What is the most difficult thing for people to change?
There are many answers to this question, such as hobbies, temperament, destiny, etc. But for me, I find that the hardest thing to change is habits.
Especially one that I have been used to for almost 20 years.
I am used to spending time with my master and junior brothers, getting used to spending every day with them, and what I do every day. Those habits have formed a specific natural reaction in my body. When I suddenly left this place Once you develop habits, you find it difficult to break them.
I think this situation is very bad, especially when I have left the life I was familiar with before, this feeling suddenly manifests itself strongly.
The master is dead, and he left behind many secrets that I haven’t had the chance to understand, and one thing that I can’t accomplish no matter what, so I left.
When I left the outer world, I didn't say hello to Shen Mo. I thought it would be best for us not to see each other again at that time. Don't even see me again.
The last thing that Master asked the two of us to do was the cruelest request for me and Shen Sheng. For many years, I never understood why Master had to make that decision.
Does it mean that in order to gain something, you must first lose it?
This puzzles me.
So I stopped thinking about it. I suddenly felt that the outer world was a very scary place. I couldn't stay there for a moment. That warm spring place actually made me feel chilly from the bottom of my heart.
So I walked far away.
I left the outer world alone and began to embark on the path of my own choosing.
But I lost my direction because I had no clear goal. Literally, I didn't know where to go or what to do.
During that aimless time, I felt the feeling of "not knowing what I want" that Master said before his death. I didn't know the meaning of my existence. My heart was very empty. I have been there for so many years. I have studied and seen so many things, but I don’t know what to use them for. I am confused.
I walked meaninglessly like that for a long time. I didn't care where I went, nor did I care about what I heard and saw along the way. On those days, I was like an empty shell without a soul in the world. Float freely.
Until one day, I passed by a remote local town. That day seemed to be some kind of festival in that place. Those people, young and old, all wore various masks on their faces. They sang and danced to express joy. Emotions. I sat in a tavern and quietly watched them play different roles with different masks.
I sat like that, and after a long time, an idea suddenly flashed out of my heart.
When a mask is worn on a person's face, others will not know who you are. There is no familiar appearance, no name that others know, and you can't even tell whether you are a boy or a girl. This seems to be a good way to hide your true identity.
I decided to get out of my confusion, so I began to quietly and carefully clarify the situation I was facing.
First of all, I found a reason for my confusion, and that was my identity. My identity as a disciple of Onigakure made me lose myself.
This is the only reason I can convince myself, because I know that many reasons can be created.
If I don't want to continue living a meaningless life like this, I must have a new self and choose a completely different path from that of Onigakure's disciples.
And the thing that puzzles me the most is, as a disciple of Onigakure, what should I do?
So I decided not to let this identity continue to haunt me for the time being.
But there is a problem: although the Onigakure lineage has disappeared from the world for a hundred years, it does not mean that it has been completely forgotten. Regardless of the hatred of people in the world a hundred years ago for Onigakure, it is those who had already disappeared a hundred years ago. Although I have nothing to do with the people who were expelled from Onigakure for the time being, the death of the master has clearly told me that there are still many unknown dangers for the Onigakure disciples. Mei Yinhan, whom the master has been looking for, is a huge danger signal.
Master spent a long time looking for Mei Yinhan, and finally found her. In my guess, Master and Mei Yinhan had fought against each other before, and Master deliberately held back due to my guilt for unknown reasons. In the end, Mei Yinhan was seriously injured and died. Although the master sacrificed his life for his own peace of mind, he must have known that Mei Yinhan would never give up on Guiyin, otherwise he would not have so solemnly warned my junior brother and me to beware of Mei Yinhan before he died. Although I understand that my understanding of the master is very limited, in terms of martial arts, I know the master's cultivation very well. Even if he deliberately withholds his hand, there is only one person in the world who can seriously injure him to death! Therefore, Mei Yinhan is definitely an extremely terrifying existence!
The master said before he died that with the current martial arts cultivation levels of Shen Shen and I, we cannot defeat Mei Yinhan even if we join forces. Now that Mei Yinhan has appeared, although we don’t know where he is, if he really wants to continue targeting Guiyin, he will find me and Shen Mo one day.
Plum drinks cold! Although I have never met this person, his name is always like a thorn in my back, making me feel that terrible danger is surrounding me at any time.
Therefore, in order to avoid the possibility of this danger, I must completely hide my original identity and create a new self, a new character that no one knows.
And I, perhaps with this new identity, will find a new life that belongs to me and the meaning of my existence.
The most direct way to change one's appearance is to change one's appearance. In these years of practice, what I am best at and most proud of is undoubtedly the art of disguise.
In my understanding, disguise can be divided into three levels, one is transfiguration, the second is trance, and the third is selflessness. To put it simply, the first level is the most basic form of disguise, using simple makeup and clothing to disguise yourself as another person, which is also the least difficult. The second level of trance is to use human skin and other secret special masks, plus the assistance of facial expressions, tone of voice, and daily movements to transform into a certain person. This is more difficult and least likely to be noticed. The final level of selflessness is the most difficult. It is a combination of the previous two levels. The difficulty lies in not only being good at covering up externally, but also in forgetting the true self from the inside and completely turning oneself into an object of disguise.
And these three levels of difficulty are already too easy for me, because after nearly twenty years of experience and practice, what I have practiced the most is the method of disguise, and I can also use special exercises to change my appearance. The shape of your own body. I remember one time I disguised myself as a wandering old woman in her sixties and followed Master and Junior Brother for three days without being discovered. Therefore, Master once praised my accomplishments in the art of disguise as "better than reborn."
I don't know how good my martial arts is, but I have absolute confidence in the disguise.
There are many disguised people in the world, and the ones they use most often are human and leather masks. But I think that’s too disgusting. Just imagine, a face peeled off from someone else’s body and put on your own face. Would that feeling make you feel very comfortable? So I tried many other ways to create a mask that could replace human skin, and finally succeeded.
So in that small town, I used the most common clothes and special methods to transform myself into another person.
When I looked at the pale and thin me in the bronze mirror, I let out a long breath.
I am very satisfied, because the "I" in the bronze mirror has a completely different look, appearance and body shape from the original me, that is, a complete stranger.
No one in this world will know the "I" in the bronze mirror. Because it is a completely new "life".
One of the last two disciples of the Guiyin lineage, Xiao Yi, disappeared from that small town.
[This is the end of the extra chapter. The detailed origin of the planner will be gradually written in the main story in the future]
