Today's update will be between 23:00 and 24:00 in the evening, but based on my experience over the years, I have reason to believe that it may be at 24:00.
Old book friends probably know what virtue I am updating, so I will explain it to my new friends.
I personally divide the author's writing status into two types, one is a work-type author, and the other is a mentality-type author. A work-oriented writer is the kind of writer who can code and update on time as if he has completed a piece of work, regardless of whether he is interested or not, and whether he is in a good mood or not. I have always admired this kind of people and feel that they have strong self-control and a strong psychological state. I have wanted to be like this for a long time, but over the years, I have slowly realized that it is too difficult for me to do so.
I personally should be an author with that kind of mentality. For example, if I don't like a subject, my thinking will be slow and it will be almost difficult to write. It was extremely difficult to write because I had no interest. Therefore, a lot of preparation work must be done before coding every day. For example, if I want to write a plot that I have repeatedly wanted to write, if there is nothing in the plot that I am interested in, I will not want to open the document and code.
Or look for some movies, TV series, and information to watch to see if it can arouse your interest and enter a certain state - this state means that when you think about a certain plot that you are about to write, you feel extremely excited, as if you know when you are playing a game. The more experience you gain, the more you can get the same thing. In this case, my mind becomes extremely active, and sometimes when I write something I feel like, "Ah, how can I write so well?"
So it's a bit difficult to find this state. Sometimes after updating the night before, I know what I want to write the next day and am quite happy to write it. But when I woke up, I felt that it was not working. It seemed that when I looked back, I realized that what I was going to write was not that good, and I had no interest in it anymore, so I started adjusting from the beginning.
This means that my writing efficiency is relatively low. In fact, when I know what to write and am willing to write, my speed is quite fast. Two chapters and 4,000 words can probably be finished in less than two hours. But what is more time-consuming is the preparation before starting to write.
Another reason is that I am prone to anxiety. For example, I set a time for myself to update before 12 noon every day. Then at eight o'clock in the morning, I started to feel anxious. In fact, there is enough time, but because there is a timeline stuck there, my mind starts to get confused and it becomes a vicious cycle.
So you see, sometimes I update after eight o'clock in the morning or even early in the morning. In this case, I am interested in the plot I want to write, so I work very quickly. Sometimes it takes a long time and has to be updated at 24:00 in the evening. In this case, I may have encountered a problem.
For a professional writer, my situation is actually very problematic. This will lead to an unstable update time and unstable update quantity, which will result in the loss of many readers. I know this, but there is nothing I can do to change it for the time being. Firstly, it’s because it’s too painful to force myself to write something that doesn’t feel like anything. Secondly, if the plot I’m about to write isn’t even interesting to me, then it’s definitely not a good thing to write. In layman’s terms, it’s just “hydrology.” .
From a reader's perspective, it may not be obvious when encountering this kind of writing section, and it may even feel "not bad". Because readers may not pay attention to many details and sentences when reading, but focus more on the plot process. But as far as I am concerned, if I just go through something that could have been written better, it will be very uncomfortable, and it will even form a vicious circle - when I write the following article, I think of what I am dissatisfied with in the previous article, which will affect me. My mood and state of mind.
This point was mentioned above through the mouth of the protagonist. I actually hope that this book can be written so that I am satisfied with every chapter and have no regrets. So far, so good. If I am to say I am not satisfied, it is the plot related to Bi Hai that I am not satisfied with. But there is nothing I can do to change it now, I can only regret it.
I like the subject matter and characters of this book very much. I estimate it will take two or three years to write. The most precious and active time in life is actually only thirty or twenty years, and a book takes up one-tenth of that time, which means a lot to me. Therefore, I don’t want it to become a pure money-making tool, but I hope it can make money and be memorable, so that I won’t want to mention it again after finishing the book.
If I want to praise myself, I would say that in fact, for every chapter update, I ask myself whether it is worthy of everyone's subscription money. Many times a sentence will be changed whether it contains the word "的" or "了", and even whether it is a comma or a period between sentences, I will look back and change it. This kind of detail is basically passed over when reading, but I believe that whether it is changed or not, the feeling when reading will be different, even if the reader does not have a particularly obvious subjective experience.
In fact, this kind of thing is like the background of a restaurant. It's the same dish, but the feeling is completely different when eating it in a restaurant with a good environment and eating it in a restaurant with a poor environment.
Therefore, my update speed and update time are sacrificed for the quality of the article. Maybe some people don't need to torture like me, and the quality is similar to mine. But here, I have tried my best to achieve the best quality possible within my ability.
For example, in my writing, there should be very few grammatical errors and very few typos. These things are all grinded out slowly. Contrary to the views of many people, I feel that as a writer, no matter whether the story is good or not, the plot is exciting or not, the most basic respect for the readers is to make the sentences smooth and the punctuation correct.
The book wasn't updated very well last month, but there's no need to worry about it breaking like a god. One is because the subject matter is not sensitive, and the other is because I like this book more, or I like the protagonist more.
Therefore, I can only try my best to ensure the update time this month before 24:00 every day. If I write faster one day and feel satisfied with it, I can’t wait to post it in advance so that I can receive comments. But if I don’t ask for leave, it will probably be posted after 23:50.
I have been in a bad mood these days, which has also affected my writing. As a result, I have lost interest in many things and plots, so the progress has been even slower. Thank you everyone for your understanding and greetings. Another thing I want to say is that sometimes, the unbearable pain in life often comes faster than we imagine.
Many people feel that that day is still far away. Maybe I've always had a plan in my heart: when and when, what achievements will I make, and then how can I make them live a better life? In the end, everyone will happily go through the last period of their lives, and they have already made it in their hearts. Be prepared to face some pain.
The imaginary scene may be a peaceful face, with children around, a white ward, and finally holding hands and saying something. Although it will be sad, at least I said everything I wanted to say and confessed everything I wanted to explain.
But sometimes things don't develop as imagined, everything happens too suddenly. None of the things I envisioned have been realized, and there will never be a chance of them being realized. Only then will you suddenly realize that everything was too wishful thinking.
How many beautiful ideas are there in our lives? After graduating, finding a job, working hard, making money, getting married, and having children, everything goes smoothly.
But we will all encounter various unsatisfactory situations - after graduation, it took a long time to find a job that I liked, and I even didn't like it at all. Every time I felt that the previous one was better. I thought that I could have a successful career and settle down through my own efforts, but in the end I still had to get help from here and there to solve the housing problem.
These processes may ultimately go through various setbacks before getting the desired results, or even not getting them at all. Looking back, it turns out that this is what life is really like - it is difficult to have anything smooth or beautiful, but it is something that is solved while being anxious. The chance of getting one thing done after asking a person to take all the time to prepare everything is too small.
The same goes for honoring your parents. I didn't get a lot of things done, and I felt like I couldn't devote too much energy, so I thought, when something happens to me, I'll do it. But think about it again, you don’t have to be prepared and have the conditions to do many things. Doing a few more things on a daily basis may be much better than gifting a big house. In the years and decades when life is not going well, you can still care a lot more, and you don't have to regret it when you don't have the chance again.
I wanted to say this a few days ago, but I felt like I couldn't express it. If you haven't experienced something yourself, it's hard to empathize with it just by looking at what others say. Because no one can mentally accept that that will happen to them. But if this can make a few people think more about it, I think it would be good.
Life is unpredictable, and no one has everything going his way. Cherish what's in front of you before it's too late.
Ghost blows out the lamp
