"You're right, I'm not a good person, and I never have been... In order to keep you here, I used despicable means to hurt you, restrict your freedom, and self-righteously thought that I was right..."
His voice suddenly choked up.
Mu Ning lay on his chest that was rising and falling violently, feeling as if he had been stabbed by a knife, feeling extremely uncomfortable.
She tried hard to adjust her breathing, "Gu Zhiyin, I didn't want to leave you. At first, I really hated you for taking too much care of me, but then..." After accidentally falling in love with him, she never thought about it again.
"I know, Lu Xinting has already told me."
He put the back of his hand on his eyes, and his voice seemed broken, hoarse and muffled, "For a long time, I didn't dare to face it or admit that I had a problem."
"After you left, while I was suffering every minute of losing you, I also arrogantly believed that you would eventually come back, and I continued to deceive myself like this."
"Until you never want to see me again, until you find someone else..."
He raised his lips in a self-deprecating tone, "At that time, I was on tenterhooks every day. Your disgust made me feel scared. I didn't dare to get close to you anymore. I was afraid that if I touched you, you would disappear in front of me in an extreme way. Let me never find you again..."
"Now that I think about it, I feel like a fucking bastard. What have I done? How could I do this to you? How could I use those disgusting things on you? You are my Ning Ning, I swear. The girl I want to keep in the palm of my hand and love for the rest of my life..."
Mu Ning saw a large amount of moisture coming out from the back of his hand. For some reason, her nose was sore and she felt so sad that she wanted to cry.
"Uncle Gu, you've drunk too much, stop talking like this."
The man shook his head, "If I don't say some things now, I may never say them in my lifetime."
Yes, Gu Zhiyin had never been so drunk in his life.
"I'm sorry, Ning Ning. It was me who brought you home in the first place. You put me in such a high position and respected and trusted me so much. But I'm not a good parent. I made you sad and cried so much. Ning Ning must be very disappointed with me."
He put down his arms and looked at her with red eyes. He twitched the corners of his mouth, but couldn't squeeze out a smile.
Mu Ning lowered his head and was speechless. He bit his lips to prevent himself from crying, "Well, I'm very disappointed."
The man trembled all over, let go of her, turned around, and curled up holding the quilt.
He suddenly felt so painful, as if he had fallen from a high altitude and hit the ground hard. The pain of shattering his bones made his whole body start to shiver.
The whole person was suffocated in the quilt and said with difficulty, "I am not qualified to keep you now. Whatever you want to do, I have always been the only one to compromise. If you want to leave..."
Mu Ning couldn't listen anymore and hugged his waist from behind, "Uncle Gu, I won't leave."
Gu Zhiyin was startled.
Mu Ning was afraid that he didn't hear clearly, so she loudly repeated over and over again behind him, "I won't leave, I won't leave..."
Gu Zhiyin slowly raised his head and said in a trembling voice, "Really?"
"Um."
He turned back and raised her chin, as if he was afraid that she would regret it. His eyes were careful and panicked, "Ning Ning, don't lie to me."
"Um."
His expression suddenly relaxed, he swallowed the sourness and fear in his throat, and smiled with gentle eyes.
He reached out and hugged her tightly, "I almost lost such a good Ning Ning."
Mu Ning was wrapped in the man's hot chest, and her vision was blurry and wet. She could no longer tell whether it was the sweat on his body or her tears.
She wiped her eyes and slapped his waist hard, "If you dare to lie to me or scheme against me again in the future, I will never forgive you. I will disappear completely and let you lose me forever."
Gu Zhiyin's face turned pale suddenly, "Not anymore, never again..."
He grabbed Mu Ning's arm tightly and looked at her with red eyes, "Ning Ning, please don't scare me."
Mu Ning snorted, "I'm not kidding you."
"I'm sorry, Ning Ning..."
Seeing the mist in his eyes again, Mu Ning's heart felt like it was tightly clenched.
Gu Zhiyin wasn't like this when she was drunk before. She used to get sober the more she drank, her whole person was cold and cold, and her aura of keeping strangers away was scary, and she was the only one who dared to approach.
Why is it so delicate now that it feels like it will break at the touch of a touch?
Probably very drunk.
He accidentally exposed his truest inner self.
He begged, "Ning Ning, come to the bed and let me hold you properly."
Mu Ning obediently kicked off his shoes, lifted the quilt, and got into his arms.
Gu Zhiyin held her tightly with his hands and feet, as if he was afraid that she would slip away.
We hugged each other quietly for a while.
"Ning Ning."
"Um."
"Ning Ning..."
"Why do you keep calling me?"
He breathed heavily into her ear, "I feel uncomfortable."
Mu Ning raised his head, "Where do you feel uncomfortable?"
"I want to...vomit."
Mu Ning quickly got out of bed and went to get the trash can.
He got up and lay on the edge of the bed, vomiting.
Seeing him vomiting, Mu Ning patted his back and handed him the paper.
After a while, he stopped.
He raised his eyes, his eyes filled with scarlet red.
Mu Ning couldn't be angry but felt distressed when Gu Zhiyin was like this. She quickly went to bring him the sobering tea.
"It's hot, slow down."
He drank a few sips and Mu Ning wiped his mouth.
He looked at her, grinning crazily, "Ning Ning is so nice."
Mu Ning's face felt a little hot inexplicably. This man already had a face that confuses all living beings, and he was still staring at her like this. Wasn't he nakedly tempting her to commit a crime?
"Ahem, lie down quickly. If you feel uncomfortable, stop talking. Close your eyes and rest."
He closed his eyes obediently and lay on the bed not wanting to move.
Mu Ning covered him with a quilt and worked hard for most of the night. She was sweating all over. She went to the bathroom to take a shower. When she came out, he was already asleep.
Mu Ning quietly got on the bed and lay down next to him.
He seemed to sense her presence and unconsciously pulled her into his arms in his sleep.
Mu Ning smelled the mellow fragrance in his arms and gradually fell asleep.
…
When Mu Ning woke up the next day, his face felt hot and itchy.
Opening her eyes, a blazing gaze stared at her.
And the heavy breathing was right next to her ears.
Mu Ning looked at him shyly for a few seconds, "Gu Zhiyin..."
"Yeah." The man's voice was hoarse, and his dark eyes were dark and deep, as if staring at prey with danger.
Mu Ning knew very well that in his eyes, she was a prey that came to him and could not escape.
She bit her lip, "You..."
The man gave a faint smile and said, "Ning Ning is awake?"
Mu Ning quickly closed his eyes, "No, not yet..."
She immediately yawned and turned to go back to sleep.
The person was taken back, and a shadow fell on his eyelids.
Mu Ning opened her eyes and found the man leaning over her, staring at her with burning eyes.
