ning hurriedly put her arms around his neck, "Don't go."
"You're not allowed to go, do you hear me?"
Mu Ning held his face and kissed his lips.
"See, I don't think you're dirty."
Gu Zhiyin closed his eyes in pain.
He felt that he was being forced with no way out.
He seemed to be trapped in a corner by Mu Ning, with nowhere to hide. Threats didn't work, begging for mercy didn't work, and this girl's stubborn temper left him with nothing to do.
He could only compromise, give in, listen to her, and obey her.
"If you want to do it, I'll take a shower..." he said hoarsely.
Gu Zhiyin wanted to pull her hand away, but what was still on his mind was to control the force so as not to hurt her.
In fact, his movements were pitifully light and he couldn't exert any strength on his hands.
Mu Ning pouted and muttered, "Jindu has come in, is it too late to take a shower now?"
He choked stiffly.
"I told you I don't think you're dirty."
Gu Zhiyin held her wrist and said in a tight voice: "I hate it, don't continue, I can't stand it..."
"Okay, okay, can you just concentrate?" Mu Ning didn't want to hear him repeat these words again, so she simply blocked his mouth.
Gu Zhiyin was forced to fall on the bed and kissed her.
He was shaking all over.
Mu Ning thought he was disgusted by what he said, but it was just because he did it without taking a shower that he was dirty.
In fact, he took a shower before going out.
He has always had a mysophobia in this area, so Mu Ning dared to ask for it with confidence.
However, she didn't know that Gu Zhiyin's dislike of her being dirty came from a kind of psychological self-loathing and self-abandonment.
He believed that it was his own negligence that caused Mu Ning to miscarry.
He thought it was his own incompetence that prevented him from protecting her.
Because Mu Ning didn't want a child, he had been very careful about contraceptive measures, but the child still came.
The unexpected child was a gift from God. It was so hard-won.
He's going to be a dad.
What a joy it should be.
But when he first learned of the child's existence, he felt only pain and regret.
He used to be so arrogant and arrogant, thinking that he could cover the sky with only one hand and that there was nothing he could say in the capital.
But now he realizes that he is nothing, not even his own woman and children.
He felt like a loser.
So much so that he often woke up late at night, and his mind was filled with images of Mu Ning's car accident in his dream a second ago.
That incident wiped out all his confidence and courage.
Mu Ning felt that he was shaking, his teeth were chattering, and her tongue couldn't get in.
Gu Zhiyin's body was stiff and there was a smell of blood in his mouth. Mu Ning raised his head in shock and saw that he was in a morbid state of self-torture.
Mu Ning was a little overwhelmed and patted his cheek, trying to wake him up.
"Uncle Gu, wake up."
Gu Zhiyin's eyes finally slowly focused on her face.
"Ning Ning..."
he called her hoarsely.
Mu Ning was worried, "What's wrong with you?"
Gu Zhiyin shook his head.
With red eyes, he looked at the place where they were joined, and then back at her face.
The light in the room was dim, but Mu Ning could see clearly that something in his eyes was shattering little by little.
She was suddenly pulled down onto him.
Gu Zhiyin stretched out his arms and held her tightly in his arms, "I'm sorry, Ning Ning, I'm sorry for you..."
Gu Zhiyin has always had good self-control. Even when he is drunk, his mind is still clear.
He would not let himself get drunk like Lao Wang and fall unconscious. He would always maintain the last trace of sobriety and reason to keep himself calm in the face of danger.
But now, he was frightened, uneasy, and lost his composure.
He is so fragile that anyone can defeat him.
Mu Ning hugged him back distressedly, "No need to apologize, Uncle Gu, no matter what you did wrong, you can never apologize to me."
"because I love you."
She knew that no matter what she did, she couldn't comfort him, but she still kept saying it in his ear over and over again.
"Gu Zhiyin, I love you, did you hear me? I said I love you."
…
The man beneath him finally stopped shaking.
Mu Ning also stopped murmuring.
He turned his head slowly, and there was a bright moon hanging outside the window.
He saw the moonlight finally parting the clouds and mist, quietly streaming in through the window.
After a while, he said hoarsely, "You do it."
Mu Ning was stunned for a moment before realizing that he had allowed her to do this.
Did her words have an effect?
"I'm sorry, Uncle Gu, I just wanted to test whether you would touch me again. I saw that you were feeling very uncomfortable just now. If you really don't want to, I won't..."
"It's okay, come on." Gu Zhiyin interrupted her softly.
Mu Ning looked at him for a while, "Why don't you come up here?"
Gu Zhiyin shook his head, reached out and gently touched her face, his eyes and tone were very gentle, "Can you come this time, please stop if it hurts."
Mu Ning paused and said, "Okay."
Gu Zhiyin closed his eyes and felt her gentle frequency.
Counting it all together, it has been a month and a few days.
In fact, Mu Ning's body is already fine.
It was the hurdle in his own heart that he had not passed, but now Mu Ning forcibly broke away.
Gu Zhiyin asked her to be on top because of her injuries. If it were him, he might not be able to control his strength and cause her pain.
It's been a month since I've been warm to her.
The warmth that Mu Ning brought to him was just like her love. It seemed insignificant, but it continuously brought him powerful strength.
Supporting his broken heart.
…
The next morning, Gu Zhiyin was woken up by a call on his cell phone.
