She remembered that her master once said that when you are most frightened, frightened and helpless, the first person that comes to mind is the person you care about and rely on the most.
Now, she finally understood that what her master said back then... was all true.
After a long, long time, Gu Liushang slowly raised his head and wiped the tears from his face with his sleeves.
His eyes and the tip of his nose were red, and he looked pitiful.
Mu Yichang gently stroked the young man's cheek with her fingertips, and a shallow smile appeared on her lips unconsciously, "Why are you crying?"
Gu Liushang choked up and said, "It's all my fault. I couldn't be with Master when he needed me most. Master... Master... I... Am I useless? You Are you angry with me?"
As he spoke, tears welled up in his eyes again and slowly slid down his jade-like cheeks, which actually looked as beautiful as pear blossoms with rain.
Mu Yichang wiped away his tears for him, "I'm not angry. I know that Ah Zhan must not know that something happened to me. Ah Zang must have his own things to do. I understand that."
Master is always like this, and sometimes he is reasonable and makes people feel sad.
At this moment, he hoped that his master could blame him, so that he could at least feel better.
Gu Liushang turned over on the bed and got into Mu Yichang's quilt.
He held Mu Yichang's waist, buried his face in Mu Yichang's neck, smelled the sweet smell of Master, and choked with sobs: "I'm sorry, Master."
Mu Yichang gently patted his thin back, "It's okay, don't cry. I feel bad when you cry."
Gu Liushang sniffed and nodded dully.
Sometimes, he is really like a child.
When thinking of the child, Mu Yichang couldn't help but think of the one in her belly.
Her eyes darkened a bit, but she finally asked him, "Azhan, your uncle came today and said some words to me. I thought this matter needed to be discussed with you, so I didn't make a decision first."
Gu Liushang slowly raised his head from the crook of her neck and looked at her with red eyes, "Is it about the child? The head master told me that the master doesn't want this child anymore, right?"
Mu Yichang was startled, thinking that Bai Qingzhu had already told him everything. When she heard his question, she couldn't help but tremble in her heart.
In your heart, do you want this child more?
She pursed her lips and said, "I'm not greedy for life or afraid of death, it's just..." She raised her eyes and glanced at Gu Liushang, feeling a little dull and painful in her heart.
"It's just not possible now." Mu Yichang whispered.
Gu Liushang hugged her tightly, "I don't want it anymore. I won't want it in the future. I don't want a child, Master, but...but if I don't have this child, will Master still be willing to marry me?"
Mu Yichang was startled by this question, and couldn't react for a moment as to what he meant.
Bits of grievance flashed through the young man's peach blossom eyes. During the years when his master regarded him as a girl, he also learned the preferences of girls and read many scripts.
Among them, many mothers are valued based on their children, and there are often such women in the courts of mortal emperors who rely on their children to rise to power.
Today, Gu Liushang feels that he is in such a situation, and the master is willing to marry him because of this child.
It is absolutely impossible to have a child now, but he is afraid that this child will affect his future.
All in all, he still wanted to marry his master.
After a long time, until Gu Liushang was almost crying with grievance, Mu Yichang finally understood what he cared about.
Mu Yichang breathed a sigh of relief, patted his back and said, "So it's just for getting married? I thought... you think you want the child more between the child and me."
Gu Liushang was stunned for a moment and asked in confusion: "What do you mean?"
Mu Yichang said calmly: "Didn't your uncle tell you? This child's aura of gods and demons is chaotic and requires my spiritual power to resist growth. If I keep him, I will definitely die."
These words made Gu Liuzhang stunned on the spot. After a moment, he stood up with a loud sound and hurriedly went to bed.
Mu Yichang grabbed the hem of his clothes and said, "Azhang, where are you going?"
The young man turned around and said anxiously: "I'll go find the head master and ask him to give me abortion pills."
Mu Yichang was stunned for a moment, and then laughed, "I'm not in a hurry, so don't leave yet."
Gu Liushang hesitated for a moment, and finally lay down obediently.
His expression was full of nervousness and his eyes were full of worry.
Mu Yichang smiled and came up to kiss the man's cheek gently, and said: "Don't worry, there will be no problem for the time being. This is a life after all, and it still needs to be considered carefully. If there is another way, maybe Keep him.”
