The moment he saw Chen Yue, Valentine felt like a madman.
When the self before time travel stands in front of the self after time travel, either there is something wrong with the world or there is something wrong with myself.
what is this?
Is everything about Chen Yue my imagination? I didn't actually travel through time, I just gained another person's memory while losing my memory? Am I a native of Terra?
Then who is this Chen Yue? Are you from Terra too? His looks are incompatible with this world!
Valentin stared blankly at Chen Yue, who was holding his wrist and pressing her lips tightly. His body and mind were off-line, hanging on the edge like a living dead. Fortunately, his body was not too heavy. As a young man, Chen Yue was still strong enough, so it took a lot of effort to pull him up.
"I go……"
After dragging Valentine up, Chen Yue leaned back and sat on the ground, gasping for air. She looked very tired.
"At least use your legs a little harder. At least you won't make me so tired."
He looked at the dull self in front of him and smiled, with a look of helplessness on his face.
"When I grabbed your wrist just now, my legs were shaking. The ruins on the ground looked like they were sinking, as if I was being sucked in and sliding down."
Recalling the scene when she just pulled Valentine up, Chen Yue's heart trembled reflexively.
"I'm afraid of heights, and you know this very well."
He supported his body with his left hand and moved back a little, giving himself a sense of security. At the same time, he looked at the beautiful, dirty face in front of him, waiting for the other party's response.
At this time, Valentin was still sitting on the ground in a daze, completely lost in the thought of "who am I, where am I, and what am I going to do?" He looked like a silly cat in a certain emoticon. However, Chen Yue's words just now awakened him and made him focus on "himself" in front of him again.
"Acrophobia?"
Valentin blinked, met Chen Yue's gaze, and slowly repeated these three words.
"right."
Chen Yue nodded, pointed at herself and the boy in front of her, and gave an affirmative reply.
"It's an old problem on Earth. You haven't overcome it even though you have lived on Terra for more than two years."
The words were harsh in Valentine's ears.
"Who are you?"
Even though the man in front of him looked like him from head to toe, and even his voice was the same, Valentine still didn't believe that he was the same person he was on earth.
"Chen Yue."
But there is always only one answer.
"I am you."
"fart!"
As if he had heard some bad news, Valentine clenched his fists and slammed the ground. He looked at the calm boy in front of him fiercely, stood up and yelled at him.
"You are Chen Yue, then who am I?!"
"You are me, then what am I?!"
At this moment, Valentine became as violent as the spirit behind him, as if he could spit out thunder and lightning from his mouth. He wanted to take out a swift sword and stab the "fake" in front of him, but no matter how hard Valentin tried, he could not feel the presence of the Blade Angel.
Even the breath of the spirit behind him disappeared.
"I am you, you are me, we are one."
Valentine, who suddenly rose up, had a dangerous aura all over his body, but Chen Yue still sat on the ground with a calm expression.
It looks scary, but that's about it.
"I know you have a lot of questions now, but I can tell you clearly."
"You are not crazy, and you are in a normal state of mind. Time travel does exist. Your original name was Chen Yue, who was me, and now you are Valentine, who is you."
"As for why I appear in front of you..."
He raised his hand and pointed at the sky.
"Jiao Zhengyu knows."
"you know too."
These words were like a needle sticking into Valentine's body, venting all the anger in his heart. The boy looked at his past self, slowly bent down and sat in front of him.
Letting two personalities in one body talk face to face is just a piece of cake for Jiao Zhengyu. As long as he wanted to, it wouldn't be a problem to separate Chen Yue and Valentine and live in their own worlds.
But unfortunately, this artificial intelligence is bound by rules, and this best-of-both-worlds approach simply cannot be achieved.
As for the reason why Chen Yue appeared in front of Valentine...
"How does it feel to stand at a crossroads in life again?"
Chen Yue tilted her head and looked at the colorless Valentine in front of her.
He received no response, and there was only silence in this time-lost shadow.
"……very bad."
After a long time, the boy slowly spoke and began to communicate with his past self.
No matter what he looks like or what world he exists in, bad luck will always be around him.
This is true for Chen Yue, and so is Valentin.
His experience on earth has made the word "inferiority" deeply engraved in his heart, even if it has not changed after time travel. Chen Yue used to like to communicate with classmates and friends who were better than him. He felt that at least he would not fall into depravity if he continued like this, but he ignored the increasingly serious mental illness.
There is no harm without contrast.
After traveling to the world of Terra, the appearance of Jiao Zhengyu and the use of Origin Stone skills gave the boy the idea of "I am the protagonist" for the first time. The inferiority complex that had been suppressed by reality suddenly experienced a violent rebound. , and then entered the realm of self-expansion.
