A person will grow up three times in his life.
The first time was when I discovered that I was not the center of the world.
The second time was when I realized that no matter how hard I tried, there were some things that I couldn't do anything about.
This is...a lie.
Because you will feel powerless a lot of the time.
There was a time when Li Chenguang felt that he had become stronger.
Become able to handle things independently.
And can get things done.
But that was just his temporary hallucination.
When faced with a real dilemma, Li Chenguang found that he was still so lonely, helpless, and weak.
He thinks the world is so cruel.
He once saw his mentor dragging his body in front of him, struggling to fight against powerful enemies in order to protect mankind.
In the end, he did not lose to the enemy, but to his own people.
But Li Chenguang, as a witness, was powerless to do anything about it.
Now times have changed, the teacher is standing in front of me, and I am still powerless.
He could only watch, watch the passage of time, watch the wheels of history rolling, continue to drive towards that night, watch the teacher die in front of him again.
And what can he do?
He could only cry like a child, crying loudly.
He can't protect it.
Nothing can be protected.
My father once said, let yourself have the attitude of playing with the world, and enjoy the great rivers and mountains of the motherland, appreciate the beautiful mountains and rivers along the way, explore the hidden treasures, and feel the greatness and beauty of the world.
However, my father did not say that he would be so powerless and weak during this journey.
It wasn't until he met the teacher who had been protecting mankind again that he realized that his previous strength was just an illusion.
He hated that he couldn't do anything.
Can't even speak.
Meng Zhang felt something happened, but didn't say much.
Although he didn't know Li Chenguang, he still held Li Chenguang gently, then took a tissue and gently wiped the blood stains on his face, stroked his head with one hand, and comforted him, "You have done a good job. There is no need to feel sad and blame yourself. It is impossible for people to change everything. Just do your best. The teacher can see that you are a good child."
"..."
Li Chenguang sobbed slightly. He wanted to speak, but couldn't say anything.
Looking at Meng Zhang's kind and kind face close at hand, his eyes full of gentle encouragement.
Li Chenguang only felt ashamed.
He didn't have the shame to stay here any longer, let alone see Meng Zhang.
Li Chenguang stood up, lowered his head, said in a hoarse voice, "Teacher, I'm sorry," and then stumbled out of the office in a hurry.
He couldn't face his own heart.
He didn't deserve to be treated gently by the teacher at all.
Li Chenguang walked out of the teaching building numbly, feeling that his mind was empty and he could only walk forward with a blank look on his face.
He didn't know where he was going or where he was going.
I was confused all of a sudden.
When I came to my senses, I found myself standing at the finish line of the marathon.
Leng Guansheng, He Yulan, Zhi Ziwei and others were surrounding him.
"What's wrong with you? It took you more than an hour to run the last few hundred meters? Most of the people have arrived."
Leng Guansheng stared at Li Chenguang and said, "What's wrong with your face? Is there still blood?"
Li Chenguang had just been bitten by the rules and was bleeding from all his orifices.
Although it had been wiped away a lot, there were still some residual blood stains in the corners of the eyes, behind the ears, and on the collar. The bright red blood formed a sharp contrast with the white short sleeves.
Li Chenguang looked around and found that in addition to Leng Guansheng, He Yulan and others, as well as Tao Xue and other girls from several classes were also watching him with worried faces.
"Just run away."
"What happened to you?"
"As long as the person is fine."
"Go and have a good rest first."
"Do you want to see a doctor?"
"..."
Several girls were talking about it.
Li Chenguang didn't hear clearly either.
My brain still feels buzzing.
After a long while, he managed to squeeze out a sentence from his throat, "I'm fine, I'll take a rest."
Leng Guansheng was originally ready to laugh at Li Chenguang, but seeing how embarrassed and lost he was now, he had no intention of laughing at him.
"Did you fall? It's okay. We'll fight again next time."
I feel like I can't fall so slowly. I'm afraid I might have fainted.
Li Chenguang glanced at him and said the same thing, "It's okay, I'm a little tired, just rest."
Then he pushed aside the crowd and walked alone along the lake beside the bridge.
It was still bright at noon when I ran out.
Before I knew it, it was already evening.
Li Chenguang moved forward along the railing by the river.
My mind is in turmoil.
Meng Zhang's appearance disrupted all his plans.
