There are many things in this world that, once started, get out of control, as if the gates of a reservoir that have been waiting for a long time have been opened and can never be closed again. Human nature is one of the scariest things. Regardless of whether you are a man or a woman, once you cross the red line, unless you have a painful enough understanding, it will be difficult to stop the car!
Chen Xian's feelings for his sister are not just sibling, but her sister Chen Shuang has been in the world for a long time, and the two of them have become each other's support! I have already understood the abnormal love between their siblings. Next, Chen Xian will tell me the story between them.
"I often see my sister walking lightly in front of me. Her unique smell is accompanied by a breeze blowing on my cheeks. Her frown and smile make me distracted and restless, and I can no longer be calm. I can't get interested in anything I do. You can't understand the beauty of my sister."
"Why don't I feel it? Not only do I feel it, but I also understand what you did next! Your sister has been trapped in a mixed society for too long and has been unable to get out. And you, who have been single for more than ten years, you have been single for more than ten years. My sister has taken care of you growing up as both a father and a mother. You are completely dependent on your sister in all aspects, right?" I pointed it out directly. Although, I could feel his thoughts from my heart, but , I really can't accept Chen Xian's morbid psychology.
Zheng Bing, also known as Chen Xian, opened his mouth and laughed three times, then continued to tell me: "You are right, we need each other, we are connected, my sister is my spiritual support, and I am also my sister who keeps fighting. Motivation. This should be the support of each other. However, later, my sister began to alienate me, and she would always hit herself, saying that she was wrong! My sister’s strange behavior made me unclear, I was still wrong. What? It made my sister unhappy. After I grew up, I realized that I was my sister’s hope. I could even feel that my parents were looking at me in heaven and giving me hope. During that time, I couldn’t sleep every night. I closed my eyes and my mind was filled with questions. I wanted to help my sister solve her problems. I also pricked up my ears and listened carefully to see if there was any movement in my sister's room. Several times when my sister got up crying in the middle of the night, I would quietly stand outside the door. I understand, my sister is crying. She is crying. Why did her parents die so early? It’s such an incongruity to raise my younger brother by myself. Only then do I understand that my sister really cares about me. It doesn’t matter what she does, she cares. It’s me!”
His words really disgusted me. I directly refuted his words and said, "What did you say? You are not relying on your sister, that is just random thoughts. If you really study hard, then your sister will be independent." Be satisfied.”
My words stimulated him, and he asked me angrily: "You are the one who doesn't understand. Do you know what love is? Think about your childhood. Was there anyone who was good to you? Yes." Is there anyone you’re grateful for?”
This rhetorical question also stimulated my nerves. I stopped and my brain began to search for my childhood. I have been with the master since I was very young, but I also have a family, but my childhood was very unfortunate, even a little more miserable than his.
Although I have a father, a mother, and grandparents, my grandparents do not regard me as a family member at all, or even as a human being. My grandfather has said that I am an orphan since I was a child, saying that no one cares about me and that my parents are busy with work. He also shamelessly said that only by following him and receiving a strict education can I be successful. At first, I thought what my grandfather said was true and was for my own good, but I was wrong. My childhood was like a nightmare.
I was bullied by my classmates at school, and I didn't dare to tell my grandparents, because they always had the same saying: If you don't make trouble, why would they hit you? Then, I was being punished by my grandparents. It wasn't until they abandoned me completely and gave me to my master that I got rid of my nightmare life.
At this time, I also shed tears, because his words entered my heart. How could I be better than him? But I still stubbornly satirized him, "My childhood was indeed unfortunate, but at least I didn't have a long history, and you and your sister are so selfish, so selfish that they break the laws of the world and violate the cycle of nature."
"Whatever you say, you all don't understand or understand my love for my sister. I have also tried to struggle and fight against my inner nature, because after all, Chen Shuang is my sister, although It’s not a kiss. But, you know, it’s hard to fight against your inner thoughts, that is, against human nature, and it’s very torturous. During the days when I lived apart from my sister, I was in pain all the time!”
After saying that, he lowered his head, covered his face with his hands and began to cry loudly, as if he was venting his emotions and regretting his past stupidity. In short, I could feel his heart from his crying. in pain. Often sick and crazy lunatics are more sensitive than normal people, and Chen Xian is no exception.
Therefore, when the emotions and pain of a normal person are placed on a person like Chen Xian, the degree of pain is doubled. In other words, the degree of psychological trauma is much more serious than that of a normal person.
Zheng Bing straightened up after crying for a while. Oh, no, it should be Chen Xian, because his body belongs to Zheng Bing, but his soul belongs to Chen Xian.
"In this way, my sister and I kept the distance we should have until I finished my high school entrance examination. One night, I walked out of my room and quietly approached her door, making sure that there was no movement in my sister's room. , I carefully pushed the door open. However, the moment I approached her bedside, my sister woke up. When she saw me coming in, she was not angry, she just asked me to sit down and chat with her, and she He said that my parents died early, and we were all alone and helpless. I was my sister’s only relative, and I must live well, even for myself and for my sister. As I said that, I cried, I thought my sister was just being kind to me, but in fact she was suffering more than anyone else. I felt my sister's pain and tiredness from the bottom of my heart. I cried and said, when I grow up and work, I must make money. Take good care of my sister. She was so moved that she cried and took the initiative to hug me, and I kissed her forehead."
