I didn't lie, and I also knew that my desires had expanded again. At this moment, after I changed from wanting to be the king of Meneng to becoming the emperor of the Wa State, I had a third thought, which was to have an era of my own.
This is the dream of emperors in ancient and modern dynasties, but among those romantic figures in history, how many of them can achieve it?
The reason I dared to have this dream was because I saw a documentary about Michael Jackson when I was browsing videos on my phone when I was bored.
Many rulers in the past have never had the ability to "lead the world" by letting a star achieve it. However, when many politicians wanted to complete the same performance, they were labeled as a "political farce" by history.
Until I saw Teacher Yu’s speech...
After the fear emerged, I kept asking myself what I was afraid of, whether I was afraid of the shouts of water that can carry or capsize a boat, or of the helpless people...
Puzzled, I suddenly understood another fact.
I'm not a leader.
Not from beginning to end.
To this day, I am still just a gangster, still hiding from the cameras, hiding in the city government building, thinking about this and thinking about that. Otherwise, I should not be afraid of anyone, any organization, or anything.
So what is a leader?
Is it faith?
Is it mental power?
I was confused about this problem for a long time, and finally figured it out after pondering over the teacher's performance...
The leader is actually the direction.
Just like Zhuyeqing told me, she was married in China.
It was a very ordinary blind date, it was very ordinary to reject the other party, and it was very ordinary to be told by the other party, "You can try it as a friend." Even people came to propose marriage, and she was still in a daze.
She didn't know if she loved the other person. She only knew that after she didn't resist holding hands during the relationship, the man awkwardly kissed her.
This is a confusing process, with no proposal, no confession, no vows of eternal love and hysteria.
My father said, 'That man is very nice and he seems quite honest.' My mother said, 'We are just ordinary people living their lives. How can we be earth-shattering every day?'
Just like that, she got married.
get married!
This is the life of many people born in the 1980s. They did not grow up in a particularly cruel environment, nor did they have much intrigue to survive. They are as stupid and simple as food in the field. They grow as time goes by. After they grow up, their psychological age is actually It's not much better than when I was a kid.
It wasn't until the two of them started living independently that they realized why this grandson was so sick.
How is this different from the person I know?
Just when you were about to shout something to defend your identity, you were pressured by relatives and friends, telling you, "It'll be fine if you get used to it" and "Who doesn't get through life like this?"
If you want to make the decision on your own, there is no way; if you want to change the other person through communication, they still treat you as an independent individual and have not integrated into the living environment of a marriage at all.
In the end, I could only slap my forehead: "Why did I just get married like this, like a bitch?"
Immediately afterwards, various chicken soups on the Internet became the main seasoning for midnight depression, and a female punch popped up on the phone, and it immediately spoke to your heart.
You are like a donkey whose reins are in someone else's hands. You can move as you please.
The most important thing is that when you open your eyes and look around, you will suddenly find that there are many people in the same situation as you. Everyone thinks that it is too late to mature, but in fact, it is only after midnight that people understand that This is called having no direction.
So, what is direction?
At that time, my thoughts might have been the Great Ancestor Killing the White Snake, or Martin Luther King's "I have a dream," or even Dutch van der Linde's "I have a plan."
This is my most superficial understanding at the moment, a superficial understanding from being a brother to others, to becoming a big brother, then to being a hero, and finally having a precursor to awakening consciousness and climbing to the highest peak.
And along the way, if I want to transform from an ordinary person to a person covered in golden light, I have to take countless risks with my humble life, and I have to see with my own eyes the corpses of my fellow travelers.
Only then did I realize that I was on the same level as Big Boss Peng, Mr. Bao, and Lin Minxian. No wonder Mr. Bao said that I could only go to the county.
To use a comparison of ranks on the Internet, I finally stood in the realm of 'God Transformation', while those 'powerful men' who were in the same realm and were in the 'Late Stage of God Transformation' but had no hope of breaking through in their lifetime have become dust.
So, there were only two ways left in front of me, either to risk everything to fight for the magnificent scenery behind the high-rise building alone; or to be a city-defending monarch and wait for another person with lofty ideals to rise up and be crushed by others. , become the next speck of dust.
Thinking of this, I scared myself that night.
It turns out that the descriptions on the Internet that I occasionally glanced at were not about 'cultivation', but the epitome of life; it turned out that the officialdom articles were not about intrigues, but about going to the west building alone; it turned out that what the shopping mall articles were about was not spending a lot of money, but...
It turns out that the world is unified.
It turns out that everyone has gone from ignorance to a confused fork in the road in life, and then from countless failures and retreats to finally gritting their teeth and heading towards sincerity. In the end, they reach the same destination by different roads.
I am going from hiding behind Lao Qiao to control the media, to hiding behind the teacher to control public opinion, to the stage. After all, if you want to be a real leader and own an era, you must first be seen.
It’s like coming out to hang out, you have to come out first.
…
Meng Neng, suburbs.
The Wa leader grabbed a handful of melon seeds and led a few men around the mountains from village to village.
He has been out for several days, and his daily job is to drive into the mountains, eat and drink haphazardly at a tribesman's house, and then return home in the evening to continue playing.
It's really not that Haika didn't obey orders, it's that he really couldn't figure out where to put the face of the old falcon if he really wanted to catch the old falcon.
After capturing Yao Sihai and sending him to Bangkang, would that man look good? If he doesn't look good, then his efforts will be in vain. Isn't this thankless?
Can't catch it?
This is how you escaped from the mountains back then. No one knows better than you how difficult it is to catch people in the mountains, right?
The leader of the Wa tribe felt that even if he couldn't catch him, the man from Bangkang would at most sigh and curse a few words. It was better than leaving a reputation in the Wa State for "attacking only his own people," right?
Look at what Teacher Yu is doing, no one is willing to speak for her.
This is the difference in perception caused by different levels. I think of killing chickens to scare monkeys, even if the method is too cold-blooded; the Wa leader thinks of interpersonal relationships. He feels that the relationship of 'relatives' can transcend levels and laws. When the errands are done, and my sister-in-law complains during the New Year, isn't it him who will be hated in the end?
This deal is not a good deal.
This is like what is said on TV, you are actually not yourself, and the you in the spiritual world is not yourself, but the other people you see in your eyes are yourself.
Because you will only see others through your own way of thinking. (End of chapter)
