The night is like a wash.
The stars fell into the Milky Way and there was no more light.
The entire area with a radius of more than 1 kilometer around the abandoned building on the river has been driven away by the police.
Fortunately, there are no high-rise buildings or densely populated areas nearby.
The population is also relatively sparse.
If we go further to reach the university town, we will be in trouble.
But this is not good news.
It was necessary to drive out such a large area of people, so you can imagine the intensity of the war.
The Department of Supernatural Powers was fighting fiercely with the strange beasts that came out of the cracks in space.
And in the unfinished building.
Li Chenguang hesitated for a moment, then sat directly on the ground, crossed his legs, and sat quietly looking at the ground.
After a long while, he sighed and said, "To be honest, I am also very confused. I feel like I am like Zhuang Zhou now, and also like a butterfly."
I don’t know whether Zhuang Zhou dreamed of the butterfly, or whether the butterfly dreamed of Zhuang Zhou.
"Moreover, a lot of my memory has been eaten away, and many things are blurry. I don't know whether my cowardly previous life was reality, or whether the dragon world I experienced thousands of years later is reality, or where we are now. world is reality.”
It might all be reality, or it might all be a dream.
Who knows.
He can only live in the present.
"But Gardenia, do you know that in the three worlds I have lived in, in my first life, I lived for more than 20 years and died suddenly because of working overtime."
"The second life, that is, the world a thousand years later, I lived for more than ten years. I was wanted and hunted for thousands of miles, and then I escaped here. So many days have passed, and I don't know if I am still alive in that world. .”
"And then here, in total, I may have lived, um... almost a few decades, but my memory may not even last a year."
Although he has lived for such a long time, Li Chenguang doesn't have much memory, all of it has been eaten up by the mirror flowers and the moon.
He even felt that some memories were not eaten by Jing Hua Shui Yue, but buried by himself.
I don’t know why, but I just feel this way.
"Many of my memories are vague and vague. I feel like I can see something, but I can't see anything when I try hard. That's really scary."
Li Chenguang showed a somewhat sad expression, "What does it feel like to have no memory? It's probably similar to, I don't even have proof that I lived. I don't know where I lived, what I did, and who I know. Some people, nothing, empty.”
"There was even a time when I would forget what happened last month this month, and I would forget what happened yesterday today."
Because he maintained his sister's beauty at that time, his energy was not enough to pay the price, so he could only use his memory to offset it.
“I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing every day.”
Speaking of this, Li Chenguang paused.
He stared blankly at the ground for a long time.
For a long time.
Just then continued.
"I don't know if I have lived, I don't know what memory is real, I don't know which world is reality, I don't even know my past, but, you know what, Gardenia."
"From my previous life, to a thousand years later, to now, everyone is changing, the world is also changing, the people around me, and the things around me are all changing, but you are the only one who has always been there."
Li Chenguang stared at the ground blankly and murmured, "I only remembered it recently. Only you, Gardenia, you have always been by my side."
Gardenia's little head, buried in the crook of her knees, finally made a move.
She raised her little face slightly, and looked at Li Chenguang blankly with a pair of red eyes filled with tears.
Her pretty little face was also flushed.
"I?"
"Um."
For the first time, Li Chenguang failed to catch Gardenia and kept Gardenia in his dream. He did not dare to recall it for a long time for fear of having nightmares. Li Chenguang felt that this memory was... I was buried by myself and I didn’t want to think about it.
Then there is Li Shuang a thousand years later.
He could feel that there was a huge connection between the two.
Li Shuang is probably related to Gardenia in some way.
Then comes now.
"Remember, I saved you on the first day I came back. I even suspected that Longzhu might have sent me back to that day just to fulfill my long-cherished wish."
Moreover, Li Chenguang felt inexplicably close to Gardenia. Although there was Li Shuang's factor in this, he felt that there might be other reasons.
He only told Gardenia Wei about such an important time travel.
Never mentioned it to anyone else.
Because he only believes in Gardenia.
In his memory, no matter where he is, Gardenia will always be there.
"This world feels familiar yet strange at the same time."
What I am familiar with are the people around me, my school, my class, and my only gay friend.
What is strange is the Department of Supernatural Powers, the Crack in Time and Space, Teacher Meng Zhang, etc.
Fortunately it is.
"Fortunately, you are still here. Now that I think about it, it's great that I can help you fulfill my dream in my previous life. It's also great that I can meet you a thousand years ago and a thousand years later."
At least there is someone familiar in this strange time.
You won't make yourself look so lonely.