At this point, he stopped again, his eyes rolled round, and he began to think wildly again. I guessed that this time he wanted to tell me, but I guessed wrong. Preconceptions are very serious. What kind of education a person received since childhood will often lead to what he believes. Most of the deep-rooted ideologies are cultivated in childhood.
He continued: "I lowered my head and smelled my sister's special fragrance again, so I asked my sister why you smell so good? I used the bright moonlight outside the window to see clearly my sister's beautiful cheeks. My sister under the moonlight. , he is a fairy, so beautiful. I chatted with him for a long time, and asked my sister, when will you get married. My sister’s answer was very straightforward, saying that I would not get married until I was admitted to college and started working. But My sister was already in her thirties at that time, and it would be bad to become a big girl. However, my sister said that this is not a problem. My younger brother grows up healthily. Life is the most important thing, and everything is centered on my younger brother. . I was moved to tears by her words. She is really better than my father and mother. In the future, I must treat my sister like I treat my parents. Then, I stood there blankly and secretly vowed to take good care of my sister in the future. .”
He spoke with both nose and eyes, and even described the details so well. To call him a lunatic is to say that it is pathological, but it is really not unfair to him. But those who can pay attention to details and pay attention to the extreme are often crazy and sick.
"Zhang Ruoxu, you really don't understand. I don't understand the irreplaceable importance of my sister in my heart. However, I can see that your childhood was also very unfortunate. Don't deny it. Through your eyes, I can It can be seen that you are even more miserable than me."
He was right. My childhood was indeed not better than his, although his parents died young. As for me, I have a father and a mother, and my grandparents are there at night, but I am a poor person whose grandfather doesn’t care about me, my grandma doesn’t love me, and my parents don’t care. I am also very envious, I am very envious of those children who have parents to take care of them. As for me, I have lacked the love of my parents since I was a child. The most terrifying thing is that I was always bullied in school. Even my grandparents gave me an unfortunate childhood. Add fuel to the flames.
"Zhang Ruoxu, are you listening? I treat you as a friend, so I told you my sister and I's secret."
"Oh, listen! I've given you feedback, don't you know? Keep talking."
Chen Xian was a little unhappy. He always felt that I didn't listen to his sister's story attentively. After a pause, he still spoke, "I was so addicted to that feeling that I stayed in my sister's room for a long time. Then I quietly walked out of my sister's room, and lay back on my bed upset. That night, I stayed up all night. After that, I often went to my sister's room to chat with her, and talked about what was in my heart, regardless of what I said. No matter how naive I was, my sister would patiently listen to what I said and then enlighten me. After I entered high school, all my thoughts were about my sister and I had no intention of studying. In my freshman year of high school, I failed in all subjects and my grades were in critical condition. The head teacher also I contacted my sister and talked with her for a long time. The teacher had no idea what was in my mind. Only my sister knew that the reason why my grades were so poor was all because of her. For my future, my sister chose Leave. I am elegant and handsome. Many girls pay attention to me and even want to get to know me. However, I do not take them seriously. I only have sister in my heart."
When he said this, I couldn't stand listening anymore, and immediately interrupted: "Okay, don't say it now. Don't you think there is something wrong with your thinking? Your psychology has been distorted, even to the point of It’s so serious that it’s a morbid thought. Your sister is right to leave you, otherwise, you will always be immersed in your abnormal thinking and never be able to get out. In that case, you will be finished, and your whole life will be finished!"
Chen Xian nodded and admitted: "Yes, you are right. I almost fell into despair. My sister's departure made me depressed. I wanted to commit suicide for a time. However, I read the letter that my sister left for me several times before she left. , I finally understood my sister’s good intentions. She said in the letter that she could no longer live with me, as it would harm me. She wanted me to study hard, improve my grades, and get the best grades in the class. She would not meet me again until she achieved good results in the top ten. She also comforted me that she would not cut off contact with me and would keep exchanging letters. So, from then on, we, my sister and my brother, had a way of communicating through letters. I got used to it and I kept it.”
It turns out that this is where the brother and sister's habit of communicating through letters came from. I finally figured it out.
"In this way, we separated. Although I was unwilling to leave my sister, without her, I focused all my energy on my studies. My grades improved by leaps and bounds. In the two years of my sophomore and senior years in high school, , I have always been at the top of my grade, and my hard work paid off. I was finally admitted to the Union Medical College. My sister was so happy when she found out that I was admitted to a prestigious university. She told me in her heart that she would come back to see me as soon as possible. I felt My sky was bright again, and I was happily waiting for my sister to come back. Who knows, until I arrived at the university to report at the beginning of the semester, my sister didn't show up."
After saying that, the nervous Chen Xian burst into tears again, crying like a child...