This was not an effective treatment, but it hurt him even more. Even though so much time had passed, and even though Jiao Zhengyu had told him that the tragedy in Chernobog was inevitable, no matter how hard he tried to save it, Valentin still felt deeply proud of this city. Responsibility and guilt.
Valentin's depression is gradually improving because of Xing Yihuang and Raphael, but this pathological self-awareness can only be treated by himself.
"I can feel it."
Chen Yue nodded.
"So, I came out to help you make your choice."
There was nothing he could do to help Valentin with this psychological problem, because they were one person.
In fact, even Chen Yue himself was deeply involved in it and knew that there was something wrong with it, but he still felt that this was the best direction for his development.
What he, or rather Valentine himself, has to solve today is who to save.
The world of Terra had played a cruel fool on the boy, giving him the means of survival and then taking them away. Tallulah strangled Xing Yihuang by the throat, and her flames could burn this strong-as-iron girl to ashes; the Sakaz herd and the Ursus mercenaries were heading towards the command tower, and the dehumanized beasts were already staring at them. If she fucks Raphael, she will be torn to pieces by claws.
This is like a trolley problem. Xing Yihuang and Raphael are lying on the tracks on both sides. Valentine's choice seems to be to sacrifice one of them. Of course, he could also rush forward and explode his own small universe in an attempt to stop the speeding train and save both of them, but he would be the one who sacrificed in the end.
However, this third option does not guarantee that the two of them will survive, and Valentine will definitely die.
Valentine is not afraid of death, he has already died once.
but……
What I got in exchange for working so hard was an uncertain result, and the probability of failure was still very high. Is it really worth it?
There is also the earth, the world where he originally lived. When Jiao Zhengyu said that the reward was a wish, all he could think about was returning to the earth and returning to his parents to fulfill his filial piety.
For this choice, I gave up my life and my desire to return to the earth. This is really...
Valentine blinked, and he found that his vision was a little blurry. Chen Yue looked at the boy in front of him who slowly raised his head, feeling bitter in his heart.
There were two crystal tears on the face covered with blood.
"It turns out, it turns out..."
The trembling voice echoed in the still space. Valentine slowly raised his hand to touch his cheek. The big tears couldn't stop falling, dripping on the floor and blending into the black.
It was like the sadness melted into his heart.
"Am I such a selfish person..."
Self-knowledge is a very good advantage, and Valentin once felt that this was his only advantage. But just as he was thinking about it, he sadly discovered that he had never recognized himself until just now.
"Yihuang, I can feel the emotions in Yihuang's heart. Although she is a taciturn girl, I can see it in her daily life and see what she is thinking in her heart."
The locked door in my heart opened, and what was left was the outpouring of true love. Jiao Zhengyu understands that he is not the best listener, and only he is the best choice.
This is a thorough self-examination.
"Everyone can see how good Raphael is to me, and I also understand the hints and words she has said to me. Although I am just a piece of wood in their eyes, I know it very well in my heart."
"I have no doubt they would lay down their lives for me."
Valentine's voice was a little muffled and he covered his face.
"But, but..."
"When they were in danger, I was actually thinking about myself..."
"It turns out that I have never changed, I have always been the same cowardly guy..."
Sobbing sounded in the darkness. Chen Yue glanced at herself who was crying with her face covered, then raised her head and stared at the sky.
Countless memories flooded into his mind.
Valentine has always thought that he is a good person. He does not smoke or drink. Even if he becomes a gangster and commits crimes, he still does it to avenge others. He also uses the resources in his hands to help other fallen people return to the right path.
Of course we have done bad things, but no one is perfect. Who hasn’t done bad things? What he did basically had no impact on society, not even a small splash.
Especially when it comes to relationships, Valentine is much more serious than most men, which can be seen from his life with Xing Yihuang Raphael.
As a man with normal functions, he managed to maintain his virginity even after living in a big house with two girls for such a long time. He took all of Raphael's attacks and defused them, and Xing Yihuang's Silent care has no effect. They have even developed a habit of living together. I am afraid that if one day they have to sleep in the same bed for some reason, Valentin will be able to fall asleep without a blushing heart. It is also possible that Snoring woke up Xing Yihuang beside him.
The reason for this is very simple. Valentine feels that he is not yet ready to be responsible, so naturally he will not develop further relationships with them.
Does he seem like a good man?
But that's just what it seems on the surface.
If you think about their relationship carefully, you will find that Valentine and these two are like a binary star system in space, rotating around each other and unable to separate, but not tightly together and becoming one.
This kind of distant relationship is actually a very scumbag behavior.
As Chen Yue, Valentin didn't feel much love. Xing Yihuang and Raphael's affection for him was like honey, which made this boy who had never tasted sweetness become addicted. But he doubted whether he could be responsible and was unwilling to give up this sweet relationship, so he has kept it until now.
