Acknowledging mistakes can greatly improve things. Although An Jiali often bullied her younger brother before, she sincerely repented when she became an adult.
I continued: "So, the relationship between you and your brother has been very bad. This is not all because your brother grinds his teeth while sleeping, but the habit of grinding his teeth at night cannot be changed. It is just like an unconditioned reflex Same, and, as your brother gets older, the sound of grinding his teeth will only get louder and louder. If you really can’t stand it, just ask your mother to change rooms to sleep."
An Jiali shook her head and said: "No, I told my mother more than once that I want to change rooms and not sleep with my brother. Moreover, I am already a woman who is almost an adult. My body has also developed. After all, my brother is a boy. Although he is still young, it is not suitable for men and women to live in the same room. However, my mother just said that my grandma was in poor health. She and my aunt always had to take turns watching me in the middle of the night and would not let me come to live. That's it. In vain, I can only continue to squeeze in that cramped little room with my brother and endure the sound of his teeth grinding."
"Until I dropped out of high school and went out to find a job, my brother slept in the same room as me. Let's not talk about the inconvenience. The sound of his teeth grinding was really unbearable and uncomfortable for me! I learned It doesn’t come out, but the sound of his teeth is grinding, but it’s like there is a mouse in the house. It keeps squeaking at night, and my nerves are exhausted.”
"The year before last, he was about to celebrate his 20th birthday. At that time, a big event happened at home, which was a disaster for our whole family. My brother was hit by a car because he was playing with his mobile phone while crossing the road. The big truck hit him, and he was crushed to death on the spot. He died miserably, and his body was cut into two pieces. My mother, aunt, and grandma were all very sad, but my thoughts were very complicated. My brother's Death makes me a little happy. Someone with a higher family status than me is finally dead, and I no longer have to endure the sound of grinding my teeth. But more than anything, I feel lost. After all, he is my brother, my biological brother. We eat together and sleep together. Although I bully him, I still like my younger brother."
An Jiali cried so hard that I felt a little uncomfortable looking at her makeup and mottled face. When you were young, who didn't have someone who held a grudge? But once you grow up, the grudge is forgotten. Just like when I met my grandparents who beat and scolded me every day, I wanted to hate them, but I couldn't.
If I want to say what I hate most about my grandfather, it is that when I was very young, he always said that I was an orphan, which led to me running away from home as a toddler. Until I was taken to the police station by kind people, waiting for my grandfather to take me home. When I grew older, my grandfather told me that because of that incident, he was criticized by the police with a tap on the head...
"At my brother's funeral, our whole family cried very sadly, including my sister, who had always bullied him. After all, the only man in the family has left, and our whole family has become a lonely woman. In fact, our lives are more complicated. It was miserable, the old bachelors and stinky gangsters in the village bullied us every once in a while. I just quickly put down the money to pay a down payment for this small three-bedroom apartment, and the whole family moved in, far away from the hometown that we wanted to escape from."
"After moving to my new home, I sleep very comfortably every night and wake up naturally every time. Because I can no longer hear the grinding sound that disturbs my sleep. Although my brother is dead, in fact , this is indeed a good thing for my rest and sleep. However, the price is too high, I would rather be disturbed by him all the time."
Seeing her serious words, I spoke again, "It's too late to say anything now. I know why you insist on buying a three-bedroom apartment. Because, you four women and one man are always crowded into two small rooms. It’s impossible to sleep open. In this case, your mother, aunt, and grandma can sleep in the big room, and you and your brother can sleep in a separate bedroom."
"Well, yes, actually, the house we have now is originally supposed to be for my brother. No one lives in it, and my mother won't let anyone else live in it. It must be my brother's room. But, grandma is not in good health after all. Later, her old habits recurred, so her mother and aunt took her to the hospital and stayed with her 24 hours a day, leaving me alone at home."
"You don't know, I'm actually very timid. In the past, my mother and the others were not at home, and I had a younger brother to accompany me. Then, I could bully him in various ways. Not only was I no longer scared, but I wasn't bored anymore! But now, My home is deserted, empty and inhospitable. I get scared when it comes to windy and rainy days, especially thunderstorms. It would be great if my brother were here. If you tell me, don’t laugh at me. Once When the thunderstorm gets serious, I will get into my brother’s bed and ask him to hold me tight.”
I didn't laugh at her, but I already understood in my heart that An Jiali is a timid beauty. No wonder she likes Li Huhu, a guy with exposed evil spirits. I want to find a strong man to protect me, so that she won't be afraid.
"Later, I missed my brother, so I often came to this room to sit and look at his bed! Although the bed was empty, the quilt was folded neatly and clean, just like before his accident. This is how my mother and I remember our brother. I just stare at my brother's bed, in a daze, and sometimes I have hallucinations. I see him sleeping on the bed and talking to me. The strange thing is, He took the initiative to apologize to me and said he shouldn’t have disturbed me by grinding his teeth.”
I yawned and said to her: "Miss An, that is not your hallucination. There is a saying that seeing things miss people. You miss your brother so much, and your brother's soul will sometimes be sensed. I can meet you for a short while, really only for a short time. Especially on a thunderstorm night, when the yin and yang are not balanced, and lightning illuminates your brother's soul from time to time, then you will see him, I can still say a few words to him.”
"Well, since that conversation with my brother, I can hear the sound of my brother grinding his teeth again in this home. It's very familiar, very familiar. I always feel like there's someone living in my home, very familiar, that's me. My brother, I don’t know if my brother is really back, but I feel disgusted with my neurotic state. But the more I avoid it, the more this idea interferes with my thoughts, and I feel that I can’t avoid it.”
I interrupted her and said, "Miss An, this is not an illusion. Your brother's soul is really here. Do you want to see him? I can let you see his soul!"
Anjiali shook her head and refused.