Gu Liushang immediately shook his head, "No."
"Ah?" Mu Yichang looked at him helplessly.
The man said seriously: "He cannot pose any threat to Master. I don't like children, not at all, and I... don't want a little thing to compete with me for favor. I... I just want to marry Master , I just want Master to be responsible for me, that’s all.”
When he was anxious, he actually said all his true thoughts at once.
As soon as the words came out, Gu Liushang was stunned. He bit his lower lip tightly and stopped talking.
Will Master think that he is a cunning villain?
Do you feel like you have been plotting against her all this time?
Could it be that... I suspect that she likes him because of the drugs?
Gu Liushang was extremely nervous. He lowered his eyes like a prisoner waiting to be punished. He already knew that he was sentenced to death and now he only waited for an answer.
Mu Yichang was silent for a moment, then smiled helplessly and shook her head.
She tapped Gu Liushang's smooth forehead with the knuckle of her index finger, "Idiot, what are you thinking about?"
Gu Liushang's originally lowered eyes slowly raised and he looked at her with a guilty conscience.
"Do you really want to marry me?"
The man said nothing and nodded heavily for a long time.
Mu Yichang curled her lips and asked, "Why don't you tell me directly?"
She had explained to him more than once that she would do her best to satisfy whatever he wanted. Why was this man always planning and planning so self-righteously that it made her feel uneasy?
Mu Yichang sighed and said, "Don't you believe me?"
The young man quickly replied, "No."
His nervous look made Mu Yichang feel distressed.
Mu Yichang's thumb gently stroked his cheek, "You, you, what can I say so that you can believe it? Ah Zhan, what do you want, what do you want me to do, just say it. I don't I like these little tricks of yours, you clearly know it."
Gu Liushang lowered his eyes, feeling a little bitter.
But without those sales people, he still wouldn't be able to make any progress with his master.
Gu Liushang pursed his lips and said nothing. Mu Yichang could only sigh helplessly. Obviously, he had no intention of changing.
There was nothing she could do, Mu Yichang could only think secretly, maybe this was an innate characteristic of him that couldn't be changed, so it was better to adjust her mentality and accept this.
So, she touched his head and said: "Forget it, I won't talk about you anymore, and I don't want to embarrass you. Just do whatever you like."
The man then let out a dull sigh, "Master, am I annoying?"
Mu Yichang curled her lips slightly, and her pale face was filled with a little life, "It's not that annoying."
Hearing this, Gu Liushang snuggled into her arms and hugged her tighter.
In the afternoon, Gu Liuzhang went to Shuanghua Palace.
It happened that Mrs. Zhang was also there.
As soon as she saw him coming, Mrs. Zhang hurriedly came up to him, held his wrist, and asked, "What's going on? Your uncle said that you went out to fool around yesterday, but is it true?"
From the disbelieving expression on Mrs. Zhang's face, Gu Liushang could see how much she trusted him.
Gu Liushang shook his head, "I don't. I'm just practicing outside. Master is very hard every day. I think... accumulating spiritual power can relieve her pain."
Mrs. Zhang then breathed a sigh of relief and said, "Let me tell you, how could such a well-behaved child do such a thing?"
After saying that, she looked back and glared hard at the man sitting in front of the desk.
The man also immediately put up the bamboo slip in his hand to cover his face.
Mrs. Zhang pulled Gu Liushang to sit down and said, "You haven't practiced the magic way, can you still practice the immortal method?"
Gu Liushang hummed and said, "I found many ancient books and scriptures in the tomb of Lord Shen Xing. They can be used for cultivation, and they can be practiced in a short period of time."
Mrs. Zhang has also heard of this kind of thing, but...
She looked sad and said: "But I heard that those methods are very extreme, and if you are not careful, you will go crazy. You have practiced the magic way, how can you use those methods again?"
Gu Liushang pursed his lips, lowered his eyes, and said, "It doesn't matter to me. As long as Master can feel better, I don't care what happens."