If Gardenia wants to die, Li Chenguang will not stop her.
Because Li Chenguang himself had experienced the painful time of wanting to die.
Living is very painful every day, and I can’t see the sunshine or the future.
It feels like death is a relief.
Unfortunately, he didn't have the guts to commit suicide.
Therefore, he will respect Gardenia's decision.
If she insists on doing so.
Li Chenguang didn't think he was qualified to stop it.
The meeting was already signed, so why should he ask for more?
If she really feels that living is painful...
Gardenia first glanced at Li Chenguang, then lowered her gaze and asked softly, "Then, have you found a way to go back?"
"I can't tell the difference anymore. I am a person who lives a thousand years later, but I have stepped on the shoulders of history. But if I think about it carefully, this history is my original life. I think I should find the Dragon Ball and go back, but that's it. May never go back.”
Who knows.
Gardenia looked at the ground blankly and said softly, "Then, if I leave, won't you be alone again?"
"yes."
Li Chenguang tried to recall, "Actually, I was used to it in my last life. I worked alone, went home alone, ate alone, bought the second cup of milk tea at half price, and then watched a movie alone. , eat stinky tofu alone, and then sleep alone."
Gardenia opened her thin lips in a daze, paused for a moment and asked, "Aren't you... lonely?"
"..."
Li Chenguang didn't answer, just stared at the ground blankly.
But Gardenia has seen that lonely expression before.
From the mirror.
Because she is also afraid of loneliness.
Her health was not good and her mother used to hold her to sleep.
What she was most afraid of was being placed on a cold bed in the hospital, looking at the ceiling flickering with light and dark, with a few mosquitoes flying around the "yingying" desk lamp. She opened her painful eyes and didn't know when she could fall asleep. .
Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night and had difficulty breathing, even though I was told that I could call a nurse just by pressing the light next to the bed.
However, the other party would stare at me with a look of disgust, as if to say, why aren't you dead yet?
Yes, it's such a naked look.
At that time, my family's finances were not good, and I was assigned to a very bad hospital. I didn't even know what time the food was.
Every day is suffering.
Every day I desperately want to go home, to be in my mother's arms, to be held by my mother, and to be cared for by my father.
But she also knew that her parents had to be busy making money to pay for her expensive medical bills.
A long time ago, her relatives had looked at her with the eyes of "This child is hopeless, forcing her to live will only bring down the family, it would be better to die as soon as possible."
Gradually, she discovered that she could read other people's inner thoughts.
That's simply... hell!
It would be best if you died yourself.
No one expects his own existence.
No one wants to be alive.
Except...Mom.
No matter what others say, even if she hints at it, it is better not to treat her. It can’t be cured anyway, so why waste so much money.
My mother would always smile and reply, "It'll be fine."
Yes, her mother would always hug her, pat her back gently, and comfort herself, "Weiwei will get better, mom promises."
She also said that when she earns enough money, she will take her abroad for medical treatment.
Mom works really hard.
When I go to work, I have to help my father with things, and I have to come over to accompany myself at night.
For a while, she was very happy, feeling that her mother was like a superman, and she was looking forward to her mother accompanying her.
That's why my mother fell ill.
It's all my fault!
The father said nothing on the surface.
However, he didn't need to say it, Gardenia could hear it.
It's all my fault for hurting my mother.
My mother is gone, but my father's fortune has been saved, and the family is getting richer and richer.
But it makes people feel more and more cold.
Dad married his stepmother and had a younger brother.
He doesn't like himself either, because when he sees himself, he thinks of his mother, and it was he who hurt his mother.
Therefore, Gardenia is often alone.
Her father will give her enough money.
Also...it's just money.
She often goes to the hospital for check-ups.
You have to ride in a car alone, go to a cold and suffocating hospital that smells like disinfectant, line up alone, get your number, see a doctor, and then go home alone.
Eat, sleep.
I go to school alone, but fortunately, I still have a few friends in school.
But...she hates her ability, because with this ability, she can always hear some dark thoughts and bad thoughts about herself from the people around her, and then she feels unable to communicate with them.
very lonely.
Gardenia's biggest feeling is loneliness.
She felt that the world was incompatible with her.
The world is on this side and she is on the other side.
Mom...is on the horizon.
The feeling at home has become increasingly cold.
Knowing that he was about to die, his father had deliberately ignored him, in order to reduce the grief of future deaths.
Just pretend that you don’t have this daughter.
Yes, that was the thought she heard most often.
A family is not four people, but three of them plus one of themselves.
I am the redundant one.
I wish I had died sooner.