Xing Yihuang and Raphael have been exporting their love to Valentin, but they have not received much feedback from each other. This was a one-sided support, and they really loved this guy, so they stayed by his side and were held by Valentine passively and tightly.
He never felt that he had gone too far until he just faced the choice of life.
It's a good time to fall in love with a girl. You can rely on each other to tide over the difficulties together. If you don't have enough strength, it's okay to like two people, but when you encounter danger, it becomes a disaster, just like what Valentine is facing now.
Which one do you want to save? Or save them all?
Can you be saved?
If I had known this, why did I do it in the first place?
"Do you regret it?"
After an unknown amount of time, the sobbing in Chen Yue's ears disappeared. He withdrew his gaze and looked at Valentine, whose eyes were a little red in front of him.
"What do you regret?"
Valentine sniffed and looked aside.
"Xing Yihuang, Raphael."
He said the two names that meant so much to Valentine, his eyes fixed on each other's faces.
"I do not regret."
Valentin was stunned for a moment, then turned his head to meet Chen Yue's gaze. His eyes were not as confused as at first, but as sharp as a sword.
The young boy had made his choice.
"kindness……"
Chen Yue scratched his head and then sighed.
"Originally, I was separated by Jiao Zhengyu to let you understand what you are really thinking about now and to dispel your concerns about moving forward."
"But now it seems that there is no need for me to continue talking."
"You already know what you have to do."
He stood up, his figure became illusive, and Valentine could see the still fire behind him through his body.
"My name is Chen Yue. I come from Earth. It's time to go back now."
Valentine looked at the hand stretched out in front of him and held it tightly.
"Although this sounds a little selfish, you are already dead on Earth. As Valentine, you don't need to continue to think about things in that world."
"What you should do most is to grasp your life in the world of Terra."
Saying that, Chen Yue smiled.
"After all, here you have the motivation to live, instead of living like the zombies of the Earth."
"Will we meet again in the future?"
The figure he was most familiar with has mostly disappeared, and Valentine can no longer hold his hand. Seeing the smile on Chen Yue's face, he raised his arm to touch his past self one last time, but he didn't touch anything.
Only that familiar voice echoed in my ears.
"Not anymore, Valentine."
"Chen Yue is dead. You have to live well and live for those who love you."
"It's no longer a 'mission', it's your heart's desire."
Finally, even this voice disappeared, and only Valentine was left in the darkness.
In 2019, Chen Yue slipped and fell to her death, which made the news on local TV stations. That day, tens of thousands of people remembered his name, either sighing or being dumbfounded.
In 2020, not many people remember the name Chen Yue except his relatives. In the group chats in which he was once active, someone would occasionally mention that so-and-so had not spoken to him for a long time, and then everything disappeared. .
Now, Chen Yue's parents have gotten over the pain of losing their son. Life must go on, and they cannot remain immersed in grief. In another world, Valentin, who bid farewell to the past, gave up his fantasy of surviving and returning to Earth, and turned to look at this land full of pain.
At this moment, Chen Yue was completely dead.
The choking smoke appeared in Valentine's nasal cavity for a long time, and the hot flame seemed to come to life again. Valentine stood on the edge of the top floor of the command tower and sneered.
"You were born boring, so why not die?"
Then, he lowered his head to look at the ruined ground and let out a low sigh.
"But I'm different. I still have someone I want to protect with all my life, and I still have something I..."
He hesitated, but still didn't say the word.
"Jiao Zhengyu."
Blue thunder burst out from the body and wrapped around Valentine's body. Severe pain filled his body, and a large number of Originium crystals were generated on the surface of his body. However, Valentine did not show any pain, and just looked at the gradually shrinking dark border in the distance.
The mental space where time stood still was disintegrating, and he would be able to return to reality in no time.
A white-haired film appeared behind Valentine, wearing casual clothes that he was all too familiar with.
"Ore patients will turn into a pile of source stones after they die, right?"
Valentin turned his head and looked at Jiao Zhengyu, showing a smile.
"right."
"Do you support payment after use?"
"support."
The corners of his mouth raised, revealing his big white teeth.
"Then let's make a deal."
Valentine's originally light red eyes had turned blood red at this time, and countless vine branches emerged from the surface of the building, wrapping the flames that gradually resumed activity, suppressing these violent elements.
They are not afraid of heat and burning because they are protected by thunder.
"Give me the power to open the door to the path to godhood again and release everything contained within to save their lives."
"I will die without regrets and leave you a humanoid statue of Originium."
"how?"
…
Chen Yue, you still don’t understand, but I understand.
Without them, how can I live well?
I live for them.
Xing Yihuang and Raphael...
One cannot be missing!
