In the darkness, the whispering voice paused slightly in my ears, and then continued.
"...Although I have had similar speculations for a long time, I never believed it before. Thinking about it later, I think it's not so much disbelief as it is disbelief."
The scene around her was still eerie and terrifying. In the past, Mai Shiraishi would have been so frightened that she would not dare to look at it for one more second even if someone was around.
But now she didn't feel scared at all. Her eyes were looking at the mottled walls and dusty furnishings quietly. There was no fear in her eyes but confusion and self-mockery.
"After all, you and Nanamin seem to be so well matched. It seems to me that they are a match made in heaven. Nanamin likes reading, and you happen to know a lot about it. Nanamin likes spicy food, and you can also cook delicious food." The hot pot, even the ramen shop where Nanamin first came to Tokyo to work, you have a good relationship with the store manager there, they are old acquaintances——"
"You can have endless topics to talk about all day long. Whether in the lounge or in the cabin or even in other places, you can often be seen talking. Although your mouth can be quite irritating sometimes, but I also know that you are indeed a very good guy. Although it is a bit strange to say this, but if it were not like this, I would really like you. It is not surprising that you like Nanamin, Nanamin will like you even more It’s not surprising, you are a match made in heaven—”
"But what about me? I didn't even dare to say that I liked someone, and I didn't even dare to admit it for a long time. I didn't know what to do, and I didn't know what was right. Sometimes I felt aggrieved. I felt aggrieved that I liked someone. What's wrong with people? Why do I have to suffer silently when it's my turn to be sad? Later I learned that there is nothing wrong with liking, and there is nothing wrong with having a crush, but falling in love with someone you shouldn't like doesn't give you the right to choose to feel wronged... ...."Juqu Pavilion
It's as if some tragedies happen not because of accident or cowardice, but because they were destined to have such an ending from the beginning.
Baiyunshan continued to move forward with steady steps, and this sentence could not help but silently emerge in his heart.
He could understand the girl's thoughts all along, even though it was so complicated, so entangled, and so heavy. There is no lightness in the long-winded self-deprecation. Even if the tone is light, the words spoken are so heavy that I don't know what kind of expression to face.
"I used to hear people say that liking can make a person stupid. I am not smart to begin with. I am not as good as Nana Min, and my academic performance is not good either."
Mai Shiraishi continued to whisper: "I have said so much just because I don't know what to do. It's true that I like you, but I also care about Nanamin. I don't know how to solve these problems. , maybe there is no solution at all, it’s like a knot that is tangled together and cannot find a way out.”
"So, even if I do something meaningless and stupid now, just think of it as a little willfulness on my part..."
When the voice fell, only his footsteps echoed in the dead and gloomy corridor.
At this time, we were only one step away from the gathering place where a certain Hokkaido girl might be waiting. We could reach it by walking to the front and opening the door to open the mechanism designed in the haunted house.
Baiyunshan slowly squatted down and put the girl down on his back. Shiraishi Mai let go of her hand on her shoulder and stood aside.
He faced the door, then turned to look at the girl who seemed to be mentally prepared. She lowered her head slightly and stared at her toes, not knowing what her mood was, and was silent for a moment.
"This is the story of a friend of mine. Of course, it doesn't matter if you think of him as my story. When my friend was in school, he also had a crush on a girl in the school."
He spoke softly, of course this was a story before he came to this world, and his tone of description was very calm: "I was still young at that time, very young, I didn't know anything, and my views on things were all ignorant. Yes, my instinct is that the person I like must also like me, and my friend is no exception——"
Mai Shiraishi raised her head in surprise. Someone was actually telling her a story about her past. Was it related to feelings? Although it may not necessarily be his own, it is still exciting enough. It seems that he has never heard of such private past events.
Did you mention it in person? Have you told Nanamin?
She subconsciously said: "What happened next?"
"Later, he tried to talk to the girl, trying his best to get close, or pretending to meet her by chance and lurking in places he passed by after school, such as the school's bicycle parking lot, just to say a few more words."
Bai Yunshan glanced at her and continued: "You know, boys at that age are always very active and love to show their presence in front of the people they like. Even if they deliberately make the other person angry, tease her and bully her, They all think it’s a normal thing, and feel complacent that they’ve attracted each other’s attention——”
Mai Shiraishi's face turned slightly red and she lowered her head, remembering what someone once said and her usual actions. Of course, she didn't think that the Baiyunshan in front of her did so for the same reason as the friend he said, but when she thought about it, it still made people feel uncomfortable. Quite concerned——
"It's just that one time, he didn't grasp the heat and accidentally went a little too far, and bullied the girl to tears."
Bai Yunshan continued with a calm voice: "The girl cried very sadly and very sad. She rushed out of the classroom crying. The whole class looked at him. He was embarrassed, felt overwhelmed, and wanted to run out. Comforting, but I feel like I can’t pull that face off.”
"But he did something wrong after all, didn't he? What's there to be ashamed of?" Mai Shiraishi couldn't help but interrupt.
Baiyunshan smiled slightly, with no trace of concern on his face, and explained: "Of course it is like this for us now, but for children of that age, especially boys, sometimes face is more important than life. . It’s completely normal for someone to do any stupid thing because of a moment of passion.”
"This time is no exception."
He sighed softly and whispered: "He decided to apologize to the girl alone on her way back, so he waited at the bicycle parking lot where he often met by chance. At that time, he still felt that it was nothing. He felt very relaxed. Because he felt that he was already very familiar with the other party. Even if they were not boyfriend and girlfriend, he also felt that the other party must like him a little bit. This kind of thing could be over with just an apology - —”
"Then what happened?"
Mai Shiraishi had noticed something was wrong and asked cautiously.
