"Of course I am willing!"
Miss Cui Er covered her lips and said with a sweet smile: "That's the eldest son of the Xiao family. He is the most beautiful man in Daqi and a banished immortal in the world."
Yan Liu pursed her lips and said nothing. She thought that she shouldn't have chased him out. She should have a good rest and stop having these thoughts.
After all... that was Xiao Jing, the Xiao Jing who was admired by countless girls.
"Young master of the Xiao family, if I can get his favor, I won't have to worry about anything in my life..."
Miss Cui Er suddenly couldn't speak anymore.
She has experienced all kinds of looks, including curiosity, envy, contempt, covet...
But she never thought that after seeing what she did tonight, a woman could still look at her as a human being. There was no contempt or disgust for herself in her eyes, nor was there that kind of evil heartache.
She clenched the cloak in her hand and asked abruptly: "Don't you remember hating me?"
Yan Liu was stunned for a moment and said, "Why should I bear grudge against you?"
Miss Cui Er raised her eyebrows. The person in front of her was still ignorant.
"You like Mr. Xiao, right? Aren't you angry at me tonight...?"
Yan Liu quickly replied: "No, you misunderstood."
Miss Cui Er showed a clear look and said firmly: "You like him."
After Yan Liu finished speaking, she realized that she was too eager, but she had never thought about it in this direction before. Does she really like Xiao Jing?
She said softly: "No, I don't like him. There is no possibility for me and him."
Maybe she had liked Xiao Jing, but this kind of love was too weak.
If Miss Cui Er hadn't accidentally revealed the matter tonight, she would never have realized it.
Miss Cui Er asked again: "What about now? Don't you still hate me now?"
Yan Liu said lightly: "No."
Because even if I like him, you are no threat to me.
The obstacle between me and him has never been a single individual.
Yan Liu was so sure that if they were together, Xiao Jing would never feel uncomfortable because of who made her, and they would be a loving couple that was envied by others.
However, it is impossible for them to be together.
Miss Cui Er was silent for a long time, then continued: "But a man's love is always unreliable."
"ah?"
Miss Cui Er said: "Not everyone can win the favor of Young Master Xiao.
Therefore, I am willing and unwilling to do things tonight.
Be willing to climb high branches to live a better life.
I don’t want to climb high and humiliate myself, always thinking about pleasing others. "
This was extremely contradictory, but Yan Liu understood it.
"You are not loved at home?"
Miss Cui Er smiled again, but this time her smile was less charming: "There are nearly 20 sisters in my family, and only my eldest sister and I are remembered by our father's names."
Maybe it was because the night was too cold tonight, or maybe the scene in the house just took up too much of her energy.
Miss Cui Er didn't know why she suddenly had the idea of confiding, and said: "Do you know what my name is?"
Yan Liu didn't know, but her daughter's family probably had those words.
"It's Mei'er. My name is Cui Mei'er. Does it suit me well?"
Yan Liu was stunned. The last sentence made her instantly understand which word it was, but it was too much.
Cui Meier laughed again, she really liked to laugh, and said: "This name was given to me by Aunt Hua, oh, she is my biological mother.
She said she could tell my future just by looking at my face.
When I was a child, I would be punished by copying Buddhist scriptures if my voice was louder. She often said that her daughter's family should be docile.
My sisters envy me for having a brother who is loved by my father, but...
I grew up in the back house, and he went to the academy to study. We only saw each other a few times a year, and we only exchanged a few hasty words each time. "
Miss Cui Er calmed down and said, "He is dissatisfied with Aunt Hua's arrangements for me.
He felt that I didn’t need to go to a wealthy family to be a concubine, I could just find someone with a low family background to marry.
But...I don't want to. "
When Cui Meier said this, she stared at Yan Liu closely, wanting to see what kind of expression she would show.
Yan Liu said: "I think the conflict between your aunt and biological mother is not a secret in Fancheng.
After your father has passed away for a hundred years, this Cui Mansion should not be your backing.
And you are a concubine, so if you want to marry the legitimate son of another family, your family background will not be high enough.
Moreover, you cannot marry anyone who is certain to have a promising future, even if they come from a poor family. "
Cui Mei'er said: "Yes, precisely because they were born into a poor family, they are extremely concerned about the power of the Wife clan.
Even if such a person reaches his thirties, he still feels that he will not marry a wife hastily.
But it is well known that I have a very bad relationship with my aunt, so if I want to get married, I must marry from a distant place or from a lower family background. "
At this time, keeping the door lintel low is not a simple matter of saving money, but one has to do the laundry by hand.
Cui Meier said: "I was lucky enough to be born well, so I don't want to live like that.
I have seen my eldest sister. She married that man less than three years ago and she seemed to have aged more than ten years.
She would get up before dawn every day and grind beans because her mother-in-law loved to eat them.
And because her mother-in-law served her mother-in-law like this when she was young, the eldest sister didn't even have the possibility to refuse.
I think you have to serve someone when you get married, and you have to serve someone when you are a concubine. There is no difference between the two.
A human concubine can still live a good life for a few years, but who can care about the future?
I want to live a better life, I just want to live without worries about food and clothing, I know this is wrong, but..."
Yan Liu said categorically: "No, you are right."
Cui Meier looked at her in surprise.
Yan Liu said: "Isn't your brother studying hard just to become an official?
They gave the children in the family a way to work hard, but told the daughters in the family to accept their fate and recognize their own birth.
This in itself is a ridiculous thing.
this is not your fault.
It's because they only give you such a way to make progress, but they still use this matter to test your emotions and make you understand that this is your own fault and your own willingness to be humble.
The prerequisite for saying that you are willing to be humble is that they give you other choices.
But no, I know some people don't treat their wives as human beings.
And the more people have insufficient food and clothing, the more they will be superstitious about the examples of people around them and their own past experiences.
Because they also don’t have the opportunity to read, read and understand, and no one will tell them such truth.
What they accept is that women are born to serve others. "
Cui Meier smiled and said: "So... you are also a lunatic."
She laughed for a while, then stopped, and returned to her soft and harmless look, saying: "Don't say this to others, they will say that you are sick and are thinking about something all day long. "
Yan Liu said: "If you had the chance to choose, would you choose to get married?"
"I said, I think the life of being married is too hard."
“There are always exceptions, and there are always men in this world who treat their wives wonderfully.
And what you said is that your brother wants you to get married, but this is not what your mother has planned for you. "
"I...I don't know."
"Then think again and give me another answer."