The outside world is reality.
The world I am in now is also reality.
Interconnected realities.
It's funny to say that the self a thousand years ago couldn't stand the life a thousand years ago, and finally came to a thousand years later. Unexpectedly, the self a thousand years later escaped back to the thousand years ago.
Dragon Ball……
He raised his head and looked at the golden sunset in the distance that had already set on the horizon.
The sunshine is so comfortable and gentle, the evening breeze is so cool and pleasant, the lake surface is sparkling, and the evening breeze creates a few ripples.
The palm of the hand holding the railing felt cold and metallic, and the air breathed in the mouth was filled with smoke and dust.
Everything in front of me is so familiar and real.
Because this is the world I once lived in.
I did it all over again.
Why is this?
He had never heard of such a thing.
The dead are back.
Moreover, it was back to my college days.
Time and space have flown back.
While thinking about it, the familiar voice came from behind.
"what is going on?"
Li Chenguang turned his head and realized that Gardenia was standing behind him.
He didn't know when Gardenia came, or she might have been with him all along.
Gardenia's eyes trembled slightly, and she looked at Li Chenguang with a complicated expression. Her eyes were so complicated that Li Chenguang was completely unable to understand her emotions.
Gardenia bit her lip and asked again, "What on earth is going on?"
"..."
Li Chenguang glanced at Gardenia's beautiful little face that shimmered in the sunset, then lowered his gaze and murmured, "I made a mistake, I made everything wrong."
"..."
"I thought that the Dragon Ball took me into some secret realm."
After saying that, he added without thinking, "When I used to practice with my father, he would also use beads to take me into the secret realm to practice."
There is no thinking and no memory.
I just blurted it out subconsciously.
After saying that, I discovered that I had also entered the secret realm to practice with my father before.
"But the power of Dragon Ball is so powerful. It directly took me through time and space. It is now 2023. It is the era I once lived in, and it is also the era you are living in now. What we see and hear now, It’s reality and it’s history.”
"Reality, history?"
Gardenia blinked and stared at Li Chenguang in disbelief, "What does this mean? Does it mean that the world will not repeat itself? If we die, we will die?"
"Yes, this is not a secret realm for people to practice at all. This is the history of mankind. We are moving forward minute by minute, and then, we will eventually reach the world I came to in a thousand years. This is reality."
Gardenia's eyes trembled, she clenched her little hands and put them on her chest, and asked nervously, "What about the past? What about what happened before? Are they all in the past?"
"It's in the past and it won't happen again."
Time will only move forward, not backward.
Maybe the Dragon Ball can retreat, but Li Chenguang himself doesn't know how to use it.
He doesn't even have Dragon Balls.
Gardenia subconsciously took two steps back, as if she had just met Li Chenguang, staring at Li Chenguang like a stranger.
Just stared, stared, and stared for a full 3 minutes, then shook his head desperately and said, "I don't want it, I don't want this, I want my mother to come back, I want time to go back, I am willing to stay in the eternal reincarnation of time." I don’t want this, I don’t want this time that only moves forward but not backward.”
She wanted to go back to her childhood, to the time when she lived happily with her parents.
After Gardenia finished speaking, she turned around and ran away quickly before Li Chenguang could speak.
Li Chenguang actually wanted to catch up with her and say a few words to her.
Gardenia's urgent, anxious, sad and helpless expression made him heartache.
However, he just stretched out his hand hanging in the air.
The steps he wanted to take, but he couldn't keep up.
Because Li Chenguang was also confused and confused.
He has not yet recovered from the shocking fact.
He could only watch Gardenia running away, watching the slightly petite figure disappear around the corner in the distance.
Only then did Li Chenguang know that Dragon Balls could travel through time and space.
But there was a Dragon Ball when I came, and now it’s gone if I want to leave.
In this time and space, there is a teacher who has lived for eternity. The paradox of time and space makes the Dragon Ball disappear.
I can't change the outcome of the teacher dying in battle.
Nothing can be done.
Thinking of this, Li Chenguang suddenly reacted.
Wait, Gardenia?
I had always regarded Gardenia as an NPC because she looked exactly like Li Shuang a thousand years later.
Li Chenguang didn't believe that there were two girls who looked exactly the same, and they happened to live next to him and met him.
