First time?
Song Heng was slightly stunned.
To him, this gift was precious no matter how much it cost.
He knew this brand. A watch cost more than two hundred yuan, which was more than two bags for her. It was at least her living expenses for several months.
Although the value of a gift does not represent its weight, it does represent how much the person cherishes it.
Why did she give such an expensive gift? Does this prove that she...
Song Heng's heart beat rapidly.
"Dang, Dang!"
The twelve o'clock bell rang.
That was coming from the big bell tower on Central Street.
Lu Xinting got out of bed and turned on the floor heating in the room. She walked barefoot to the French window, from where she could see the white spire of the bell tower.
She put her hand against the window and whispered: "It's New Year's Eve."
Song Heng came behind her and gently hugged her slender waist. What he cared about was not the sound of the bells or the coming of New Year's Eve. What he cared about was that he wanted to be with her every minute and every second. In these short few hours , he begged for it, he just wanted to hold her in his arms.
If possible, he hoped that the bell would never ring and time would stay on this night forever.
Daybreak was coming in a few hours, and he didn't have much time to have her.
He stood holding her quietly for a while, turned her around, and then slowly knelt down on one knee under her surprised gaze.
He held her hand and lowered his head piously. Lu Xinting looked down at him.
His posture was not embarrassing, he was even calm. In the darkness, he said in a low voice, "Lu Xinting, except for my parents, I have never loved anyone. This is my first time in love. I didn't do many things well, which made you feel wronged. I'm sorry, can you...allow me to make a mistake just once?"
Lu Xinting pursed her lips and said nothing.
He didn't even raise his head, staring at the ground.
"I often blame myself. If I had enough ability to protect you, learn more about your past, and go into your inner world, these things would not have happened, but I didn't. I just had that Damn possessiveness and jealousy.”
"I'm not that generous. When I think about any man touching you, I almost go crazy. The more I love you, the stronger those selfish and dark thoughts become, and I'm sorry for hurting you."
"Those things I said in the hospital were not true. I was just angry...I was angry that you didn't take me seriously. I never disliked you...I'm sorry. I regretted it after you left the hospital..."
Lu Xinting's eyelashes trembled slightly, "I don't blame you."
He raised his head and said, "Can you give me another chance and come back to me? As long as you want it, I will give it to you."
His eyes were dark and clear, like the bright moon in the sky tonight, clean and bright.
Lu Xinting knew that these were the most sincere words in his heart.
"Get up."
He looked at her for a long time, her eyes did not waver at all, and she seemed to have no idea about his words.
His figure instantly collapsed and he lowered his head in self-mockery, "So... you still don't want to."
"Get up."
"Tell me why."
"I'll tell you when you get up."
"That's it, it makes me feel better."
Lu Xinting exhaled, slowly squatted down beside him, held his face and raised it, looking at his level.
"Brother Song, in fact, I am very weak emotionally. A little confusion or lack of firmness will make me want to retreat."
"I've had many boyfriends, but I've never slept with them, and they were free and easy. Because I didn't put my heart into it, I never missed them, but you are different."
"It was you who changed me. You used your most sincere, direct, and passionate love to save me from an unhealthy relationship."
"You said that we can't break up for any reason except life, old age, illness and death. I believed you unswervingly, but you regretted it later."
Song Heng hurriedly grabbed her hand, "I'm sorry, I didn't regret it. Those were angry words. I..."
"Brother Song, listen to me."
"You are not wrong, and I have never resented you. If it were me, I would make the same choice as you, and I might even do something more extreme than you."
"So you don't have to blame yourself too much. The problem between us, from beginning to end, was all about me."
"……you?"
Lu Xinting nodded, "I didn't care at first, but then I didn't care about it. After we were separated, I couldn't be like strangers with you... it was all a mess."
"To be honest with you, what you felt tonight was right. Those were all excuses I made up."
Song Heng suddenly raised his head and his eyes lit up. To put it this way, she was really nervous about him and cared about him.
"But in my current state, I can't be with you."
Hearing this, the hope in his eyes turned into confusion, "Why?"
Lu Xinting shook her head, "I don't know, I can't describe it. This feeling is more like before I met you..."
She thought for a while and said: "I am a heartless person. I finally met you and I picked up my heart piece by piece. I was about to piece together the completed piece, but I was thrown to the ground again. "
"Do you understand? I can no longer treat you as carefully as I did before."
Just like a person in the darkness, she finally found a way to the light. Suddenly she was told that this way was impassable, and there was no last glimmer of light. She no longer believed that there would be light in the future, and would rather stay in darkness forever.