Mrs. Zhang looked at him distressedly, stroked the young man's long hair, and said: "What a good boy. I didn't misjudge you. I know that you treat your master sincerely. However, this kind of thing After all, it is not a long-term solution. Your uncle told me yesterday that the child in Junior Sister Mu’s belly is too overbearing and may endanger Junior Sister Mu’s life. You always have to make a choice in this matter."
Gu Liushang replied quickly, "I have decided that I will not keep this child. I want my master. So today, I came to ask my uncle for some medicine. It is best that it will not harm the master's body."
He took advantage of his master's nap to read a lot of medical books.
Luozi's medicine will cause damage to the mother's body to some extent. Now that Master is so weak, what can we do if it makes matters worse?
Mrs. Zhang stood up quickly, put her hands on her hips and shouted to Bai Qingzhu: "Did you hear that I came to get the medicine? Are you ready for the medicine I asked you to prepare last night?"
Gu Liushang was startled. It turned out that Mrs. Zhang had already made plans for him and asked Uncle Bai to prepare medicine.
He was a little grateful and thanked Mrs. Zhang several times.
Mrs. Zhang really liked him very much and treated him like her own son.
She lovingly stroked Gu Liushang's head and said, "Good boy, don't worry, as long as you don't change your original intention, I will always be on your side. If you and Junior Sister Mu can promote good things, it can be considered as having my support." I have a share of the credit, and in that case, I have to take responsibility for my own credit, right?”
Gu Liushang nodded slowly, keeping all his thanks in his heart.
Not long after, Bai Qingzhu had taken out the medicine and told Gu Liushang, "This medicine is for Luozi. Let's fry half of it first and see if there is any reaction at night. If there is no reaction, fry the remaining half and give it to her to drink." . And this, after the drug has taken effect, decoct it and give it to her three times a day. This one will be a bit bitter, so I added licorice. Although she didn’t say it, she is delicate, so prepare some candied fruit and she drank it. Give her some medicine."
Gu Liuzhang wrote them down one by one and repeated them to Bai Qingzhu to confirm as if he was worried.
Until Bai Qingzhu nodded and said: "I remember correctly, let's go back. Now that we have made a decision, we should resolve the matter as soon as possible to avoid leaving any trouble."
Gu Liushang hummed, thanked Bai Qingzhu and Madam Zhang, and then left.
As soon as Mu Yichang woke up, Gu Liushang cooked the medicine.
She even suspected that she was awakened by the bitter smell of medicine.
Gu Liushang helped her up and quickly brought the black medicine in front of her.
Mu Yichang raised her hand, and as soon as she touched the white bowl, she felt a slight pain in her heart.
After all, it was a piece of flesh from her own body, and Mu Yichang still had feelings and guilt for the unborn child.
Seeing her hesitation, Gu Liushang was worried that she would regret it, so he quickly scooped up a spoonful of medicine and brought it to Mu Yichang's lips, "Master, drink it quickly."
Mu Yichang raised her eyes to look at him, was silent for a moment, and then nodded.
The medicine was very bitter, and it made Mu Yichang want to cry.
In fact, she couldn't tell whether she wanted to cry because the medicine was too bitter, or whether the child in her belly felt that she was not going to die soon, which made her cry.
In short, it was rare for Mu Yichang to shed two lines of tears when she was unconscious.
Seeing the crystal teardrops, Gu Liushang's eyes immediately turned red, and the tears fell down, landing on Mu Yichang's cheeks and the back of her hands.
Mu Yichang was startled, raised her eyes to look at him, and saw that the man was crying silently and violently.
She thought, as expected, Ah Zhan still had feelings for this child.
After a bowl of medicine was given to Mu Yichang, Gu Liushang choked and said: "It's all my fault, it's all my fault. Will Master be in pain? I will never let Master suffer again in the future." Such suffering.”
Mu Yichang was silent for a moment and smiled bitterly, "I don't feel any pain, I just feel a little regretful. This is the first child of Ah Zhan and I."
Gu Liushang shook his head quickly, "It won't happen again in the future. I won't make Master so sad anymore. We don't want children anymore, okay, Master?"
"Okay, don't cry. You are so old. You are crying like this. Look at you. If others see you, they will laugh at you." Mu Yichang wiped his tears for him, and the man also wiped his tears for him. Wipe the tears from your cheeks.
