The girl sat in front of the table and looked at Ma En opposite with a complicated mood:
"You mean...
"I'm Luna now."
Ma En nodded slightly to her:
"That's right."
Sally was quite confused about her situation.
The moment she first appeared in this room, she was truly born. Before that, she was just a false character in the dream created by Luna and Ma En.
It's just that Luna's skills were so superb that she thought she was really alive.
Now Seli doesn't know how to deal with her identity. If she is Ma En's childhood playmate, it is obviously not very reasonable. Chen Yun and You Yue have never even seen her. Those are all after Ma En was distorted by the moon god. memory.
But she does have her own personality, and those memories are all she has.
And if we want to talk about the Moon Goddess, she doesn’t think she is the woman who cruelly created her. Rather than saying that she is the same person, she feels that the Moon Goddess is more like her mother, but according to Ma En Come and see...
They seemed to be one again.
Seri looked at Ma En and asked her best and only friend:
"Do you know what I am?"
When asking questions, Seli was a little uneasy and nervous, even though the person opposite was her best friend.
But what she was familiar with was the young Ma En. What had he become after so many years?
Could Marne have turned into a terrible adult? After all, if she were the Moon God, her value would likely be coveted, but Seri was not afraid of what Ma En would do to her.
What she was afraid of was that Ma En had changed.
Ma En said softly to the girl in front of him:
“I understand your confusion, it depends on how you look at it.
"If you look at it from a human perspective, it can be understood that you were born on her corpse. Normally, gods with the same concept will also have different personalities, and they will be reborn every time they are killed.
"Although the reborn gods may be very similar to the past, most of them will become completely new personalities. Their view is that they did not die due to changes in personality, but your situation is very special.
“Because Luna probably doesn’t think so.
"She seemed to feel that maintaining her personality was a very important thing when she was alive. I think she may even regard it as a situation that determines her life and death. I have not seen other gods up close, but I can guarantee you that she .
"The Moon God is indeed different from other gods. Gods are born from human understanding and imagination of a certain concept. After they appear and are given personalities, they will certainly not be limited by human imagination, but they are still influenced by humans.
"And personality is not an important thing to them. In ancient times, the gods may have existed in concepts close to spiritual bodies or natural will. These and human appearances may just be different appearances to them.
"If you look at it from the perspective of the gods, your personality is just the posture they show.
"They do not exist in this way, but are a life form that is completely different from ours. If we have a non-human understanding of nature, these gods may develop in other directions.
"Humanoid minds are only what they can be, not what they are.
"But the Moon Goddess is somewhat different from her own kind of existence form. She is a spiritual deity.
"According to my limited understanding, she exists as some kind of spiritual entity that is more independent and integrated than other gods. This is probably why she actively tries to preserve her personality.
"After all, if you feel that you are a human at this moment, you will probably try to continue your mind, and you may even regard the non-human part as not your own, and regard your sleep as death. This is what the moon god does. Reason for fear.
“It’s even possible that this is the case.
"Then Seli...
"Can you feel who you are?"
Sally closed her eyes.
"I……
"Feel nothing."
Ma En nodded slightly:
"You don't feel any different from the past, right?"
The girl nodded to him:
"Yeah, I can't feel anything."
Ma En looked into her eyes and said:
"now it's right."
Seri said doubtfully:
"What's the meaning?"
"This means that you are still your past self." Ma En said, "Whether it is the Moon God standing in front of me now or something else, the one who is talking to me is you, Seli.
"You are the one who is thinking."
Seli showed a somewhat surprised look:
"I understand. In fact, none of those questions are important.
"'I' am me. These thoughts and memories have constituted me. Even if most of the memories do not exist at all, I am still constituted by them. It does not matter if the memory is false...
"Because I'm real."
Ma En nodded:
“That’s right, no matter what the moon goddess is, you must be Seri.
“And I have some inferences about this.
“Actually, I didn’t expect this situation.
"After all, I didn't know where I would meet you before I deliberately walked into her trap.
"If things go according to my original plan, Luna should theoretically fall into a deep sleep.
"And she will be trapped in this room and never be reborn. As far as I know, there are almost no gods lower than level 4. If they reach your level, they often cannot maintain their existence.
"Actually, it was a surprise to you, but I already have some ideas.
"Actually, the entire plan was basically fine, including killing the Moon God. However, I didn't accurately predict what would happen to this god after he entered the containment room.
“She died, but Luna did not fall into a deep sleep, but was born in the containment chamber.
"I suspect it has something to do with the containment chamber, her trap, and the fact that Luna is an independent psychic entity.
"It's probably because she is a spiritual entity that led to your appearance, but I have no basis for this. At least there is no way to verify it before taking in the next god.
"Judging from your current appearance, you are a newborn made up of my dream and her corpse. After all, if we use real standards, you have just appeared."
Sally said worriedly:
“But if my false memory is used as a standard, I have lived for more than ten years.
"And just now, I suddenly discovered that almost all of my memories were false, and then I appeared here and was reborn in the body of a god, but this was just my memory.
"The truth is I didn't even exist before I entered this room."
"Chen Yun and You Yue have never even met me. If I ran up to them and said 'hello', they would definitely regard me as a lunatic. In fact, I have known you for a long time.