She no longer believes in feelings or promises.
She has obstacles in her heart, her heart is broken, and she is incapable of having a normal relationship between a man and a woman.
"It doesn't matter." Song Heng suddenly hugged her, "I will pick you up piece by piece, put them together and hold them in my hands, and never let them bump against you again."
He let her go, his eyes gentle, "How I wish you were mine from the beginning to the end, but compared to such selfish thoughts, I can't bear your leaving."
"I have no right to expect you to treat me as fairly as you did before. Lu Xinting, you can do whatever you want. If you find me, just don't tell me."
Lu Xinting was shocked, "Are you crazy, Brother Song, what are you talking about? You don't have to be like this."
"Let me love you well, just don't refuse."
"What do you mean, what do you want to say..."
He looked at her seriously, "Lu Xinting, I just need you to give me an identity so that I can be qualified to love you by your side."
Lu Xinting hesitated, "What identity do you want?"
"Any identity is acceptable, it doesn't matter if you are your boyfriend or not."
"You..." Lu Xinting bit her lip.
Song Heng smiled and touched her head, "You can continue to enjoy your life. You don't have to look back at me. Just let me follow you and move forward with you, okay?"
He didn't need her to respond, she didn't need to do anything, just accept his love obediently.
Lu Xinting's heart was beating wildly, "No, this is unfair to you."
"Love is inherently unfair. Who made me fall into your hands this time?" He pinched her cheek.
Lu Xinting was shocked, but she couldn't do this, it was too unfair to him.
"No, I won't agree."
"I won't be able to afford it if you don't agree."
Lu Xinting stared at him for a long time, lowered her head and sighed, "I'm really convinced by you, get up!"
She pulled him up, pushed him away angrily, and went to the bed.
So she agreed?
Song Heng smiled and followed, "Are you still leaving in the morning?"
"If I don't leave, will I stay here with you for the New Year?"
Stay...to celebrate the New Year together?
Song Heng thought about her words for a moment.
Seeing him standing still, Lu Xinting said, "What are you doing standing next to the bed? Come up."
"Oh." He hid his thoughts, lowered the corners of his mouth, lifted the quilt and went to bed.
Lu Xinting yawned, "I'm so sleepy, can you still sleep?"
"You sleep, I'll watch over you." Song Heng sat on the bedside.
"You really don't want to sleep?"
He lowered his eyes, "I... don't dare to sleep, because I'm afraid that you will disappear when I fall asleep."
Lu Xinting rolled her eyes and said, "Lie down."
The man lay down obediently.
Lu Xinting turned her back to him.
Song Heng stared at her back, stretched out his hand and played with her hair.
Suddenly, he called her softly, "Xinxin."
Lu Xinting's back trembled.
"Xinxin..."
Lu Xinting turned around and covered his mouth, "Don't be so numb at night."
He smiled, stretched out his arms and took her into his arms.
…
Early morning, the other side.
Mu Ning looked at the man getting dressed beside the bed.
On New Year's Eve, Gu Zhiyin actually had to go to the company for a meeting!
Mu Ning was thinking that it was indeed not easy to be a boss, and he became busier during the Chinese New Year.
Gu Zhiyin went out early in the morning, and Mu Ning was relieved that she finally didn't have to get up on time to eat the breakfast he made!
She can sleep in!
Mu Ning lay on the bed, feeling extremely comfortable, and slept until ten o'clock when he got up and ordered a takeaway.
She wanted to wait for Gu Zhiyin to come back from get off work and pick her up to celebrate the New Year at the Gu family's old house.
The Gu family's old house...that was really a nightmare place.
Although no one in the old house welcomed her, Gu Zhiyin had to go back during the New Year, so she had to go back with him.
She discussed with Gu Zhiyin that if he went back for the New Year's Eve dinner, she would wait for him at home.
He disagreed and said that if she didn't go back with him, she wouldn't want the red envelope!
She gritted her teeth and endured it for the red envelope.
She was a little bored during the day. Lu Xinting felt like she was dead. So far, she hasn't replied to any messages from last night.
She sent a message to Gu Zhiyin, "Uncle Gu, so boring."
"Come here, I'll arrange something for you to do."
"Thank you, I'm not bored anymore."
Mu Ning threw the phone aside and scratched her head. There was still such a long time in the day, so she had to find something to do for herself.
…
Gu Zhiyin returned home at five o'clock in the afternoon. As soon as he opened the door, he felt like a thief had entered the house.