In this case, he met Li Chenguang.
A boy with a simple mind and easy to understand.
He believes that this is a secret realm of reincarnation. When he leaves, the secret realm will reincarnate and he will go back to living with his mother.
Will start over from childhood.
The cycle continues until the next person breaks in.
That would be... great.
Then I can see my mother again soon.
As soon as he closed or opened his eyes, he would immediately see his mother's friendly smile, her gentle eyes, and her tender call, "Weiwei."
I can lie in my mother's arms and act like a spoiled child, I can let my mother feed me porridge, and I can lie in my mother's arms and listen to my mother tell me stories.
...seems a little willful.
Still can't trouble mom too much.
I will make it easier for my mother next time.
Maybe, the ending can be changed.
That's what she thought.
Always thought so.
The arrival of Li Chenguang made her no longer feel lonely, scared, or afraid of being alone, because she knew that as soon as she closed her eyes, she would see her mother as soon as she opened them.
It's better to take advantage of this period of growing up and enjoy it.
Do something you haven't done before.
Fortunately, in order to go out and complete the task, Li Chenguang would accompany her to do things he had never done before.
The two of them eat at a stall together, eat stinky tofu together, watch movies together, and cuddle up and chat together.
Incredibly, there was a reassuring feeling in his arms.
It seems to smell like my mother.
Moreover, his mind is very simple and he has no bad intentions.
They are all simple and easy to understand.
No annoying feeling.
She originally thought that she could spend the last few moments with Li Chenguang. It would be best if she could help him get out, and then go back and reincarnate to see her mother.
That's what she thought...
But today.
Li Chenguang told her that this was reality, there would be no reincarnation, and it would be over once she died.
Therefore, whether she is dead or alive, she will never see her mother again...
it's over.
Time is over for her.
Life or whatever, it doesn’t matter anymore.
Anyway, next year at the latest...
It's all over.
It’s time to wake up from the dream.
It's time for me to go back to sleep.
Gardenia said softly, "Loneliness is indeed terrible. You will feel lonely, sad, and sad."
I would lie in bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, not knowing the meaning of my existence.
You will feel that there is no difference between living and dead.
Gardenia looked at the ground in front of her, and said tactfully with her unique soft and fine voice, "But I can't help you. I can't help you get out, and I can't make you no longer lonely. I originally He'll be dead next year."
As Gardenia spoke, her eye circles became even redder. She stretched out her little hand and gently wiped the pearls in her big eye sockets. She opened her eyes as wide as possible and looked at Li Chenguang sitting in the distance. She tried her best to show her face as before. , a smile as gentle and warm as the sun.
"Sorry, I seem to have caused trouble for you."
Li Chenguang also raised his head and looked back at Gardenia, "It doesn't matter, just trouble me. I'm afraid of everything except trouble."
Gardenia's lips trembled, and the vision in front of her eyes gradually changed from clear to blurry. She knew that the other party was not lying.
She replied again, "Thank you."
Li Chenguang's voice gradually became distant but clear, "Gardenia, if you feel pain, sadness, sadness, loneliness, if you want to die, I will not stop you, I am not qualified to stop you, it will only deepen your pain of."
"..."
"So, if you are really disappointed in this world and can't feel any warmth, just leave if you want."
Gardenia's lips trembled slightly and she murmured, "...Yeah."
Li Chenguang continued, "I won't stop you,...but I will definitely get the Dragon Ball. I will go back to the past, to the day when the teaching building collapsed, no, maybe I will go back to an earlier time." Sometimes, when someone makes you feel pain, I will save you."
"..."
"No matter ten times, a hundred times, a thousand times, or ten thousand times, I will go back to save you! Don't worry, I have no other merits, I just do what I say."
"..."
Gardenia's eyes widened in surprise. The gradually blurred figure of Li Chenguang sitting on the ground in the distance in front of her eyes slowly became blurry again and gradually became clearer. The whole world behind him seemed increasingly clear. Vague.
She pursed her lips and asked, "Why...why? Why would you do such a thing!"
Li Chenguang also looked back at Gardenia, his eyes firmly looking at Gardenia. The light in his eyes made Gardenia dare not look directly.
"because I like it!"
It's that simple.
Ten times, a hundred times, a thousand times, ten thousand times, I will save you and pull you from the cold hell to the ground to feel the warmth of the sun.
I can't stop you from wanting to die, and you can't stop me from wanting to save you...
Even if you are shattered into pieces in the long river of time, I will still save you, don't worry!
As for the 11 o'clock chapter tomorrow, I'll update it early. .
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