She has never celebrated a birthday, and Liu Xin has never wanted to celebrate her birthday any differently.
In the past, my family was poor, and then I was a slave, so I didn’t deserve to have a birthday.
Later, when I had the conditions, I felt that other people's birthdays were to commemorate my own birth and the kindness of my parents. Liu Xin didn't think that these things needed special commemoration. She had even been unsure whether her parents' kindness was worthy of her.
This is also the origin of Liu Xin’s deep obsession.
Unexpectedly, my first birthday was still held, and I celebrated it with my family. Although there was a simple meal on the table, Liu Xin had never had a spiritual feeling.
Liu Xin didn't look back when she left, but when she came out of Dezhu City, she felt as if she had lost something that was closely connected to her. The feeling of being cut was hard for her to accept for a while.
Even shortly after leaving Dezhu City, Liu Xin felt that something was wrong, so she could only find a quiet place, put down the array given by her master, and cross her legs to adjust her breathing, hoping to alleviate her sudden trouble.
This trouble was so sudden and overwhelming. It does not come from the physical level, but from the spiritual level, and the root seems to be in one's own "Tao".
Liu Xin smiled bitterly and understood that she might be in big trouble this time. She never thought that she would actually encounter her own "tribulation" in the late stage of the Mysterious Vein Realm. And it is also an extremely dangerous "heart disaster".
Liu Xin remembered that he had seen this kind of early calamity in Taoist books. It can be said that it is rare. And there are also benefits to experiencing a catastrophe early, which means that the possibility of encountering similar catastrophes later will be much smaller, and even if it happens again, it will be much less risky than others and easier to survive.
But the problem is that Liu Xin is not sure whether she can survive this time. If we fail this time, what will we talk about in the future?
What else can I do but smile bitterly? Perhaps without this experience of going home and the determination to cut off the past, there would not be this knot of heart.
regret? Liu Xin had no such idea. From the moment she met her master at the state banquet, her path was destined to be a path forward in full view of everyone, a path that subverted other people's perceptions and all suspicion and contempt.
Since this is how "One of Me" started, there is no reason to change it halfway. Cutting off the past and pursuing the truth wholeheartedly is the step Liu Xin should take. Otherwise, if you really procrastinate and wait until your parents pass away, there will be no way to resolve or cut off this obsession. Liu Xin's "Tao" may have obvious cracks as a result.
But it is one thing to strengthen one's Taoist heart, and it is another thing to resist the calamity of the heart. If you want to solve the heart catastrophe, you still need to find and understand the key to this catastrophe.
He sat in the formation for several days. Liu Xin had no clue at all. The more she figured out what she did in Dezhu City, the more she felt that there was nothing wrong with what she did. But the connection between family and blood will eventually converge into the mother's tearful look before parting, and the mediocre but unforgettable birthday banquet.
It seemed that Liu Xin was being forced to make a choice.
Either admit that one's "Tao" should not cut off the past like this; or continue one's "Tao" but cut it off thoroughly, even the last emotions and memories that remain in the memory must be cleared away. He would not even hesitate to kill them at any cost.
Liu Xin would not choose either option, and she knew that this was just an illusion given to her by Xinjie. If she really chooses any of them, she will be in trouble.
A few more days passed, and Liu Xin was trapped in this mental tribulation. Not only was she unable to move, but her condition was getting worse and worse. She even felt that her consciousness was drying up. If she continues, her Daoji will be seriously damaged.
"Don't be anxious or impatient when facing a calamity. This is not a way to overcome the calamity."
Suddenly, a calm voice sounded directly in Liu Xin's ears, causing her frown to relax. This is Master's voice.
Master is here!
Liu Xin didn't know why the master came suddenly. Her current situation was very critical. If she was not careful, she might directly damage the Taoist foundation, and her future cultivation path would be cut off.
"Master, my disciple is full of doubts, because the choice between family affection and "Tao" seems to be contradictory, creating a pull that makes it difficult for my disciple to untie it now. Although the Dao heart is strong, it is difficult to extricate yourself from the quagmire."
Zhang Yan originally sorted out his late-stage Fusion Realm gains in the cliff mountain to prepare for the Twenty-nine Heavenly Tribulation. But suddenly he felt that his apprentice Liu Xin seemed to be in extreme danger. But there is no inspiration for the protective jade tablet. This made Zhang Yan extremely nervous, and he moved directly to where Liu Xin was.
"The Sword Comes"
The result shocked Zhang Yan at first glance. He also didn't expect Liu Xin to be experiencing a heart tribulation with a mere cultivation in the late stage of the Mysterious Vein Realm!
"Tell me more about your return to your hometown this time. Master, I also want to hear how you deal with your own way." Zhang Yan has never experienced a mental disaster. But after all, he is about to reach the perfect state of integration. There are countless "principles" in his cognition, and he has the ability to help Liu Xin solve some key problems.
Liu Xin also endured the discomfort and quickly told everything she had done in Dezhu City this time, and she told it in relatively detail.
After listening to Liu Xin's narration, Zhang Yan was not emotional, but simply used his own "principles" to find a context that was consistent with Liu Xin's way and could unravel this inner calamity.
"Let me ask you, why do you seek enlightenment?"
"In order to escape from the shackles of all living beings, I want to have a glimpse of the mystery of heaven and earth, and I want to control my destiny in my own hands from now on, so I seek enlightenment."
"Since you want to peep into the mysteries of heaven and earth, and also want to control your destiny, why do you stand still?" Zhang Yan used his own "principle" to draw a line. With a shocking voice and magical power, the words were directly printed in Liu Xin's mind.
"Because I am trapped by family ties, it seems difficult to cut off even if I want to, so the lotus root is entangled with broken silk threads and cannot make any progress."
"Now that the past has been cut off and ended, why are the ties broken? They are just memories and memorials to the past, how can they be considered ties?
To be strong is to have a strong heart. Believe in your own choices, accept your past and past events calmly, and just have a clear conscience. Why worry about everything? Where did the disconnection come from? "
This sentence first states what is a strong person, and is followed by two rhetorical questions.
"But do you want to have a clear conscience? A strong person only has memories and the past, but no disconnection?" These words broke in like a pair of scissors, and then Kacha cut through Liu Xinben's messy consciousness with a sound. Once a thread is sorted out, the knots behind it can naturally be undone...