Therefore, he feels that Gardenia is a bit "fake" and not like a real person. It may be an NPC constructed by the secret realm based on reality.
However, it has now been proven that this is the reality.
Gardenia is a girl who lives in reality and goes to the same school as herself.
So why did I never see a gardenia in my past self? I never saw a gardenia in four years of college.
I haven't heard anyone talk about her either.
He didn't believe that with Gardenia's beauty, she would be unknown in school.
Especially Li Chenguang has always had Wu Lei, who is lustful and likes to collect information about beautiful women.
I have never heard Wu Lei talk about Gardenia.
He thought hard, thought again, and finally recalled the dream he had had before.
Immediately he opened his eyes wide with an expression of disbelief and fell to the ground.
In his last life... he had met Gardenia.
I have indeed seen it.
Only one side.
Although it was only this one side, Gardenia has always been in her nightmares from now on.
That dream was so terrible that Li Chenguang never wanted to think about it.
Yes, on the day I come back.
That false alarm caused Gardenia to fall from the broken railing.
Right before your eyes.
He watched helplessly as the petite and exquisite Gardenia fell from the railing.
Another bang sounded like a watermelon falling to the ground.
There were blood stains all over his body.
She just lay on the ground quietly, with her eyes open and staring at the sky blankly.
Li Chenguang failed to save her.
He was afraid, he hesitated, he didn't dare.
But at the last moment, Li Chenguang still reached out.
He wanted to hold Gardenia's hand.
In his last life, he failed to save her.
Then the last appearance of Gardenia was integrated into his dreams. In the first few months, he often dreamed about it.
Li Chenguang once extremely regretted why he didn't save her, even though he thought it was okay and he could save her.
Li Chenguang finally dug out the memory of Gardenia from the memory that he had buried deeply.
Gardenia is not an NPC, she is a living person, a classmate who was with her in her previous life.
At that time, this matter was simplified, and Gardenia became a number and was forgotten.
No one came to make trouble, and no one talked about her.
"So that's it."
Li Chenguang let out a long breath.
Although I don’t know if it is a coincidence that Gardenia and Li Shuang look exactly the same.
But he already figured it out.
History has been changed by itself.
He saved Gardenia, so she appeared in his life.
Historically, I didn't have much contact with Yin Ruosheng.
She would move out three years later, and then jump to her death two years later!
But in this life, I intervened and saved her.
As a result, she has to move out now.
He changed Gardenia's life, and also changed Yin Ruosheng's life trajectory.
History, no, it should be that their past was indeed changed by themselves.
But I can't change the teacher's future.
It seems that the teacher's death is already destined history and cannot be changed.
...Because if the teacher doesn't die, he won't have the Dragon Ball.
Without the Dragon Balls, I can't go back to the past.
Both sides are an absolute paradox of cause and effect.
If the teacher doesn't die, you will die!
It's not that history can't be changed, but that you can't change your teacher's death!
While Li Chenguang was sitting on the ground thinking, he found a pair of beautiful, white and slender legs appearing in front of him.
"Why are you sitting here?"
Li Chenguang raised his head and looked at the owner of his legs, Yin Ruosheng.
Yin Ruosheng held the setting sun on her back, her moving eyes full of worry, and looked at Li Chenguang worriedly.
Li Chenguang shook his head, "I'm fine."
"..."
Yin Ruosheng opened her mouth, but didn't say anything. She just looked worriedly.
It was Li Chenguang who spoke first and asked, "You came to me, what's the matter?"
Because Yin Ruosheng definitely doesn't want to have anything to do with Li Chenguang outside.
Although Leng Guansheng mistakenly thought that the two were boyfriend and girlfriend, Leng Guansheng did not talk nonsense.
So no one else knows.
"problem occurs."
Yin Ruosheng said in a slightly sad and sad tone, "Xiang'er is dead."
"..."
"A friend of mine called me. Xiang'er's body was found. She was naked and fell to her death. She told me to be careful. Let me tell you, you should be careful too!"
"..."
If nothing else, she will be next.
She was worried that Li Chenguang would harm Li Chenguang if he saved her, so she came over to tell him to pay attention to his safety.
These words also reminded Li Chenguang of a sentence.
"Can history really be changed?"
The power called rules will maintain an absolute balance!
(End of chapter)