"and……"
She raised her head and looked at Ma En with sad eyes:
"Even the time you and I really spent together wasn't that long. We just spent a nightmare together. And I just really saw you. This is how you treat me...
"Am I just an old dream of yours?"
Ma En shook his head:
"No, although it is difficult for me to regard you as my childhood playmate, it is definitely not just that. Frankly speaking, I feel that I have a responsibility to you, as I said...
"You were born in my memory, which makes me feel that you are a bit like my descendant in a certain way. After all, you come from me, but you are definitely not the way we understand a neutron heir to me.
"From other perspectives, you are a bit like my past. In fact, simple words cannot summarize the relationship between us. You and I cannot be understood in terms of any common friends or blood relationships, because in fact we are indeed Different from them.
“This is a very complicated emotion, and I don’t have the luxury of figuring it out in a short time.
"And actually when I look at you, I feel an inexplicable intimacy.
"This is very similar to the feeling I had on the phone with Chen Yun."
The girl who heard this sentence was a little confused:
"Why? You and she really know each other."
Ma En said:
"Actually, my situation is somewhat similar to yours. For you, Chen Yun and You Yue may never remember you again, while I never remember them at all.
"Because I lost my memory some time ago."
Sally's face was full of surprise:
"how so?
"You clearly remember your past when you were in a dream. Is that also imagination? No, there is no way imagination can be so real..."
Seeing that Seli was starting to panic, Ma En quickly reassured:
"No, that's not false.
"I sent people to search for photos and video records from the past. There were some things in the dream that I had not seen since I lost my memory, but they were all basically consistent with reality. Even if there were some differences, they were distortions and changes based on the real blueprint. .
“Strictly speaking, what we saw was derived from my memory.
"But I still didn't remember anything when I was inside, and I was just vaguely moving along my instincts. At that time, I was basically controlled by the Moon God's trap, and I had no room to think on my own.
“And that’s one thing I want to tell you.
"You now possess the memories of my pre-teens. Although they are not that accurate, they still contain memories of my past. If you allow me...
"I want to take a look, there's something I need to know."
"What do you want to know?" she asked hesitantly.
Ma En was hesitant to speak:
"You also understand that what we experience in dreams are distorted memories, right?
"That is to say, when You Yue was attacked..."
Seri suddenly turned pale:
"I wasn't there?"
Ma En nodded and said:
"So I probably didn't have time to find her at that time, and I might even have no way to kill the angel. I don't remember the specific situation, but based on my understanding...
"She should have died there."
Seli's face turned a bit white:
"So that's why you took me there."
Obviously she knew that You Yue had never seen her again, but Seli still felt intense grief uncontrollably.
It was like she had just lost a friend forever.
Ma En asked:
"So I wanted to ask, would you mind if I went to see your past?"
Sally replied:
"I'm not used to it when you say that. It seems to me that it's our past."
After saying that, she closed her eyes:
"bring it on."
Ma En looked at where her eyes were, and then closed them too.
blank.
Countless bubbles surrounded him.
The bursting white foam turned into an ocean-like scene, and there were some isolated islands floating on the sea. Ma En immediately turned around and headed towards them, and then felt the memory inside.
Then, he was sure of one thing.
The person in front of him was indeed a girl named Seri, and she had spent a long "time" with him. She was not the disguise of the moon god or the back-up of the resurrection. Seri had many memories of living in the orphanage.
Although he didn't say it out loud, this was actually another purpose of his.
Although she is currently in a containment room and is only at Level 3, she cannot be taken lightly.
After that, he began to search for his own memories.
But nothing was found.
Ma En exited the girl's mind:
"Are you sure you remember the time you spent with me? I didn't see anything in there."
The girl who heard this sentence quickly recalled it, worried that even her own memory had disappeared, but she immediately raised her head and looked at Ma En in confusion:
"I remember it very clearly?"
if it is like this……
Maybe he just couldn't see it, just like he couldn't see the moon god at that time.
The Unmemorable is still affecting him, preventing him from re-memorizing his past situations. It seems likely that there is still memory of the past in his brain at this moment, but he is just unable to perceive it.
And when these memories appear in the minds of other creatures, I still have no way of sensing them.
Because he didn't "forget".
It's that you can't see the memories circled by the unmemorable.
"Ma En..." the silver-haired girl asked cautiously, "am I not allowed to leave here?"
Ma En nodded:
“That’s it for now, but don’t worry, I can see your doubts.
"Our situation is complicated, but our relationship is definitely not just friends.
"No one knows me better than you, and no one knows you better than I do.
"You know I wouldn't lie to you."
Seli was stunned for a moment, then showed a relieved smile:
"you understood."
Ma En nodded and continued:
"Now if you leave the containment room and the Anomaly Control Bureau, you will probably be killed completely, because the Moon God has a ritual that can resurrect his personality in reality, and it has been arranged in the hearts of all humans in the Southern Federation.
“Once you get out, she’ll probably replace you.
“But I’m still going to try to find a way to solve this problem.
"Before this, you can wait here for me to solve this problem, or do something. If you want to live a normal life, I can also extract the characteristics of the Moon God in you, but that requires another level 5 anomaly. The entity is consumed as a price.
"And if you want, you can join the organization I'm in now."
Sally blinked and asked:
"Then after I join, can I stay by your side?"
Ma En nodded:
"sure."
